I fell in love

[ChaosOrb]

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How can I have closure with her? I want to talk to her bitaw and say nga I want to be moving on na. I know I don't have to ask permission from her but gusto pud ko nga at least makahibaw cya. Gusto ko nga magka.istoryahay mi with full honesty about our feelings kay lisud kaayo ang kinabuhi nga puno ug WHAT IFs. Para lang nako ha.

this your denial talking....if there is a will there is a way... stop chasing pavements...you deserve someone better that will reciprocate your care and love.

[Wynna]

Thanks sa tanang advice. I would really like to move on and give myself a chance to be happy as well because I know that she is happy with her life kay of course she has a kid. The sad part is I always think nga maybe naa jud chance and I'm someone who doesn't want to miss out on chances. I don't want to be asking what ifs. I want to be able to tell myself that even if I failed, at least I did my all and therefore I would not have any regrets. I also forgot to mention nga there was also one time when I told her: "what if magdala ko ug lain babay while magkuyog mi sa among barkada and naa xa." I only asked that to have some kind of idea about how she really feels kay as per her, maglisud cya ug explain sa iyang na feel. Then she said: "aw, ok ra." then she suddenly went silent ug niingon: "actually, I don't know how I would feel about that." Kana bitaw nga mga in.ana nga istorya nya mao ang makapa.huna2x nako nga basin naa sad cya feelings.


I know nga basin ako lang ni tanan ghatagan ug interpretation for myself but who can blame me if in.ana iyang istorya? I keep on telling her that I'm not asking her to leave her family or her BF for that matter. I only ever wanted to know how she really feels. I don't care if we stay friends till the end because all I care about is how she feels. Yes, of course, I would want a relationship with her. Kinsa may dli, dba? Kung love nmo ang usa ka taw, gusto man jud ka nga magkakuyog mo and kanang thought nga kibaw mo asa kutob ang boundary. Kay kami, there's always something holding us back kay pareho mi wala kibaw sa boundary. But knowing her situation, dli ko gusto nga ako ang rason iyang igive up iyang family. All I want is to know how she feels bitaw nga at least makaingon ko sa akong self nga naa jud diay cya feelings and it wasn't just my imagination. Because I don't want to be asking for the rest of my life kung naa ba or wala? Naa ba kaha cya feelings towards me as more than a friend? Or friendship lang ba kaha to? I DON'T WANT TO HEAR HER SAY NGA I'M THE REASON WHY SHE LEFT HER BF, RATHER, I WANT TO HEAR HER SAY NGA SHE LEFT HER BF BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO DO SO. Kung gusto cya nga naa mi relationship more than friends, I want it nga cya ang mo.decide. And not because I asked her to but because that's what she wants and that's what makes her happy. All I ever care about is making her happy and making her baby happy. And some people might say, katangahan or what but this is me and this is what I want.

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Thank you, @Wynna. It's good to know nga dili ra diay ako ang naka.experience ani. That means that there are people more knowledgeable about this than me and there are people who can advice me about this through personal experience. Daghan na man nag.ingon nako mga friends ra pud nga undangan na daw namo kay walay padulngan. And obviously sakto jud sila. And she knows unsa ang sulti sa mga taw. But I always tell her nga we are not doing anything wrong man. I mean, maybe sa pagtan.aw sa ubang taw sayop, but we didn't go beyond the boundary of friendship man jud. And I tell her nga I'm happy just being able to be with her and she feels the same way. Ang ako lang is, hangtud kanus.a? How long will I endure? Should I just be moving on already now that she's not here anymore? Ang kapait lang kay sige ghapon mi ug communicate.

Dili man sa walay padulngan, Anything is possible. But you just have to face the consequences that could possibly result in the end. In my case, from the very beginning kabalo ako BF sa akong preference, and for some reasons we made a deal about having this polyamory relationship with whoever girls na ako maganahan. However, kadugayan wala na niya nakayanan, so I have to compromise again since we have a kid and I don't want my son to grow up without having a father to consider and like I said , my first Girl relationship all started out as an experiment so wala ra jud kaayo ko naglisod og let go niya. My second one was, DAMN! LDR pa jud toh cya, pero akong kalibutan grabe kaayo nga nagtuyok niya. That time I could say I cheated on him, because amo jud gitago amo relationship, we didn't wanna make things complicated anymore. Pero gipa ila2x nako sila, they sometimes talk via long distance phone conversation and skype and sometimes even exchange messages sa FB. We had constant communication regardless sa busy schedules and timezone. We had future plans as well, ingato ka strong amo feelings for each other and promised to hold on to each other bisan unsa pang mahitabo... It came to the point nga naka realize ko nga I can't afford to lose her anymore which made me think of telling him the truth.. I said " I love her , and I'm willing to give up everything just to be with her".. pero all of a sudden, POP! ay nawala man ." Nasan c Eliza" ang peg ni ateeeh! haha .. tuara! KARMA is a B!TCH jud diay.. so mao toh, she was my 2nd and hopefully the last .. di na ko muutro , kausa nalang hahaha pero yeah, I am contented with what I have right now, and I am thankful to him for not giving up on me bisan pag unsa ko ka at@y sa iyang panan-aw hehehe ... Although naa man gihapon mu char2x bah, pero musulti nalang jud ko " taman nalang lage ta friends..... with benefits! hahaha joke!

hala na carried away ko.. let's talk over beer nalang oi! ... tagay

[santario101]

so ganahan ka bulabogon ang maayong pagpuyo nila TS, and you want people here to say ok rana imong buhaton ?

[chimcham]

di ba niana ka TS di ka ganahan na mahimong home wrecker? huna2x.a nalng ilang family TS, for the best of there family. Love man kaha nimo cxa, give way nalng jud. And be distant napud. Total friends bitaw japon mo

[my_hEaD_isBIG]

Murag kaila man ko nimo, TS. Singer ang imong "friend"?ehehehe

[affascinare16]

Murag kaila man ko nimo, TS. Singer ang imong "friend"?ehehehe

No she's not a singer. Ngano nakaingon ka?

[my_hEaD_isBIG]

No she's not a singer. Ngano nakaingon ka?

feel lang nko.

[naglibog.nako]

you have to define what you wanted from her, if you want a romantic relationship or a platonic one.

maybe you are just "in love" because of the attention,affection that she is giving to you.

maybe you just like her presence, maybe you like her as a companion, or something.

but anyways good luck with your story

[ChabbehSuperman]

Hahaha. Love is a choice! Ikaw ray makabuot ana et. Basta hibaw.i lang ang limitations.

[Passport]

Watch out for potholes...........