the ENDING and the start of my new life

[manoy15]

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HI All;
Ako lang ni e share akong story coz back then im so active here on this page and things happens like in a blink of an eye...
alright my story goes like this.
Back middle of september i met someone from another Social media site, 'tagged', so basically we started out as a basic HI and Hello greet and stuff, we became comfy with each other and shared our likes and dislikes, i was coming off from a relationship last june, and she was coming off from a relationship last August too, so both of us are kinda like in the dung. Alright, i find it really hard to get her digits by then, and to my luck was able to get it finally. So from cyber we we're like texting and calling na. So i told her na I think im falling for her, and she also felt the same way BUT she does NOT want to commit coz of what happened to her ex for almost 3 years, and i respect her decision that time, so i told her, that im going to court her and will wait for her. I'm the kind of guy when in love i let it all out, i have a basic principle, "when you're in love, it shows". So basically, it started like Ey! im cooking something, wanna taste it? so luckilly she liked what i cook back then, i guess it was Pancit Guisado i think? cant really recall coz i already cook alot for her na. Anyway, Since she's in the service btw. i just wont name the branch and where, i respect the nature of her job. So since i was so in love with her, i asked her if she'd like a GUN for her own protection, and literally she like the idea, aw as a guy courting a girl, nothing beats seeing that woman smile right?. So there you go, i saved money, and from time to time every lunch time, i get to cook her lunch, but here's something that i noticed from her, i told her that i get crazy, 'praning' as you say when i cannot recieve any text or calls from her, so WE AGREED that AT LEAST to let me know, i asked her to be patient with me coz i became like this because of my past experiences with relationships. So evertying went smoothly from Sept. to Mid October. Then it started to go downward spiral. She DOES NOT text or call me, I KNOW she's freaking busy on what she do, being in the service, and hearing her say that she can see me as her BF, really made me HOPE but did not expect, but i admit, i SOMEHOW expect after hearing that from her. She's a very private person btw, so to make this long story short, i surprised her with a timex ironman watch because it helps her on her run time, So MID november came 11/13, an incident involving her brother and someone concerned coz his brother bump him with his bike, though it was scratches and some bruises lang, the concerned asked for 5k to settle things up. and she informed me about the case and case of the notion that i dont want her to be frustrated or something disapointed on me, without a flinch of thinking i withdrew and went to a meeting place and gave her 6.5 including a lil bit of allowance or let's just say goodwill something...just for the sake of impressing her, So just last week she told me na she really dont feel safe on her current bhauz so she found a bhauz somewhere and needs at least 8k for downpayment, without further adieu, this crazy guy went there and GAVE her the 8k 2 days after. Then came saturday night, i went to a friends funeral, but right before their house is a beer joint, some police and some army were there, just right before i got to the house, the policeman went berserk and be like running amok with everyone else, kay lagi nag aparta rata between the army and the policeman and it was like Midnight na...i didnt notice na he pulled his gun the army guy pulled me off and the gun blew right 10cm off my chest...and i was like...mannnnnnnn..... Police brought me in for question i dont know why, and they let me sleep there in the office but i wont go to the details coz i was like in trauma na that tiime..the army guys went there and ask them to release me coz i have nothing to do with what happened, so at exactly 4AM was set free. but in between like 10PM-4am I WAs in frantic mode calling her coz i have no family here in cebu, and was just like the phone kept ringing. and i said something, which probably you all wont blame me if i said it...i said it like this "i totally felt left out, total nakapahimos naka...go.." then at 9AM ....the adrenalin subsided ..delayed reaction, and i was in shock, in fear, trembling and literally sweaty, so i decided to go to where she was living, but was not able to meet her coz she and her friends/workmates went to simala, i told her that at least we can talk coz i just need someone to talk to right now my trauma, my shaking wont go away...then i got the coldest reply that i ever recieved from her "WHY ON EARTH DO I HAVE TO BRING HER ON MY MESS? DO YOU NOT care that i felt intruded with what you did?" my security and my privacy? ..YOU ARE SO SELFISH, when you can just go home and calm down" ....so i went home...and crying...coz literally i read it like...dammn...it was so heartless. what happened the night before really didnt keep on playing but the text message she sent me...and i was like...i texted and called you from 10PM till 4AM, and there never was a reply or answer, and she told me she left her phone coz she went home. And im like...here we go again...reasons... AND I asked her something that to this very day, after 3 days, she still didnt have an answer or just has a hardnose player na. i asked her this...WHAT IF? what if back then i was so selfish that when your brother needed an ample of amount for 5k to bail him out and prevent his license to be confiscated by the police? what if i was literally so selfish back then? you know it will cause demerits to your brothers name too right?, and i asked her this too...what if last week i was also a selfish guy and refused to give you the 8k? what if? BUT i did not think of that way coz i love you so much and im willing to do and go leaps and bounds for you to make and see you smile...what if?? ...and when i was on my darkest hour of need? you called me so selfish just because i need to talk to you and want to get the trauma out? ....

