..panakip butas for 7 loooong years???..

[toxxxic]

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From my previous thread: https://www.istorya.net/forums/love-3...-paranoid.html

It all started last July 2010, My boyfriend and I were 3 years and 6 months that time and out of the blue, he confessed nga wala pa xa naka get over sa iyang first love. I was shocked, hurt and speechless, wala ko nag expect ato and wala ko kabalo unsaon pag react, we end up crying. He said wala na nuon xa plano manguyab ug balik sa iyang first love kay she was a playgirl. I saw the sincerity in him that he love me so much so we moved on.

My boyfriend went to Japan last April 2013. Way back when we were still friends, I created his facebook account and have access to it. There were numerous times when he always searched the profile of his first love and there were numerous times when he initiated the first chat conversation. I confronted him about this yet he always insist that the reason nga iya i search iya first love kay malingaw daw xa ug tan-aw kay mag ilis2x ug uyab. He insisted that never in his entire life makita niya nga magbalik sila kay palahubog ang girl, dili masaligan and his mom even told me nga gamay ra ang 20 ka laki ni-agi niya. I was confident of his answer and trusted him. Last December 2013, he insisted and changed the password on his facebook account. We had arguments about that since all I ever wanted was for him to be open and honest. I long for an explanation and clarity and he avoided every question, dili niya ginatubag akong calls sa cp niya and sa skype.

January 2014 came and out of nowhere, he told me he was confused and he told me I deserve someone better. (Billy Crawford, is that you?. lol!.) Naabot pud sa point nga ang gagmay nako nga sayop kay big deal na au niya. (Mau diay kay planado na tanan. Nangita xa bikil para ako makigbuwag.) I was furious, spoke mean words and called him names however I said sorry the day after that. Since bugnaw na au xa and always insisted that nga I deserve someone better, dili daw ko ma happy kung kami magkadayon, nakigbuwag nalang ko 3 days before our 7th anniv, wala ra man pud xa reaction and that pisses me off big time. I had a 2 week vacation and wala au ko access sa internet but when I came back and checked facebook I noticed nga sige xa like sa status and pics sa iya first love bisag nonsense, friends man pud mi sa iya first love ato nga time. (Keep your friends close and your enemies closer ang peg.) I don't usually stalk his first love but my instinct told me to do so ug sa dihang nagpadala diay xa ug package fresh from Japan and to think katong uyab mi, wala jud xa nakapadala nako, ako pa ang magpadala niya. Gi ingnan pa ko niya nga mahal padala, diri nalang ko buy sa Cebu!. And worst, ang iyang gipadala, ako pa jud ganahan!. Now I hate Hello Kitty. Sigh.. (The nerve!) I went hysterical and nadamay akong family and iyang family. Gikasab-an pa ko kay ngano daw gidamay nako iya family. To think ato nga time dili na xa mu commnunicate nako. Valentines day came, naka feel nako nga magpadala xa ug flowers sa iya first love and I was right, gamit2x pa ug codename thinking that I'm stupid and I wouldn't find out.

He blocked me sa facebook because of his guilt, he told me it will be easier for me to move on?. Sayon ra au maka ingon xa ana kay nana man ipuli. I blocked him and his first love too para dili na pirmi magsakit akong buot.

So, unsa akong na feel karon?. HATRED.
Naka feel ko nga gigamit ra ko niya for those 7 years kay katong naa pa xa diri Cebu, ako usually mag gasto and mag buy niya ug stuffs coz volunteer xa sa hospital and he went on training and OJT for welding. He promised nga mamawi daw xa once naka trabaho na xa and ako jud daw ang girl iya pakaslan and now?. He swallowed everything nga iyang gi libak abot sa iyang first love. He sent me an email as well saying he tried loving me daw but dili jud daw niya makalimtan iya first love. For real!? 7 freaking years!? karon lang?!

Your thoughts on this my fellow istoryans?.

[Jhuon1914]

Mao na siyay giingong "Salig ayaw laom" the only constant in this world is "CHANGE"!.......

EDIT kay kalimot ko ug butang ani!...

