expressing my sadness...

[painted_love]

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i dnt know how to put my feelings into word that people will know how sad i am in this chosen moment, i chose upon. But things happen its own way, own time and own hand to cut this off...no matter how much we fight for our love for each other and no matter how happy we are when we are together til its not enough...not enough in the sense that we are hiding our relationship with the people who are so dear to us. and telling lies with them. our own guilt killing us so tightly... Before i go of what happened...just a little brief intro. i and my so called so..someone significant are indulged with same *** relationship. I am a lesbian and i myself only know its "self-secret". Then, i accidentally bump with this girl, I've fall for her unintentionally, and in some point she also does. She give her self a chance to love me even she had a lot of thoughts, fears, guilt, and uncertain things for having our relationship. At first, it's start with a simple way of communication through chats and text every day. I sounds great...like having a butterfly on my tummy every seconds. Full of happy thoughts...wishful thoughts even we are so distance apart and keeping our relationship a secret from everybody...In a long run...I've been visiting her in here hometown...meet her family once again..but i was introduced as her friend...dearest friend..but it's so so okay...but i felt so awkward dat time...i can even make a single conversation of her mother coz i know we are hiding something from them...it's the first strike of my own guilt but at the same time she also does...and she's the one who open up with the issue...about what she felt every time der someonewho would asked me y i am der...but we just both smiled...and try ignore the question as possible as we can... but before i went back to cebu...we decided to cut it off...coz we end up of having our own guilt and we can't take the guilty of doin nothing abwt it. I can't do anything but to say YES...and ending up crying for losing someone i love d most... but later on...after a couple of days...she took back her decision and get another try for our love because i love her...i'd say YES! It's takes a couple of days nd months of sharing our love of each other through text and chat...and we celebrated our bday together near in her home town. I stayed for 3 days. We're both so happy of being together nd den some incidents that she decided to work here in CEBU. I was a bit hesitant coz der a big chances that people will know about us but still i said YES. When she arrived here, it was a blast...i am happier than ever even i've this worries of what will other people might say and might know about us but things go softly...but not only yesterday...Later this march... she's starting her training in one of the call center here...she meets new friends nd new people. Ders a time when i and her having a ride of the jeepney...it was the first time that i sent her to her office...i kep on hugging him..i loss my sense that time...i forgot that ders somebody who already know her dat i dnt know...and that somebody saw us...and ask her...y i kep on hugging her?....that's that first strike...so wat i replied..next time i will not do it...later at night again...we have some walking...i was holding her hands while we walked....again i forgot that somebody will see us...den suddenly der was..one of her officemate again...and saying i saw u walking with someone and held your hands...and she told me...and den again i said..i will not do it in public...so no one will asked her again... but eventually all her co-workers are getting closer...became friends...and shared of thoughts..gaining and getting trust. And she told me last last night...that she's getting guilty once more...and she wanted to cut it off. I was so quite ....so quite....no words could ever out in my mouth but my heart starting having the feeling of losing her...losing everything i wanted for all of my life...but then again i'd say YES...She cried and i cried so much. I've never went home til now...i spend my time of having her...even jst this moment that she's still mine. Right now...i dont know how my life will be...i will just hope that this sacrifice will turn into something worth it. My heart s aching and my eyes kep on producing tears which i cnt stop...hubag gyud ni ako mata...ahehehe... Luckier those person who have the right relationship that everybody accept...and unlucky for me..but that's life...im still thankful for once i've someone who loved me jst d way i love...

[john_yo]

ayaw lang og surender. keep on going.... and going... and going... hehehe mora og energizer bah.

if dili na ma dala then move on.

[painted_love]

after we've agreed to separate...each day was really so heavy...i embrace the pain of losing her. but can't help myself not to see her...each morning i strive very hard to woke up just to have a glimpse of her but destiny was never allowed me to saw her before i went into my office. until one day...it was Wednesday...before i went to office...i was trying to wait for her in distance apart in her boarding house but i was not able to saw her and i went into my office...and when i try to look at my cellphone, I've one message received...and from the deepest of my heart...deepest of my hope..i hope it was coming from her then it was her... saying "office nka?". When i read it...i don't know if what i am going to do..either to reply her or not but in my heart i wanted to reply... i replied her 2 hrs ago but no replying coming from her...maybe she already fall asleep. Whole day and afternoon on Wednesday I was looking on my cp...den before i went out to office...she texted me..."to passed by in her boarding house" and then i went...and i feel at home, i feel happy and i feel glad because despite of her worries and feelings she still choose me to stay...to make this relationship remain even it against the world...against the humanity but in the sense we love each other..i think we still have space on this earth and by given this chance to have this... we will take it... hoping that one day...we can still fight and get the strength from each other...hoping in one day...we can live a life of a normal being... thanks for the reply...

