Hi All,
I have a previous gf who left me last nov 1, we had our fourth anniversary last october. On February 2010 I booked her a flight from Davao to Cebu. Then on April 16, a day before her expected arrival, she is hesitating to come to Cebu, I found out the reason why, she had a new BF way back home. She dated him from June 2009 to April that month (but they did not have any formal break ups. the guy even called me and asked me to give her to him.). i was so hurt and desperate to get her back that time and i was so sad i lurked into alcohol. On May 2010, I went to Davao for the elections. We saw each other, and on the day I am bound back to Cebu (around five hours before my flight) she asked if she could go with me, and so i said yes. (I dunno what happened but it felt like I was hypnotized) We were living in together since that time, I helped her get a work and she was accepted by Stream. At first we were okay, but she met new friends, i went jealous coz one time she went home past 7PM although she was already out by 6Am that Satuday. It happened many times. She was with her officemates, mostly guys. We had arguments, too many to mention but we had it to the point that kept nagging at me. I lost my trust in her since April, and I was trying to gain it. There was a point that my trust for her revived, but one of her friends from Davao came her to work, I adopted him, but I noticed everytime there is a person who tolerate her, she will not folllow me or disregard me at all. I wouldn't get any of her attention anymore. There were attempts that she'd go out of my house to live in a different house. Until the time her friend left she stayed with me and she's been asking me to let her do freely what she wants. But I think you'd agree with me if I say that I don't want her drunk every weekend, hanging out with her friends instead of me. Everytime I planned for outings, date, or surpirse her, she is not around and I'm always left alone. Then on October 2010 another friend of hers came from Manila to work, again, I adopted him and that time we had arguments again and she left. Well, she is really beautiful, intelligent, but she kept saying that she doesn't love me anymore.
So I am asking you guys, what do you think? did she just used me to get work here in Cebu and once settled she'd leave me alone? I am trying to forget her and avoid texting or calling her, but I always get jealous when I see pictures of her with other guys in FB? Am I too martyr? What do you suggest I do to totally forget her, I mean my friends set me to meet other girls, but I don't find them interesting like her. I just simply loved her.
Thank you.