You know what TS! The very hard to forget is the First and Last! =) Based on the psychological theory akong nadunggan sauna. Kay ang atong huna2 is like memory atong ibutang sama sa Micro SD sa imong celpon or memory sa imong Iphone first is Empty then niabot ang imong first love. After you broke up you delete the memories for a maintime but you thought it's already deleted but the truth is the picture is in the back of your SD Card nga pwede pa ma retrieve pag abot sa panahon.

About sa theory nagasulti to nga ang First ug Last jud ang dugay makalimtan like for example 3 mo kabouk managsoun. Imong mama daghan ug mga memories nga ika istorya sa First nga anak etry ra gud sa inyoha. Unya gamay ra ang iyang masulte about sa ikaduha nga anak ug daghan sa ikatulo!... =)

Ang ako lng nga move one amega!

[toxxxic]

Wala nag expect tanan tao who knew us that he is capable of doing such. Diyosnun man unta xa but now I can truly say looks can be very deceiving.

[Passport]

From my previous thread: https://www.istorya.net/forums/love-3...-paranoid.html



My boyfriend went to Japan last April 2013. Way back when we were still friends, I created his facebook account and have access to it. There were numerous times when he always searched the profile of his first love and there were numerous times when he initiated the first chat conversation. I confronted him about this yet he always insist that the reason nga iya i search iya first love kay malingaw daw xa ug tan-aw kay mag ilis2x ug uyab. He insisted that never in his entire life makita niya nga magbalik sila kay palahubog ang girl, dili masaligan and his mom even told me nga gamay ra ang 20 ka laki ni-agi niya. I was confident of his answer and trusted him. Last December 2013, he insisted and changed the password on his facebook account. We had arguments about that since all I ever wanted was for him to be open and honest. I long for an explanation and clarity and he avoided every question, dili niya ginatubag akong calls sa cp niya and sa skype.

January 2014 came and out of nowhere, he told me he was confused and he told me I deserve someone better. (Billy Crawford, is that you?. lol!.) Naabot pud sa point nga ang gagmay nako nga sayop kay big deal na au niya. (Mau diay kay planado na tanan. Nangita xa bikil para ako makigbuwag.) I was furious, spoke mean words and called him names however I said sorry the day after that. Since bugnaw na au xa and always insisted that nga I deserve someone better, dili daw ko ma happy kung kami magkadayon, nakigbuwag nalang ko 3 days before our 7th anniv, wala ra man pud xa reaction and that pisses me off big time. I had a 2 week vacation and wala au ko access sa internet but when I came back and checked facebook I noticed nga sige xa like sa status and pics sa iya first love bisag nonsense, friends man pud mi sa iya first love ato nga time. (Keep your friends close and your enemies closer ang peg.) I don't usually stalk his first love but my instinct told me to do so ug sa dihang nagpadala diay xa ug package fresh from Japan and to think katong uyab mi, wala jud xa nakapadala nako, ako pa ang magpadala niya. Gi ingnan pa ko niya nga mahal padala, diri nalang ko buy sa Cebu!. And worst, ang iyang gipadala, ako pa jud ganahan!. Now I hate Hello Kitty. Sigh.. (The nerve!) I went hysterical and nadamay akong family and iyang family. Gikasab-an pa ko kay ngano daw gidamay nako iya family. To think ato nga time dili na xa mu commnunicate nako. Valentines day came, naka feel nako nga magpadala xa ug flowers sa iya first love and I was right, gamit2x pa ug codename thinking that I'm stupid and I wouldn't find out.

He blocked me sa facebook because of his guilt, he told me it will be easier for me to move on?. Sayon ra au maka ingon xa ana kay nana man ipuli. I blocked him and his first love too para dili na pirmi magsakit akong buot.

So, unsa akong na feel karon?. HATRED.
Naka feel ko nga gigamit ra ko niya for those 7 years kay katong naa pa xa diri Cebu, ako usually mag gasto and mag buy niya ug stuffs coz volunteer xa sa hospital and he went on training and OJT for welding. He promised nga mamawi daw xa once naka trabaho na xa and ako jud daw ang girl iya pakaslan and now?. He swallowed everything nga iyang gi libak abot sa iyang first love. He sent me an email as well saying he tried loving me daw but dili jud daw niya makalimtan iya first love. For real!? 7 freaking years!? karon lang?!

