what's wrong with me?

[etzina]

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my present bf is not the type of person one would want as a serious bf. he had his first kid when he was 19, then his second kid was 2 years ago.... sige lang dula online games, sige lang absent sa klase (he's 26 now and wa pa gyapon mu graduate sa college!!!)

we met online kay friend sya sa ako officemate, he's 4 years younger than me, he was 22, i was 26 that time. at first he didn't tell me nga naa na diay sya mga anak, i only found out when the 2nd girl messaged him on friendster nga hapit na daw sya manganak... gi away nako sya coz he lied to me. the next day we had a serious talk and he apologized for not telling me right away. nituo ra sad ko...

around 2 years after, we "broke up" (pero i saw it as cool off that time), days after that kay ga start napud sya text nako and tagad nako online, i was thinking it was one of those days nga after namo away kay ok ra gyapon mi pero wa na jud sya nagpakita nako pero sige lang gyapon text, tawag, ug tagad online.... 2 months have passed, nagbalik mi.

karon, he changed. he goes out with his friends (kato pag HS niya) and mag inom... I've never met his friends (or his brother or parents for that matter).... then sige lang sya ingon nako di daw mi kelangan pirmi magkuyog kay wa daw nagsumpay amo mga tinae.... (hayz!) sauna halos everyday mi magkuyog, he even sleeps at home on the weekends.. nya karon kay gi schedule lagi ko nga every other day nalang mi magkuyog, NAUNSA?

he's the type of person who's not vocal about what he feels.... who rarely says "i miss you" or "i love you"... and he's never given me any romantic gifts like flowers or chocolates....

he's the type of guy nga kung lain pa nga babae uyab ani, hagbay na ni gibuwagan kay passive ra jud kaayo. manhid. ug unsa pa diha....

now, my question.... what's wrong with me? why do i love him? despite him being "him"..... dili jud mag agree ako mind ug ako heart about this guy....... i've never cried so hard for a person before... sige lang ko pasakitan ani niya lately...


update:

thank you kaayo sa inyo mga tambag.. though ang uban kasabot ra sad ko makaingon sila stupid ko or unsa pa diha... wala pa lang tingali sila nakaabot sa ingani mao sayun ra para nila maka ingon nga stupid ko...

well anyway, update nalang pud... nagbuwag mi today lang.. ga lalis na pud mi... id rather not talk about it gikapoy nako sige think about it ug balik2x storya kay sa balay pa lang daan, kapila nako ga balik2x sa storya...

sa pagka karon i dont feel that hurt compared to our first break up though pirting hilak nako ganina... pagka nindut jud sa ako christmas, hay buhay! so now what do i do? wala man koy gana mu do anything uy. i dread coming to work kay mag tanga nasad ko. labi na kung mu uli ko samot nasad mag tanga ko. nakasabot nako karon nga siya man ang problem sa amo relationship karon, kay siya man ang nausab. as what my sis and mom said ganina, naa ra juy mga laki nga kapuyan na sa relationship, mausab, gusto nalang nga ila binuhatan kay mura sila single. he told me for now he wants to be on his own, nga wala daw mangita niya ug wala lain huna hunaon..

[Paolo1130]

sis...give ur self a time to think ana imo na feel sis..nya ampo sa ginoo ask guidance..gudluck TS

[yvonne6]

halos kitang mga babay we go through that stage. nothing is wrong with you, or maybe naay gamay. i was once in your shoes. kita man gud mga babay, feeling nato winner ta kung mausab nato ang lalaki sa atong kindness which is really wrong. dili ta gusto nga failure nasad atong relationship. kapoyan ug sayangan ta sa time, effort and money invested. palayo anang tawhana girl, kay kung dili, maanad ka sa ingon ana nga set up ug dawaton na lang na nimo. tanawa ra gud, ga hinay2 nakag sugot sa iyang mga gusto. lisud bag ohon nang lakiha, na use naman gud na siya nga maski sa iyang situation karon naay gamahal ug tinuod niya. ang mga ingon ani klaseng lalaki, dili ni angay tagaan ug grabe nga pag mahal kay the more na sila mag salig nga ok ra diay ilang binuhatan. unya raman na sila mo attempt mag bag o ug wala nay mopatul nila tungod sa ilang pagka sipat. mag mahay lang kag padugayun ni nimo girl

[colby]

TS,

That is what you called "LOVE"- when it hits you it hits everyone hard. Unsaon na lang, I will not tell you to follow your mind, kay I know pud unsa ang feeling if ang heart mismo ang nag dictate. You decide if kaya pa man kaha nimo na maging BF siya, if dili na ikaw ra jud makabalo and mag decision ana.

Your situation jud kay: " You love him not because of...but you love him despite of..." Gugma..

[redhorse1L]

No! not love. You might be watching too much movies lately.
If the guy is married, then you've just broken the law, whether be divine or civil.
If he is single, then what are you (both of you) gonna do with his kids?

Love is not just accept.. accept.. accept.. It should also have reprimands, discipline, sacrifice.
If what you are doing is good (divine or civil), then that is love.

[THE KID]

kaila man guro ko ana imong uyab...c charles nataga UC??

[scorpio_89]

There's nothing wrong with you, girl. You just know how to love UNCONDITIONALLY. But as someone has said here, the choice is yours. Surely, mo abot ang time nga kapuyon ra pud ka... siguro dili pa karon, pero mo-abot nang panahona..

Your BF is genuinely lucky.

[BlacknGray]

Grabeha pud ana imong uyab TS oi. May nalang diay to akong kaila nga wa'y ayu, (wa ka human ug skuyla, naay bisyo,standby) pero seryoso kun mahigugma. But I agree, with Scorpio, kapuyon ra ka ana imong sitwasyon... if kapuyon na gani ka, imo na siyang buwagan ug di na nimo mahimo nga makigbalik niya.

[JezzyCalm]

im also wondering unsa nkita nimu nya girl.. is he ur first bf?

[jangska]

Gugmay gi liver mani.. ahaha!