first love gf and pain

[NSDAP]

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i had my first gf way back in 2007, we were classmates during college.. she graduated first... kani sya wala jud ko paki ani nya during college, during my college days i dont have any gf, honestly torpehun ko na guy and doesnt care much about those love stuffs... i just enjoy what things i have in life... my family has a food business sa mall sa cebu buisness park and it park... tough i have girls before but none of them i consider a gf and love in short Mu2x lang... looser ayu.. haha.. but anaway back, after my graduation this clasmate of mine nagka sugat me sa mall og kalit and then i invited her to our resto have a chat... ana, then we have our numbers, sauna since sugod patung frndster message ni sya nako, pero i ignore and dont reply to messages, in short snub ko....
kani ko girl sige ni sya txt nako og laag kami og amo mga friends. till time na kami lang duha.... she is the one who visits me in our house dira near sa cebu business park.... just 1 minute walk ra duul ra....
to make the long story kani ko miga ni confess sya nako na she likes me sauna pa since atong naa pa sya bf, until samo sige strya nag ka kami.... on my part at first i see na uyab2x ra ni like sa uban ato na time i cannot say inlove na jud ko, as months go na enjoy ko with her...
our family business is not getting well, to be honest wid u am a type of guy na materialistic, naa sad ko mind set na guys should give all things sa babae to make her life comfortable, ako caring jud ko pag katao... i have fears that i cannot give her a good life if naa smthing bad mahitabo samoa... and naa sad ko bisyu materialistic lagi...sige laag barkada...
i ended up going out most of the time sa ko friends na mga anak pud og dagkong tae sa cebu... we wont on to business, illegal business (ie. guns, and other stuffs) for revenue,,and na lulung ko sa casino....because i have moneys... i forgot and ignore my gf.....its stupid.... then comes our first december she didn't went home la province... keep txting me where am i, i always say im busy, i dont reply... i left her on that cold December of 2007...
we met at feb of 2008, dugayu ayu, mad and sad, she broke up with me telling me to reorganize my self first and be a true man....my world suddenly crushes i dont know why, i was thinking na dili ko madutlan....its painful.... but i never give up... as always dili ko mo surrender, which i think my biggest strength.
so i stop what i do... and work in a manufacturing firm in lapu2x as a mechanical engineer...correct my life....bought my self a car... from my previous earnings..... she works in lapu2x sad i tend to close...
i work hard, and wala jud lain babae ako gi apas sya ra jud, wala ko uyab for 2 to 3 years....after nya...

2years after tadang!!! i met her up again... to a new me... i show up, she cried when we met i tot tears of joy, tears of sorrow diay kay naa na sya uyab lain... i was devastated...

but still sa ko gahi ulo.. i still met up with her till times na nag ka close me again sige me date, depsite naa na sya bf.... until naa nahitabu sa amua... we go to other provinces... just the two of us...
she told me she still loves me, loves me more than her bf.... sa ya gi sulti didto ko na inlove nya pag ayu na jud tudo na... kay depsite sa ko mga biunang og ka gago... gi love ghapun ko nya more... i was touch honestly...

sa among pag kyug adto me sa other province bohol, i ask her na mag balik me....
her answer is "is i dont know", i ask her why she told me shes afraid... shes afraid na byaan nako sya someday...
i convince her all of my best na dili na mausab...
she wont belive and shes urging me to find someone else and she told me its hard and scary daw sa yaha among situation...... i was upset to my self so sad... i hate my self,... regrets the past... i want time to come back but cannot... until sa fb i saw her profile sya og ya uyab jud...i feel pain..., pero sige ghapun me kita kay inlove namn jud ko... ako sya drivan permi hatud kuha... ako sya dala sa mga lugar wala pa nya naadtuan... all things happen to us...

till time na i gave her up, not becoz i dont love here anymore, but i see sad na nag lisod sya tungud nako, coz duha ya responsibility, coz i see lang sa pic nya og sya bf, ka feel ko og luuy sa ya bf... kay gi luyu ra nako ya bf binuangan ba....

