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today i had that involuntary twitch on my left hand. i always had that twitch before. what it usually does is my pinky finger involuntary rubs my ring finger since my ring finger had that engagement ring with your name engraved in it. i always do that especially when i am frustrated about something i can't get or if i am in deep thought. i was always used to it. suddenly, out of the blue, i had that involuntary movement again. and i just realized, or my pinky rather, that the engagement ring that ...

yes. today, i punched a concrete wall a thousand times. i was waiting for my fist to bleed. i was punching non stop to let physical pain defeat my emotional trauma. he saw me on that state and stopped me from doing it and asked me if i was insane. last time i've checked, i am still normal and i still know what i am doing. a girl punching a concrete wall might not be normal but as far as i know, if alcohol can't cure it, and friends can't be present, and there isn't any pen or paper around to write ...

Not Like The Movies- Katy Perry

He put it on me, I put it on,
Like there was nothing wrong.
It didn't fit,
It wasn't right.
Wasn't just the size.
They say you know,
When you know.
I don't know.

I didn't feel
The fairytale feeling, no.
Am I a stupid girl
For even dreaming that I could.

If it's not like the movies,
Thats how it should be, yeah.
When he's the one,
I'll come undone, ...

my parents always love each other and have always been since probably i was born.

mom was working in a mall in Davao and was hoping for a calling because she wanted to be a nun when she met dad. she had a lot of suitors including a well-off foreigner and a son of the mall owner but her heart skipped a beat for dad who happened to be far out from the rest of her suitors. dad was a security guard of that mall. he has the look of a typical Filipino and he didn't even reach college. he ...

Dear You,

I did what God has willed me to do. To slowly accept things that has been happening. I admit I am in a complicated relationship but I am trying my damnedest to prepare my emotions for the worst--knowing that if this keeps on going, I might go insane with my uprising insecurities. I have been broken hearted and it has always left me sad and insecure. So to you sir, wherever you are, whoever you are, whatever you might be doing, I am just right here. And HELL YEAH!! i soooo ...

i have been insecure ever since the day you let me go. i have been thinking...overthinking actually. why the hell did you just drop me like a hot potato when the other day we were just daydreaming together on a wonderful date we will have on our next monthsary? what the hell were you thinking when i already did as you wished me to do to live with you? what has become of us? and ever since that day i became sad and the thoughts produced conclusions and these conclusions brought up the personal issues ...

i know you won't be reading so i am confident enough to ask these questions that have been bugging me for about a week now:

+ do you still love me like before?
+ do you still feel the same way when we made love?
+ do you still remember your reasons on why you hang on to me when i was about to let go?
+ do you still think of us?
+ will you ever come back?
+ will it all be the same when you're back?
+ will you say sorry for everything?
...