There's this girl mga somewhat bestfriend nko sauna, pero for 5 yrs kapin nkong nagmake ug move / undang. Because libog2 pud siya ug utok (dili buang ha?? hehe..). Everytime mu make ko ug move niya ky tanan effort ako e.hatag, usahay ok ra niya, usahay magabot iyang kilay.

pero kasabot rko niya ky wala pa man siyay uyab sukad.. hehe

note: i told her that I loved her sauna. pero pag 1st yr pa to.. or 1st yr nga nagkaila mi or nanguyab ko niya. ever since then i didn't tell her again ky ganahan ko dritso ang tubag.. hehe
So Feb. 14 or Valentines day sa 2012 ky I planned a perfect evening for her. Surprised her at her house, with flowers for her, her mom and food for her family. I wanted to go have dinner with her outside ky naa nkoy gi.pareserve daan. Pero before siya pwde mugawas for dinner, I had to ask permission to her Mom and Dad(1st time nko makig sturya sa iya parents hehe

)so I picked her up at her house. Then I took her out to dinner with the reserved seats and maybe good food soup ra ako natilawan

(wala ko kbw if lami ba nga food ky wala ko nka tilaw). But then nka sense ko niya nga cheeseyhan ra siya, and maybe she didn't like it or makalitan ra siya ngano kbw ko ug ingn ato (Da Moves gi.nagmay ba. hehe..). So we just sat there sa restaurant for a couple of mins. then pagka feel nko nga dili na siya ganahan sa environment(klaro kaayo gi.cheesyhan) ky ako siyang gi.uli sa ila. Ad2 nlng ko nka kaon ug dinner sa ila, nya pag human ky uli. so mga total time nga nang gawas mi ky mga 1hr ra siguro.. padung ngad2, ug padung uli.. with traffic nana ha?
I was quite disappointed sa outcome for that night. I planned it for nearly 1 month. So I told myself nga last nto, dili nko mu risk. Na traumatized kog gamay after ato. Mindset nko was: Dili nko mu usab ato ky mao ra gihapon mahitabo. Pero she apologized after that night. maybe it was out of friendship or conscience(I have no idea).
She know's that I am bound to leave the country after 1 month, so maybe for her it would be a waste ky mag LDR mi or maybe dili pa siya ganahan ug uyab2.. (I have no idea what's on her mind..)
So after I left dili nko ganahan makig communicate niya ky mao to ang nahitabo.. pero for the sake sa among friendship ky BFF kuno mi kanuhay. balik mi ug communicate, pero dili pirmi. Pero dili na unta ko ganahan ky na traumatized ko ug gamay. pero ganahan man gihapon ko niya(SUS GUGMA!!).. unya pila pa ka years before ko mu balik sa Cebu or pwde gani dili na..
So kung manguyab ko niya ug usab ky after pila pa ka years(ky basin dugay2 pa mi magkita). And dili pud ko ganahan magubot iyang kinabuhi ky naa siyay ideal family.. akong pamilya puro gubot..
So pangutana nko ky: muhuwat ba ko ug pila ka tuig para mutake nsad sa risk??(being Selfish) or pasagdan nlng nko siya and leave her with her Ideal Family nga gamay ra kaayo ug gubot? ky kung mu.apil ko sa iyang kinabuhi basin magka gubot ra
(note: siyay una nakig communicate ug balik) so wala jud koi idea kung unsay sud sa iyang Utok.. Bi-polar man guro ni siya.. JK :P
dili ni siya bi-polar ha? libog lng jud ug utok..hehe