This seems like an appropriate place to post it. If not, sorry Mods. Please close and tell me where I should post it.
Anyway, here's my story so far...
I graduated high school in 2009 from a notable all girl's school and enrolled myself in a Fine Arts course in USC. I was sort-of pressured by my mother to enroll in fine arts since "drawing is the only thing I'm good at" (according to her) I realized it was a mistake at first but I went on with it, saying what's the worst that could happen? Dumbsh*t move.
I didn't feel welcomed in school. My classmates and "friends", super plastic and the pressure got to me in second year. Good enough, my Mum FINALLY agreed to have me shift..... into a Linguistics course.
I'm not complaining so far, but school is definitely hard now that I'm slightly older than my current batch. I was told by my Dean that i must pass all of my subject and not fail either once since that could mean the end and what doesn't make it any better is that I will definitely fail in Math. I tried to reason out with the teacher, hell, I even tried to reason out in behalf of my class but there seems to be no hope for her.
Sometimes, I even think I was born too late since there's only one thing I'm really good at, and that's just being a Homemaker (with years being stuck only with girls, I think we can infer WHERE I learned that from) and I recently discovered I have a gift for selling food and home-crafted items. Right now, I'm even planning to open up a store in USC TC just to have a little extra income for me and my parents...
Believe me when I say that I have an interest to finish college and have a degree in my hand. But that the rate it's going, I feel like the "college life" might not be for me. That maybe there are really some people who aren't meant to go to college and what really sucks is that I was raised to be a somewhat housewife, but end up getting thrown into the world to become more than that.
I admit, I am sheltered. But a sheltered girl in a cut-throat society is a really bad combo.
But there has to be some people who are feeling the same thing as I am feeling right now, right? That you don't fit in, that you feel awkward being in work that you do not love and wish you were somewhere, still making a difference but with less pressure?
Despite my earlier gibe about TESDA, I am now open to the idea of actually enrolling myself in any of their courses. But the catch is, will my parents, more importantly, my mother approve? I am always told my father that I can do whatever I want, as long as a.) its not drugs and; b.) it's not hurting anyone, most especially myself.
I know the title seems very sexist, but I am inclined to realize that something is afoot and it seems rather suspicious.
Ugh, I don't know, I feel really lost right now.
Guys and girls, what is your opinion on this and how do you think this can be remedied?
If you guys don't have anything help/constructive to say and just troll me, please don't bother posting at all. You're a menace to society.