
Originally Posted by
jamesmusslewhite
I would have to say that i must be a disillusioned patriot as well. I love my country and almost was killed defending it, except for the people running it. I feel they should all be imprisoned for Treason Against the State.
I went into the Marines a Catholic, tried to drink myself to death, tried to shoot myself in the head but my pistol misfired twice, left the Marines an Atheist with a limp and a broken marriage. I saw friends destroy themselves, their marriages, and their careers. That is what happens when the Country you love does not love you back. You can not trust the Government, Commanders, Preachers, Wives, Family, or Citizens. The only one you trust is your buddy, the Marine who is in the suck with you. The proverbial blind leading the blind trying to find redemption for the guilt; not unlike that felt of children of divorcing parents. It must be my fault, if only I were a better child, than my country and God will love me. Sweet paranoia of inexperienced youths, because you do not realize the truth is much worst.
The truth that you are the only children of the country that were truly worthy of love, were despised by the cowards, misfits, queers, and ingrates who knew you were better than them; and a corrupt political system willing to sacrifice you for gain and riches, and a command system poisoned by the politics. A big cyst of flesh feeding maggots who did not care if you lived or died. You train, study, sweat, and bleed. You do things few men can do and only the insane would want to. The top 10% of the top 10%, admired and despised for that admiration. Chewed up and spit out, then left on the corner unemployable, because the maggots are scared of you because they know you will out shine them. Social persicution of the cowards, misfits, queers, and ingrates. Thank you for your service, glad I did not have to go, you did the hard work, now go stand in the back of the line.
Fifteen years of Godless misdirection, but I was lucky and found faith and the peace I had been seeking all along. When I had turned my back away the most, it was standing there waiting for me. It had been there all that time laying dormant in my heart, just waiting for me all that time. I will always be a disillusioned patriot, my country did that to me. I forgave them but I will always remember what they had done. I realized I was the top 10% of the top 10%, and I had once been part of a group of young men who were better than their country deserved. Glorious murdering bastards, the Baddest Gang in the World, who's least was better than their best; God forgive me but I loved them all. Each willing to die for those who did not care. As it probably has been since there were countries and soldiers. The population is 90% cowards and will always sit quietly and wait for that 10% to raise their hand and volunteer to do the sacrifice they have not the courage to face. The 90% will always despise those that volunteered, so they can try to live with their cowardice.
Now that I am over 50 I see them when we talk, "Oh you were a Marine, I could have been a Marine" and I now can say fagot please, "If you were man enough to be a Marine than your queer ass would have been a Marine, and maybe your sorry ass would be dead instead of my Buddy." I do not care if you are Army, Navy, Air force, Coast Guard, or Marine you were the top 10% of the top 10% and the best men your Country could produce. The other 90% can only fantasize on what they could have been. I use this quote, but I feel it is the same for all the service men and women.
"Some people wonder all their lives if they've made a difference. The Marines don't have that problem."
President Ronald Reagan