i have a bf for years na. a year ago, he started working in one of the biggest call centers in IT park. when he started, it was all fine. he wants to spend most of his time wiith me and everything was ok. then he got transferred to another account where he got to meet new people dat turned out to be a bad influence to him. liman ka ingnon xa na "cge man kkag uyab2x oi." it was then that he started to change. i admit that i'm possessive, jealous and paranoid. there was this certain girl sa iya fb friend na murag "special" btaw nya, lami kaau xag mga comments, etc. i asked him and he said wa ra daw na. but his officemates are teasing him towards that girl. "crush" daw sa akong uyab ang girl and when i asked him about it, ana xa natrippan ra daw xa sa iya officemates. i told him that of all the single guys sa iyang account, ikaw jud ang ingon ana-an. then he said to just drop the issue and i did. his attitude change for the worst. kung unsa xa ka patient and understanding before, karn dali na kaau xa masuko nako. before he would say that being with me is enough for me but now he would say that i am isolating him from his friends. he changed his fb password for me not to gain access when before iya ra ng ihatag nako without asking him. he would let me hold his fone but karn always bantay sirado kay kung mtan-aw ko. he told me na ako na daw iya i-marry and even asked if ok ra bah ma-engage but dugy pa ang kasal nya karon ingnon lng ko na "nganong mag-ingn ana ka, minyo d i ta?" he changed 360 degrees. nag-studio2x ra pd nako xa while stalking the girl. then i found out na daghan na au xag gppamakak nako. i would want to talk to him in a civil way but i know it's either he will avoid the issue or get mad at me. napuno nako mao tong ako xang gconfront if he is hiding something from me. nasuko xag maau, he told me i'm so paranoid and selfish. he keeps saying i don''t trust him but how could i trust him if he gives me a reason not to. actions would speak louder. naghilak nako and iyang gsulti ra kay "ayaw cgeg drama dinha". he is never that mean to me before. i asked him ngano ka and he said nga na-bato daw xa tungod nako. i gave him everything. i blew my chances to work abroad para lng to stay and be with him. i may have locked him down, but i had a reason to. i was protecting our relationship. either way, nagpatintal man ghapon xa. he was too blinded na sa kalingaw nya sa iyang trabaho, sa iyang bag-ong mga kaila, or possibly sa iyang bag-ong babae na na forget na jud nya and pila ka-years namong relationship. he completely forgot his love for me.
sakit kaau karon pra nako iyang gbuhat. worst pa jud ky nna-happen ni xa befoore sa akong ex before nya and he was even the one who comforted me. siya pay ga-ingon2x na kalimtan nako akong ex kay wa xay kwenta, maypa xa nlng daw akong i-love. nya mao na ni iyang nabuhat nako karon. everyone tells me na pasagdii xa. let him be and give him space. as much as i would want to, gimingaw kaau ko nya. i want to be with him but i am stopping myself coz i know wala na jud xa nako. i have friends man saying na ok ra daw na, he'll come around. but akong fear is, what if he doesnt? i don''t know what to do now. everytime i'm out with friends i'd forget the pain i'm feeling but when i get home, mohilak na sad ko. ma-feel nsad nako ang sakit.
now he doesnt talk to me. i dont even know what we are ryt now, if buwag na bah mi or cool off. i just found out that he made another fb account and invited only his offiicemates and that girl. he even blocked me so that i wouldnt see it. we just work across each other pa jd, atbang ra mig building. naa juy chance magkakita mi. i don't know what to do na jud. wala miy closure. love pa jud nako cya, but khbw ko d na ko nya love as much as before. they say na stupid ra jud kaayo ko if mo-give in pako nya but i think na naa man pd koy sala. i just wanted a chance to start over but d nman xa. he had succumb to the temptation of bachelorhood that is poisoning BPO companies. i had been a viictim of it before but he said that he'll never be as weak as me and that he is better. but wala ra ghapon, na-tintal jud xa.
i dont know what to do now. unsa man, mo-let go ko or mo-fyt? mo-huwat ko or mo-move on? mobalik pa kha xa nako?
thanks in advance guys...