It’s Tuesday today and you’re not here by my side..
Feeling so sad today.
Yesterday when I knew that Doc ___ will be the one to handle the rationale thingy, I was kinda excited but still don’t understand why.. Then Kanina nung paalis nako kasi tpos na ung class nagkasabay kami sa elevator… Darn! that awkward/ jealous I felt was so f*ckd up … Its not because I like her but at that very moment there’s an inner voice I heard and it says,”
How I wish my gf is that sweet and that proud too with our relationship”.
yea! Doc is a lesbian and she’s with her gf.. and yep confirming am Actually in a relationship with a lesbian.. Hmmm.. actually shes not a lesbian.. Babae talaga sya and syempre ako din nuh! I had twice relationship with a guy and after 3 years I fell inlove w my bestfriend/supervisor and older than me…
Actually nagpost nako here before, sharing you guys bout How I feel towards my bestfriend. I think that was 7 or 8 mos. ago and now happy to tell you everyone nga
We're on our 5mos. already (Feeling so kilig bout it) I mean till now reminiscing bout everything of how it started, the day we had our first date (that's the day after I told her that "I think Im falling inlove with you"), the after 5 days niamin sya nga< "The feeling is mutual" daw... ayiii <3 <3 .... so kilig
anyways I love her much but haven't shared these to her nga ing ana diay na nuh! Sakit kaayo nga in your part you're so proud of your gf and your relationship but here's ur partner trying to tell you not to be that obvious cos people daw are not that open minded unlike me... that our relationship should keep sealed and secret.. actually I felt so bad when I heard that words coming from her mouth.. I mean I understand her and whatever her opinions and stands in her life pero nakana ko nga sakit jud kaayo diay nga to think wa man gani ka kasuway nga gitago ka sa karelasyon nimo sa lalaki cos they're even proud nga sexy kuno iya uyab (Char! atik lang!!) nya kini nuon bae nga mas gwapa pa man gani ko ani (Char!! ing ana ra na pero proud ko and love na nako)
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Nya naa to time nga we had a huge fight cos how many times nako nag sleep over sa ila. She's living w her sis whom is 27y.o (anyways im 24yo and my partner is 36) and konsensya nako kaayo nga i have to act as if nothing is wrong nga mosleep ko nila ky di man siya nahan nga mahibawan sa iya sister then wa namn ko kaagwanta nitugan jud ko sa iya sis...(p*sts!! recalling of how much kurog I felt by that time Nyeta Binata pre!) ahak! haha
Me: Geng what if you are in a situation that you really just want to be honest cos u're more comfortable with it and you strongly beleive that everything will be more okay doing it and atleast you dont have to remmeber a lot of lies but there's one person telling you not to. What will you do
Her sis: Then you do what makes you happy. Choose things that you are more comfortable cos nevertheless it would still be the same. you will never be happy cos thats not what you wanted.
Me: ok! Geng me and your ate ...
Her sister: couple?? yes I know .. and I'm happy and proud of you cos you are that honest to urself and I know u're sincere ky ate... but whatever you have ni ate thats fine w me I understand.
Me: thanks geng. but di xa nahan mahibawan nimo.
hers siter: I wont tell her.
blahblahblah!! (Horrrrayyy!!!!))) Ending sa story hapit ko makahilak (Arteha bai oi!!) hahaha
Anyways I just feel so bad till now nga she really dont have any plans of telling to her sister knowing that Ive slept there for how many times.. but 1thing ill never forget, the only reason she have is mahadlok siya mangutana iya sister kung lesbian sya.. Dammet!!!!! Thats irrational.....
Just sharing
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