Your thoughts on this my fellow istoryans?.

the pain is oozing in between each word you type ts.. seven years gone the drain.. i am so sorry to hear that happen to you..

seven long years of wasted illusion.. dili tanan lalaki ingon ana.. but we are rare and far in between.

you need all the strength at this point in time.. so easy to say but never easy to do.

dont focus on the pain, it will try to pull you.

seven years is long enough to scatter within your surroundings memories of him, which will remind you of him.. and each pixel of that memory triggers a sharp heartache.. try not to.

look up to a the rays of early morning, a new day.. a new beginning.

we aint got no better choice but to move on..

[jaylovespiercings]

i can really feel the pain and hatred reading ur post TS.. hope youll be okay.. I know this must be really hard for you.

[krishnu shivaq silquin]

I don't think panakip butas ka... 7 years is just too long for such...

Basin mas dako ka ug gusto niya at that time then na develop ra sad sya mao to he gave it a shot... Of course everything you both did was real... But that alone does not guarantee you anything.. Cguro ni pretend siya at first pero ogags ra sad ang taw mo patol ug relationship nga ingon ana ka dugay... It's not the guys fault ts kung na fall out of love siya.. In fact thankful ka kay wala mo nagpakasal... Ang sala ra sa laki kay nag binayot siya... He should have treated you fairly and gave you time.. Dili jud lalim ang oras nanga.usik... Pero on the other hand this experience of yours will make you more wiser and smarter..

Hilaki ug kas.a ts... Release that negativity in you... Panghagis, pangsunoga tanan butang nga morelate niya if that will help to ease the pain.. And always remember Dili lang ikaw ni.agi ana.. Kung nagpadala ka.. Ikaw ang lugi.. Easier said than done as always.. But don't ever forget to be smart.. It's normal na masakitan ka.. Ang Dili normal kay imong I.ubos ang imong moral tungod sa laki nga Dili ma.imo... Be smart.. Be smart... Be smart... Balik balikon kay 7 years raba... Hinay Hinay lang ts...

[THE KID]

pinahong na ang iyang rison..naa na siyay lain.....tinuod ng dili ka maka limot pero wala ka get over for 7 years? loslos..lol

[toxxxic]

@Jhuon1914; I have lots of friends nga naka move on sa ilang first love. Grabe pud, mugamit lang jud ka ug tao for 7 years ayha maka express nga wala pa ka ka move on sa imo first love?. To think, nagbuwag sila kay gi two time xa. Naabot sa point nga gi ingnan ko niya who would want to marry someone nga maninghag, masuko kung suguon, masuko pabantayon ug bata?. Wala jud xa kahuna huna gi unsa xa sa iyang first love, ako xa gi ingnan who would want to marry someone who cheated on you in the first place?. To think, mausab ra man unta akong mga lapses pero wala ra xa.. Ambot gi unsa kaha xa sa iya first love nga nikagat man dayon xa.
@Passport; Thank you so much for the uplifting words. Accepted naman nako nga dili na jud mi magbalik but I loathe him for what he did. Gipaabot niya ug 7 years?. Klaro au nga gigamit ra jud ko niya.
@jaylovespiercings; Pain was immense. I came to a point where i wanted to give up life but thanks to my family and friends for making me realize that life doesn't end there. Isa ra ka tao nawala, daghan pa au nag love nako and im so grateful for them!

[toxxxic]

@krishnu shivaq silquin; Yup, I am so thankful nga dili pa jud mi minyo and mau ni nahitabo kay gubot pa jud sa lukot. I cried hysterically for all the broken promises and the dreams we never get to fulfill together. Daghan jud nag ingon nga bayot xa, duolunon baya to ug bayot. Who knows?. LOL!. I burned all the things he gave me except sa cellphone iyang nahatag pag bday nako last November. Gipalitan jud ko ug high end nga cp bah kay mau na diay tong pang last. Pero kung kwentahay lang pud ang show, wala ra katunga akong mga nagasto niya. dmd!.

[thuzhar]

indulge yourself ts sa mga physical activities like boxing , mma or go to the gym , 100% mka pa wla sa kalagot..