here's the story..
i have a crush on her since college. pero she doesn't know i exist, actually she's a cousin sa akong classmate,which is a close friend of mine. hehe.. nya obviously she's definitely out of my league. me,simple ra nga taw. nya coming from a middle class family. siya ibutang lang nato nga gkan jd sya sa usa ka maayo pagkabutang nga pamilya. she drives her own car. nya makita pd jd nmo nga maayo jd cla pagkabutang. she's smart and beautiful. mao to kutob rjd ko crush. mataha pd ko.
so years passed. nagkita mi balik through her cuzn kay we decided to hangout palipas lang sa oras daghan na nausab sukad sa pila ka years mi nga wala nagkita. ako ibutang ta lang i landed a stable job in the government. siya mao lang ghapon gwapa lang ghapon. hehe and busy npd sa iyang career, at first awkward kaayo but then medyo nka inum na gamay i tried to start a conversation. mao to jam man pd diay sya ka storya bugoy pd and very down to earth nga person.. i thought arte sya ug dli xa mo entertain ug pareho nku.. hehe then it all started there. cge nami txt2 nya hang out panagsa kay puros man bc sa work. then to make the long story short i fell in love then siya she doesn't feel the same towards me inshort na friend zone ko. kesyo d pa daw xa ready, nya d pa daw xa gusto mag uyab2 kay gkan pa xa sa break up ug tanan pang ka echosan hehe so obvious na kaayo.. then after a week or so nahibaw.an nlng nku nga nka uyab na diay xa.. so medyo bitter ko at first. pero i tried to move on with my life. medyo sakit jd xa kay i thought xa njd ang babay that im willing to spend the rest of my life. she's my kind of perfect kung baga.. i was so broken hearted i never thought ingon ato diay kasakit ma inlove. and the feeling of rejection. the feeling nga u're not good enough.. nga u're just a side line guy, u're just an option.. kung mka kita na sila mas pa nmo kalimtan nlang ka.. mka hinumdong lng sila kung bored sila. honestly, i never felt that way before towards someone.. meaning inlove jd kaayo ko niya.. hehe
life must move on i keep telling myself nga i don't deserve to be an option. nga ma o.k ra ang tanan just like my past relationship nga after pila ka months or a year mawala ra ang feeling, so i focused on my career puro trabaho nlng ako gi atiman thinking nga through the years mkalimtan ra nku siya. wla na gni ko halos time sa akong self.. maski dating nawala na sa circulation inshort wla nku social life.. hehe years passed everything went well with my career. i went back to school para sa akong masterals and with god's grace got promoted to a higher position more than i expected. i thought with all my success i found my happiness nga para nku i could not ask for more. i was at the peak of my career pero there are times nga usahay murag naa jd kuwang sa akong life. maybe i was at my early 30's na i should have started my own family and have some kids na.. mao cguro ni ang emptiness nga akong ma feel sometimes when im all alone in my room.
years passed na destino ko sa ilang hometown. there nagkita mig balik, haaaays... unsa nlng jd ka sungogan ang kinabuhi.. there she is gwapa lang ghapon maski nanambok gamay. hehe and surprisingly she's still single abi nku kung magkita mig balik most probably minyo na xa.. ug usa pjd sa nka pait i got connected with her family kay iyang parents became my business partner.. it started as a small business then with the help sa iyang parents kay sila man jd sweto parti ug negosyo igo rman ko namuhonan so ni lambo jd pd.. so wa ko'y choice grasya ngud ni.. pero as much as possible i tried to avoid her. pero lisud jd labi na if naay times nga kinahanglan ko mo adto sa ilaha regarding sa business tymingon nku nga wla xa pero naa jd panahon nga mag abot mi kay xa man gi tahasan sa iyang parents mo handle sa mga finances. so i act professionally. i keep telling myself nganu affected man ghapon ko nga dugay nman kaayo to nga panahon everytime kita ko niya i feel like my heart skip a beat.. hehe and there i realized im still in love with her all this time. everything went well man pd. i act as if nothings going on. purely business. pero nkamatikod jd xa kadugayan nga im trying to avoid her. we share common friends from college years pa namo.. so if naay gamay tapok2 nya naa xa dghan kaayo kog excuse nga dli ko katunga. pero if wla gni xa meaning ana i'll find time nga mo adto.. she asked me many times nga can we talk or can we have some time together to sort things out between us.. but i keep telling her that im busy or if it's not that important maybe some other time.. basta regarding matters nga dli mag involve sa business mo likay jd ko.. to make the long story short.. nagka storya mig balik during a gathering sa ilang balay it was her mom's birthday.. then she asked me nga why daw nanguyab ko niya sauna.. then she keeps asking me how's my love life if naa ba koy uyab karon.. or can we hang out sometimes stuff like that.. so i tried to answer her straight just to end up the conversation. i keep telling her nga wla nkuy time para ana.. pero at the back of my mind i keep on telling nga xa rjd ang gi tibok ning akong kasing2.. hehe she's been trying to reach out for me.. she even sometimes make jokes about me courting her back.. pa dungog2 bah.. pero d njd ko... bahala na!
lami kaayo xa ingnon nga mka trauma kaayo to imong gbuhat sauna.. hahaha
" karon nlng? " im no option
brother.. 
Originally Posted by monrose29
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