[vahnhelsing]

maayong adlaw sa tigpasiugda ning kutay.
ako na lamang kini binisay-on akong sugyot tambag kanimo.

Una sa tanan may gugma nga dili mahiuyonan sa kadaghanan. Kini nga ang matang sa gugma nga inyohang gibati karon. Ginadili sa uban apan gugma kini nga walay laing kadangpan busa angay lang nga ipabuhagay. Kun mahinungdanon kaninyong duha ang pagbati ninyo sa usag usa nganong gikauwaw man kini ninyo pinaagi sa pagtago niini sa mga tawo nga hadool sa inyohang kasing-kasing ug sa mga kaamigohan? Ang mahinungdanon sa tanan nga kamong duha nagminahalay nga walay gitamakan ug kabilinggan sa kinabuhi. Apan boot ko usab ilakbit kanimo nga moabot unya ang takna, ang iyahang panginahanglanon sa gugma sa usa ka lalaki. Basin dili mo kani mahitupngan. Iabli lang ang imong salabutan sa maong panghitabo para dili kaayo ka tantong masakitan. Apan bisan paman sa tanan, padayona ang inyohang paghinigugmaay tungod kay kini ang bugtong kalipay sa kinabuhi nga mopuno kanato ug kadasig sa pagpakabuhi. Hangtod diri na lamang ug maayong udto diha...

[brian joshua]

sunod, iparagraph pd gamay ts kay gabalik2 kog basa sa isa ka linya intawn kay nalibat ko dri...

[ambokz]

base sa imo story ts,dli nmani issue kron,kay daghan nman in ani na relationship...naa ko friend/close friend same sa inyo situation,still going strong pman cla till now..even in malls, daghan na kaau...even my ex,is having a relationship same as yours.just enjoy every moment lang ts.

[skyblue_lord]

unsa ni tomboy ni ang ngapadala sa sugilanon o bayot hheehehheeh please lamdagi ko ninyo.....

[ain]

kutasan kog basa perting taasa oi.. wala na nuon q kasabot.. hehehehe..

[crazy_monkey]

lingaw na basa.. hehehe

[yujjieo]

maayong adlaw sa tigpasiugda ning kutay.
ako na lamang kini binisay-on akong sugyot tambag kanimo.

Una sa tanan may gugma nga dili mahiuyonan sa kadaghanan. Kini nga ang matang sa gugma nga inyohang gibati karon. Ginadili sa uban apan gugma kini nga walay laing kadangpan busa angay lang nga ipabuhagay. Kun mahinungdanon kaninyong duha ang pagbati ninyo sa usag usa nganong gikauwaw man kini ninyo pinaagi sa pagtago niini sa mga tawo nga hadool sa inyohang kasing-kasing ug sa mga kaamigohan? Ang mahinungdanon sa tanan nga kamong duha nagminahalay nga walay gitamakan ug kabilinggan sa kinabuhi. Apan boot ko usab ilakbit kanimo nga moabot unya ang takna, ang iyahang panginahanglanon sa gugma sa usa ka lalaki. Basin dili mo kani mahitupngan. Iabli lang ang imong salabutan sa maong panghitabo para dili kaayo ka tantong masakitan. Apan bisan paman sa tanan, padayona ang inyohang paghinigugmaay tungod kay kini ang bugtong kalipay sa kinabuhi nga mopuno kanato ug kadasig sa pagpakabuhi. Hangtod diri na lamang ug maayong udto diha...

dear charo.................... hahaha... idol!

ts: tinud-anay noh, paghuman nako'g basa, mura kog nalibat.... taasa ui! bitaw ts, nganong poblemahun man na nmu? ayaw ka guilty kai 'nagmahal ka lang..' but, accept urself first. how would u make everybody accept u if ikaw mismo, talikdan nmu ang kamatuoran!