Its been a year ago ….
when my friend ask mi to join a religious community wherein i can be part of it and share my talent and to meet new set of friends.. at first I really don't find it interesting.. I even crack a joke and told my friend that its a waste of time.. I even said " adah!! dili ko muapil anah kay kapoy mag unsa man pud ta ana?. hehehehe.. Where in the church at that time coz after attending a mass we usually chat with our co- choir members.. my friend even got angry at us coz of what we answered to her . . But in the end I was able to join the community… It was kinda sort of what if I’ll try…
That was not the first time I saw him because I was able to saw him when they have practice at the house of my friend.. and then starts our friendship……..
My friend and I invited him to join our choir because he has this potential to sing and we are really in need of a member. And for that he joined… we have practice during Saturdays or Sundays every time we have bookings for weddings …. We were able to talk to each other cracking jokes .. I was kinda sort of were becoming close..
One day, I got his number from my friend coz there was this time he seems to be upset and wanted to leave the group coz sometimes he hardly got to pick up the right timing in singing his part.. that’s why I call him over the phone not to leave coz we can make some solutions on it and I think we really need him..So by that I was able to convince him …
After that we started texting to each other…We were texting as if we doesn’t care about others we even have endless fights . Like you can feel the concern the love I don’t know if its really love .. I didn’t even tell my friend that we were texting… We were so close in texting that even I wake up in the morning. I can read his txt and I can put a smile on my face. And at night we txt till we fall asleep.. He is the only person were I can freely express how I felt everyday and he never judge me … One time he told me that He has a girlfriend abroad and they’ve been together for a long time .. I was shocked because as what I heard about him when somebody ask him about having a girlfriend he always says he doesn’t have one… and he is still searching … that’s why I ask him if what s really the truth .. Without no hesitations he answered mi YES I have one but she’s far away and I think I have a problem with it .. my love for her is starting to fade. And blah blah blah…
So we continued texting.. and I even teased him that as soon as her girlfriend arrive in the Philippines He should propose to her . I even offer myself that I’ll be the one to sing their song .. they can request any kind of song they wanted me to sing… That’s why he told me that Yes I will propose to her next year as she comes home.. When I was able to read his text .. my world stops and my tears keep falling I cant even control it. So I rushed at my room and started to cry I even replied to him that I was so happy for them and I’m so excited to see him walking in the aisle with her soon to be wife.. my mom was a bit confused why I was in a hurry.. After 30 minutes he texted me why I stopped texting him the moment he told me His going marry her girlfriend.. So I replied to him that I was doing something at home that’s why I wasn’t able to text him back… but it was all an alibi .. coz the truth is I was really crying about it…
On the following days we were still texting with each other as if nothing happens to me…. Then goes another friend of mine told me that the guy text her and told her about what he feels towards my friend.. and she was shocked..That’s why again my heart bleeds.. I even told myself I need not to assume on things coz its gonna break my heart.. So I asked him about what he did and yes he told me that he told my friend that he likes her. So I told him to pursue what he felt towards her. I even tease him again and again… but still the treatment he gives me is even getting higher and higher like you can say that there’s really something going on us .. He even told me that the day we started texting he doesn’t know why he is interested to txt me he is happy everytime we texted. Coz before, he doesn’t even care who texted him or he even got a time to load his number .. but as we started texting he was able to know this Unlimited txt.. On his work he has time to txt me and even replies when he got a chance… He is really a very busy person coz he even got home late at night due to the demand of his work.. sometimes if he doesn’t have time to load his number. He uses his cell phone plan wherein we are not on the same cell phone network just to txt me and have chat. He never failed to txt me everyday.. He even told me also that we really have They are like this with her girlfriend coz her girlfriend is so understanding not like us that we keep on fighting we have some arguments but in the end we understand each other we really have this connection and our conversation is like were having some sort of more than friends relationship.
Then time passed by …. Again I was able to discover that he was also texting my other friend its my friend 3 and then I think the girl was kinda kilig ion their conversation .. because shes my friend she let me read their converstion. MY god! Theres nothing more to make kilig of it. But the girl is kilig so I just smiled and later on after how many days weeks and months I was able to ask him what was their real status with my friend 3? He answered me were friends nothing more nothing less. So I answered him ah….. okey your friends..
I was in the mall that time when I suddenly saw him at a distance as if he has somebody to meet so I looked at him and yes he did.. I saw a girl and then they talked to each other like they have a 1 meter and a half distance .. so what I did coz I really wanted to eat in those food stall in the mall I really don’t know but I passed by at the center and he was able to recognize me and even called my name.. Because I was hurt by that I didn’t looked at him as if I didn’t see them at all and I went home. So by the time I was riding at the multicab going home he text me that Haven’t you seen me at the mall I was calling you and you seemed like you ignored me?? Why? SO I replied NO I didn’t see you.. I was in a hurry .. I know he doesn’t believe me. We talked about what happened about the girl he met. And we changed topic so as not to get hurt again …
We always cared for each other… We had a conversation and he asked me?? How would you know if the someone has feelings from you?? So I replied him… he also asked me if what should he do when the girl is in love with him?? And we end up our conversation with this he asked a sign from GOD that if the girl can give him this very simple thing that means its her that God wanted him ..
……………. Saturday afternoon we were on a meeting and I was with my friend 3 he was not around coz he went home .. he was texting this friend 3 of mine about anything and luckily again I was able to read their conversation because my friend wanted me to read it. She even asks me what to reply and me the martyr girl also told her what to reply.. but my heart really aches as if its gonna explode anytime.. So as we went home because I really can’t help it I was able to txt him about what I felt but I didn’t told him that’s its him I’m referring to … so he started to kulit mi on who’s that guy I’m referring but I know that he knows about it. So.. before I went to sleep I prayed to GOD that LORD give a sign and what comes up to my mind!! The sign I’m gonna ask is when I got to see him at the CHURCH at 8 pm mass and he would see me and his gonna ask me for a dinner after that means we have chance in the future.
SUNDAY Evening I was rushing at the church so I can attend the mass the church was so big coz its at the heart of the city and there are full of people so I went forward coz every time I attended a mass I really wanted to seat in front so not to have distractions .. And booom a friend of mine saw me and called me to seat beside her coz there’s still a vacant seat. When I was sitting she told me look at the front MR Guy is also here.. My god!!! I was not expecting that I would see him .. My heart pumps like I don’t know its gonna burst.. I feel like its freezing I cant move my hands my feet I’ve got mixed emotions … the time when it was about to receive the Holy Eucharist he was able to saw me “ iya kung gikuhit sa kamut” and I just ignored him. Afterwards the mass ends but then I rushed out of the church but there are so many people so I cant get out easily ..but booom I didn’t notice that he was standing at the door facing outside so I rushed and I don’t know if he saw me..
to be continued……….
My love diary .....
Originally Posted by butterflygurl
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