Please help me, I can't move on.

[The Freshmen]

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I don't know why I'm posting here. I just can't take all the heartaches and suffering anymore. I know it's my fault why my wife hates me so much. I've made the same mistake for the 2nd time. Lying so much, a lot but I never cheated on her and she knows that.

Maybe she's reading this or maybe not coz she rarely visit the forum. I haven't seen her and our kid for a while (maybe 2 months) and i just can't take this anymore. I don't have the strength to continue this life without them. Every time we talk (actually just on text) about our family, about what she thinks will happen to us or when I ask her how is she doing, she'll just show no care for me at all, everything of her for me is hatred.

We've plan to meet a few days from now, and for me to get the chance to see her and my kid is to agree her on terms and condition and that is to leave them alone forever, so I eventually said yes coz I badly wanted to see them. So I've been thinking of the thought of leaving them alone forever, and living my life without them, ambot dli jud nako kaya, honestly, I can't sleep, I can't think clearly, all of my plans in life literally ended, ang naa ra sa ako huna huna kay ang adlaw na magkita mi, wala nako kahibaw unsa mahitabo after that. I thought of committing suicide but no. Just no. God bless me na lng.

[jekko]

what's the root ani TS aning blemaha nimO?

[The Freshmen]

Daghan kaau ko bakak og secreto gud. Ganahan ko mo sulti dre pero mahibaw-an nya nga ako ni. Pwede e PM na lng? Pero sure na dli cheating (third party) or vice (drugs).

[Passport]

I don't know why I'm posting here. I just can't take all the heartaches and suffering anymore. I know it's my fault why my wife hates me so much. I've made the same mistake for the 2nd time. Lying so much, a lot but I never cheated on her and she knows that.

Maybe she's reading this or maybe not coz she rarely visit the forum. I haven't seen her and our kid for a while (maybe 2 months) and i just can't take this anymore. I don't have the strength to continue this life without them. Every time we talk (actually just on text) about our family, about what she thinks will happen to us or when I ask her how is she doing, she'll just show no care for me at all, everything of her for me is hatred.

We've plan to meet a few days from now, and for me to get the chance to see her and my kid is to agree her on terms and condition and that is to leave them alone forever, so I eventually said yes coz I badly wanted to see them. So I've been thinking of the thought of leaving them alone forever, and living my life without them, ambot dli jud nako kaya, honestly, ga huna huna nakog mag suicide na lng ko, I can't sleep, I can't think clearly, all of my plans in life literally ended, ang naa ra sa ako huna huna kay ang adlaw na magkita mi, wala nako kahibaw unsa mahitabo after that. I always thought of committing suicide right after we separated but this time all I know is I can't live without them.

Maybe some of the readers would say, "Nagpapugong rana siya" or "Para maluoy iya wife if maka basa" (I'm pretty sure dli to makabasa ani coz wala na siya na forum for a very long time). Dli ako ang type sa tao na mo share pero wala na jud ko kasabot sa ako gibati.

first of all, the reason nag post ka diri is because as you said, you can not think clearly. in that state of mind, it is but natural to hope for help. to grab on to something for a breather... as if in moments of drowning.

sharing your innermost fears.. is one way of opening up. do not let the pressure build up within you.. kay kana suicidal thoughts will begin as a tiny spark and soon grow to an uncontrollable flame kung imo pasagdan.

talk.

communication.

kamo ra gyud sa imo wife ang maka resolve ani boss. you have choices to make. be ready to live with the consequences of those choices you will make. and yes, that includes killing yourself.

and time.

ayaw pagdalidali. sa inenglis pa... do not be impulsive.

pahungaw lang na diri ... naay daghan makahatag nimo ug tambag. kung mag suicide ka.. pagbilin ug suicide note.. preferrably kanang tarong pagka sulat, composed sa Word... or kung nice ka ug handwriting, pwede pud sa kamot ra. bitaw bai... basin makuha pa ni sa mahabahabang usapan... beer pa dai...

the bottom line here is that, you broke her trust and confidence in you. that is a huge crime boss... for most girls, that is unforgivable. you admitted nga daghan ka ug sala niya. hmmm... again, beer pa dai..

goodluck.

[im_ur_girl1984]

harsh rapud kaau kung dretso ka mag suicide TS.. talk to your wife first.. i know lisud jud dawaton ang mga consequences sa atong gibuhat pero you have to accept it.. lisud pero try lang gud ug move on kung unsa man gani inyo masabutan sa imo wife.. dili sulbad sa problema ang mag suicide hunahunaa nalng imo anak..

i hope ma ok ra ang tanan TS.. pray and be good na..

