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dear child,

i am still three and twenty years living and you're still five. you know not of my existence and you need not know of it actually. i am just flustered with the recent events that occured that made a complete 360 degrees sommersault in my life-- it was the day i heard the news about you. note that i am not blaming you dear. i am just telling you a tale that you might read perhaps one day when you reached the age of reason and of love.

your father met your ...

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that i never paid enough attention
Or did I not give enough affection
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone,
You can write it in a letter
Either way I have to know
Did I never treat you ...

today i had that involuntary twitch on my left hand. i always had that twitch before. what it usually does is my pinky finger involuntary rubs my ring finger since my ring finger had that engagement ring with your name engraved in it. i always do that especially when i am frustrated about something i can't get or if i am in deep thought. i was always used to it. suddenly, out of the blue, i had that involuntary movement again. and i just realized, or my pinky rather, that the engagement ring that ...

yes. today, i punched a concrete wall a thousand times. i was waiting for my fist to bleed. i was punching non stop to let physical pain defeat my emotional trauma. he saw me on that state and stopped me from doing it and asked me if i was insane. last time i've checked, i am still normal and i still know what i am doing. a girl punching a concrete wall might not be normal but as far as i know, if alcohol can't cure it, and friends can't be present, and there isn't any pen or paper around to write ...

Not Like The Movies- Katy Perry

He put it on me, I put it on,
Like there was nothing wrong.
It didn't fit,
It wasn't right.
Wasn't just the size.
They say you know,
When you know.
I don't know.

I didn't feel
The fairytale feeling, no.
Am I a stupid girl
For even dreaming that I could.

If it's not like the movies,
Thats how it should be, yeah.
When he's the one,
I'll come undone, ...

my parents always love each other and have always been since probably i was born.

mom was working in a mall in Davao and was hoping for a calling because she wanted to be a nun when she met dad. she had a lot of suitors including a well-off foreigner and a son of the mall owner but her heart skipped a beat for dad who happened to be far out from the rest of her suitors. dad was a security guard of that mall. he has the look of a typical Filipino and he didn't even reach college. he ...

Dear You,

I did what God has willed me to do. To slowly accept things that has been happening. I admit I am in a complicated relationship but I am trying my damnedest to prepare my emotions for the worst--knowing that if this keeps on going, I might go insane with my uprising insecurities. I have been broken hearted and it has always left me sad and insecure. So to you sir, wherever you are, whoever you are, whatever you might be doing, I am just right here. And HELL YEAH!! i soooo ...