till this time 2011 feb... nag ka talk me sa fone... shes pregnant and married na last january 2011.....
pag ka dungog nako gkan nya confirm, i hear sa mra rumors, now sya na jud sulti...
mura btaw gi kumot ko kasing2x mura ni saka ko cholesterol.. i nver felt this pain before in my whole life...sakit ni hilak ko, first nako sya na babae ghilakan aside sako mom....its painfull... till now....
i dont know na .....

what should i do guys?

this is my first time post in istorya.net and new member ko...

thank you..............

[ongkal]

lisod na bay. she has a husband. you had your chance, but sadly it wasnt enough. if kaingon ka nga nahurt kag maayo, kung imo sad siya agawon sa iya bana, mas mahurt iya bana.

[Daiquiri]

You know, crap things always happen.
We don't expect them but they really come.
More often, there are situations that tear us to pieces, but
we always learn from them, especially from our mistakes.
And things happen for a reason, maybe this girl,
the one you thought you really love
is not really for you, but instead she's the instrument
so that you could change, make yourself a better you so that
you can prepare for your future when you really
meet the girl who is really for you.

[Blackjellybean27]

she's married right? so DON'T DO ANYTHING. let her be. she moved on, you gotta move on too

[NSDAP]

thank you, i believe your correct....

[NSDAP]

You know, crap things always happen.
We don't expect them but they really come.
More often, there are situations that tear us to pieces, but
we always learn from them, especially from our mistakes.
And things happen for a reason, maybe this girl,
the one you thought you really love
is not really for you, but instead she's the instrument
so that you could change, make yourself a better you so that
you can prepare for your future when you really
meet the girl who is really for you.

thank you very much

[pinoy_09]

i feel ur pain brah..

it's hard to tell u to stay the F away from that girl, because it's not as easy as actually doing it... know what i mean?

in love kau ka ani nga girl bro....and kasabot rko sa imong na feel.. nag agi pud ko ana... in love kau nga hapit di na mu kaon nya depress kau kay naa nay lain...

here's what u can do bro... at this point lang to get you through this pain... convince yourself bro that this will pass like everything else... MAKALIMOT RAKA NIYA BRO... trust me when i say this.

sa kadaghang babaye bro?? once maka kita nakag lain you will look back and say to yourself why u got so crazy over this girl...

ask urself bro... is it worth it to keep pursuing this girl? remember, this girl is married and pregnant.. put urself in the shoes of her husband... now ask urself if u want other guys to snatch ur wife away...

ponder on these bro...

[NSDAP]

i feel ur pain brah..

it's hard to tell u to stay the F away from that girl, because it's not as easy as actually doing it... know what i mean?

in love kau ka ani nga girl bro....and kasabot rko sa imong na feel.. nag agi pud ko ana... in love kau nga hapit di na mu kaon nya depress kau kay naa nay lain...

here's what u can do bro... at this point lang to get you through this pain... convince yourself bro that this will pass like everything else... MAKALIMOT RAKA NIYA BRO... trust me when i say this.

sa kadaghang babaye bro?? once maka kita nakag lain you will look back and say to yourself why u got so crazy over this girl...

ask urself bro... is it worth it to keep pursuing this girl? remember, this girl is married and pregnant.. put urself in the shoes of her husband... now ask urself if u want other guys to snatch ur wife away...

ponder on these bro...

thanks ayu bro... thats why i stop pursuing her sa katung wala pa sya naminyu, coz na luuy ko sa ya uyab... i know masakitan sya... it just im too selfish bro.....
i always put on my mind that GOD gave her to me as an instrument... to change me and give me lessons to may immoralities....

[Daiquiri]

^ You're still young. You can still do a lot in your life.

[KASAAC]

Sad to hear your story bai... well shit happens, naka move on naman sya so i guess its time for you to do the same, good luck bai!