I understand totally that she is busy, it's not a question or something that im having hard time with. Thing is we agreed on helping each others weaknesses and avoiding as much as possible to have a conflict. But as much as she wants to be understood and all? why in the world for people like her in the service to understand people like us civilians? do we have to ALWAYS understand them? isnt love a bridge that must and should be built two ways?...

i dont really know how to end the story though...but that's what really happened ...
LESSON: DO NOT LOVE LIKE ME...USE YOUR HEAD COZ IT WILL SAVE YOUR HEART...BUT ALSO I WILL NOT REGRET ON THE THINGS I DID FOR HER BECAUSE I KNOW I LOVE her and still doe to this very day, but i have to move on realizing who she really is. I also have to say na ID rather regret on the things that i did, rather than those of the things i did not.
I apologize for this very long confession...
ManoyDman

[manoy15]

as i understand, there was a gunfight and you were traumatized from what happened...you needed someone to talk to, right??
why didn't you call your family or friends instead??

why do you have to call her?? remember that your parents took care of you not her so don't expect her to be always there for you.

i noticed you were being desperate and needy to this girl and you know that's unattractive and creepy..

you called her from 10pm to 4am?? wtf?? you're acting like a serial killer ...please don't do that next time..you crept her out

when something serious happened next time, call your family instead of your crush LOl..

my family's not from here, and they're so like in their fragile age, you dont want your parents get to know and the cause of their heart attack dont you? so basically it's what i did...BOW! and im not from here lucky you, you have friends probably here, but i choose my friends carefully so literally i just have a few of em. but my bestfriend here in cebu already passed away due to leukemia last year...so that's why i just cannot inform them at that moment...but they already knew just yesterday, just to talk to them in NOT in a frantic way...to assure them that everything is ok...

[manoy15]

seriously, you don't have someone to talk to?? relatives?? brother or sister??

are you normal?? wtf?

all of em are in abroad~!!! relatives is back in mindanao

[bluelhady]

If the girl really loves you TS, she would be there by the time you need her the most, by hook or by crook. I dont see any wrong with you for loving her to the highest level. I guess, you were just blinded too much and failed to notice that the girl is just using you for her own advantage. Sorry for that but that's how I see it. Correct me if I'm wrong. Anyways, I just wish you luck and may you find someday, the one who is really meant for you

[manoy15]

If the girl really loves you TS, she would be there by the time you need her the most, by hook or by crook. I dont see any wrong with you for loving her to the highest level. I guess, you were just blinded too much and failed to notice that the girl is just using you for her own advantage. Sorry for that but that's how I see it. Correct me if I'm wrong. Anyways, I just wish you luck and may you find someday, the one who is really meant for you

that's how they see it.. like just casual friend here...be like...haaay...of all ang girl pa daw nang take ug advantage...coz karon? she blocked me naman and i know she changed numbers na coz i cannot reach her na...but it's all good coz it forces me to move on...

[bluelhady]

that's how they see it.. like just casual friend here...be like...haaay...of all ang girl pa daw nang take ug advantage...coz karon? she blocked me naman and i know she changed numbers na coz i cannot reach her na...but it's all good coz it forces me to move on...

I'm glad that the girl's mask falls off earlier. If you know what I mean. hihihi
So, I guess you've learned a lesson now
You better move on and start a new life with no regrets. Just forget all the worries and be happy coz christmas is coming soon
Keep the good vibes in the air.

[manoy15]

I'm glad that the girl's mask falls off earlier. If you know what I mean. hihihi
So, I guess you've learned a lesson now
You better move on and start a new life with no regrets. Just forget all the worries and be happy coz christmas is coming soon
Keep the good vibes in the air.

exactly...at least as early as now, i know it still does hurt, i wont deny that, i still love her, i wont deny that as well, BUT the fact of the matter is im moving forward..

[bluelhady]

exactly...at least as early as now, i know it still does hurt, i wont deny that, i still love her, i wont deny that as well, BUT the fact of the matter is im moving forward..

That's good. Keep it up.

[vahnhelsing]

murag nakabasa naman ko ani.. wala ka nakapost ani nga kasinatian sa laing site or sa diri mismo? (o basin nasobraan sad ko
kaadvance... )

Ont.. usahay dili gyud nato damhon nga luyo sa tanan natong nabuhat wala diay ikabalos ang binuhat nga atong
gipangga. Nagtoo na kita nga luyo sa mga pahiyom, katam-is, pakigkukabilduay, ug mga oras nga gigahin sa usag-
usa anaa na kita'y paigong bili diha kanila. Wala diay kasiguroan bisan pa sa ingon, may mga binuhat nga maka ako
sa pagtago sa ilang tinood nga pagkatawo. Tood man wala kita masayod unsa gayud ang mga rason usab sa
babayeng imong gihigugma nganong ingon ato ang iyahang pagtratar diha kanimo. Lisod sad tugkaron ang
pagkatawo. Tingali kun wala kami nasayop, makiangayon ra usab nga imong nahibaw-an ang iyahang tiunayng
pagkatawo, bisan tood nga nakagahin na ikaw ug igong salapi ug panahon diha kaniya..

[H.Wolowitz]

maru maru sd bayhana da hehe

anyway another lesson learned the hard way boss

take time to know the girl completely before offering any money solutions

kadudahan naman gani na basta mag-sige pangayo ang girl bisan ug uyab namu kana pa kahang dili? hehe