[cloudduster]

katong time nga na hugno akong negosyo og napotos ko sa utang, nag huna2x pud ko nga mag suicide. turns out, it gets better in time. give them space and maybe after a few months, maulian ra imong misis. it's not the end of the world, you know.

[The Freshmen]

first of all, the reason nag post ka diri is because as you said, you can not think clearly. in that state of mind, it is but natural to hope for help. to grab on to something for a breather... as if in moments of drowning.

sharing your innermost fears.. is one way of opening up. do not let the pressure build up within you.. kay kana suicidal thoughts will begin as a tiny spark and soon grow to an uncontrollable flame kung imo pasagdan.

talk.

communication.

kamo ra gyud sa imo wife ang maka resolve ani boss. you have choices to make. be ready to live with the consequences of those choices you will make. and yes, that includes killing yourself.

and time.

ayaw pagdalidali. sa inenglis pa... do not be impulsive.

pahungaw lang na diri ... naay daghan makahatag nimo ug tambag. kung mag suicide ka.. pagbilin ug suicide note.. preferrably kanang tarong pagka sulat, composed sa Word... or kung nice ka ug handwriting, pwede pud sa kamot ra. bitaw bai... basin makuha pa ni sa mahabahabang usapan... beer pa dai...

the bottom line here is that, you broke her trust and confidence in you. that is a huge crime boss... for most girls, that is unforgivable. you admitted nga daghan ka ug sala niya. hmmm... again, beer pa dai..

goodluck.

Salamat sa advice bai, ganahan unta ko makig istorya niya kaso dli siya makig istorya, its been 2 months na hapit, gi block ko sa calls sa iya cellphone, ang kung mo text ko kay panagsa ra ko replyan. Mao makig kita ko nya kay ganahan ko mag istorya mi, pero sa tinuod lng gusto lng sad jud ko makakita niya og sa ako anak. Chance lng unta for me to fix the problem i created. Kay luoy pud kaau amo anak to grow without a complete family.

[The Freshmen]

harsh rapud kaau kung dretso ka mag suicide TS.. talk to your wife first.. i know lisud jud dawaton ang mga consequences sa atong gibuhat pero you have to accept it.. lisud pero try lang gud ug move on kung unsa man gani inyo masabutan sa imo wife.. dili sulbad sa problema ang mag suicide hunahunaa nalng imo anak..

i hope ma ok ra ang tanan TS.. pray and be good na..

I already learned my lesson, the hard way. Ang malayu sa imo anak, nya wala ka khibaw kung unsa na kahimtang and dli kakita nya. Isn't that enough?

[volatile8]

I don't know why I'm posting here. I just can't take all the heartaches and suffering anymore. I know it's my fault why my wife hates me so much. I've made the same mistake for the 2nd time. Lying so much, a lot but I never cheated on her and she knows that.

Maybe she's reading this or maybe not coz she rarely visit the forum. I haven't seen her and our kid for a while (maybe 2 months) and i just can't take this anymore. I don't have the strength to continue this life without them. Every time we talk (actually just on text) about our family, about what she thinks will happen to us or when I ask her how is she doing, she'll just show no care for me at all, everything of her for me is hatred.

We've plan to meet a few days from now, and for me to get the chance to see her and my kid is to agree her on terms and condition and that is to leave them alone forever, so I eventually said yes coz I badly wanted to see them. So I've been thinking of the thought of leaving them alone forever, and living my life without them, ambot dli jud nako kaya, honestly, ga huna huna nakog mag suicide na lng ko, I can't sleep, I can't think clearly, all of my plans in life literally ended, ang naa ra sa ako huna huna kay ang adlaw na magkita mi, wala nako kahibaw unsa mahitabo after that. I always thought of committing suicide right after we separated but this time all I know is I can't live without them.

Maybe some of the readers would say, "Nagpapugong rana siya" or "Para maluoy iya wife if maka basa" (I'm pretty sure dli to makabasa ani coz wala na siya na forum for a very long time). Dli ako ang type sa tao na mo share pero wala na jud ko kasabot sa ako gibati.

Whatever that is, I'll include you in my prayers. God bless you TS.

[The Freshmen]

Whatever that is, I'll include you in my prayers. God bless you TS.

Thank you. God bless you too.