Haaay Badtrip!

[Blackjellybean27]

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hay ambot nlng...
super sad jud ko karon k feeling nako wala lng care ang bf ko sa feelings ko

same issue ra man gihapon, never ending...
i try to compromise, pero it seems like he always wants to get his way when it comes to this issue.
kasabot ra man unta ko, that's why i try to compromise...
the last time nag away kmi ( a few months ago) k super away jud because of this issue... to the point na hadluk na ko niya k he reacted violently man gud.. i mean wla man sya nag hurt nako physically ha...
basta violent reaction...

last few weeks k gi pasagdan lang nako k i thought ma gets lang niya without me having to tell him... ingon man sya sa friend ko naluoy daw sya nako, pero hangtod dira ra man.. wla man sya may gibuhat to resolve the issue, i mean naluoy sya nako but he didnt do anything about it... nausab pa jud the following week... wa ko na nak kaya the other week i wrote him a letter, telling him about my feelings, explaining to him why im feeling that way... i thought he would understand.. after reading the letter k g textan niya ko na selfish daw ko kaau. so imagine nalng unsa feeling nako na i gave way several times, ingnan pa jud ko selfish ko..

maau lang gani last week k this same issue didnt come up.. and i thought naka sabot na sya finally...
sos karon na sad na weekend same thing gihapon.. i dont get it!!
i really try to compromise, pero murag he's making things hard for me... k he always gets his way... nananghid bitaw ganiha pero i told him no honestly its not okay, pero same gihapon.. it happened again...

[dranoel]

what's the big issue? para maka advice sad ta gamay hehehe

[Blackjellybean27]

OT: e pm lang nako bro ha.. k lisod jud sya e post diri sa thread..

[bastywarts]

e post nalang dri sa thread miss..pra u dont have to pm everyone who wants to help,such as myself..

wats the big issue?

[hanamari]

TS: btaw post lng sa thread para maread sa tanan ug ma-advisan ka. total na sugdan nmn ug open nimu, eshare nlng the whole story para mas msabtan ang problm

[Blackjellybean27]

my bf has kids, he's separated from his wife. and i live with him now.
to make the long story short, i always tell him to let me know ahead if he wants to bring his kids over so i can clear the room of my stuff.... i don't want to cause issues between him and his ex-wife... so of course naturally we can't let the kids know na naa diay sya ka live in na karon..

anyway ang usapan is, to let me know ahead of time so maka prepare pod ko sa self ko (d baya easy for me giving up my room and clearing my things out each time, malain baya ko k to be honest i dont have any place to sleep at all k all three rooms are occupied so pa chance2x lang na naa empty space when they're around)maayo lang gani k my housemate maluoy nako so he would sleep over at his partner's house sometimes or go home late lang so i dont have to sleep in the sala...

so anyway, ma bad trip ko k all of a sudden naa na mga kids, diri diay mu sleep, ang things ko naa pa sa room namu, ang pillows ug blanket naa pod did2.. sometimes i would come home very tired expecting to sleep in my own bed, pag open ko sa room naa na cla did2..

simple ra man gi ask nako niya, to make sure na naa ko place to stay... unya i am pregnant now and its getting really hard for me to sleep in other people's room or in the sala... but wla lang sya care at all for me kng ma unsa ko, kng comfy ko or what.. masakitan ko k i accomodate his kids baya.. and sometimes i even help prepare food for them or play with the youngest k dali ra ma bored ang youngest.

lately i said, spend time with them pero kng pwd lang unta na d sila mu sleep diri k naglisod na jud ko...wla man ko gi tubag ug tarong.. nag hangyo ko ha.. i dont ever demand as in.. k kasabot baya ko kids na niya..

i hope matambagan ko, kng unsa buhaton nako k i tried everything na... to talk to him and all, pero murag wla lang sya care nako or he chooses to ignore my feelings when it comes to this...
I hope you guys won't misinterpret na i hate the kids just because they are not mine... it's not that.. i like them just fine. kasagaran man gud sa mga people ingnan dayon ko na hate ko cla.. NO!!

ang hangyo lang jud nako sa bf ko na to spend as much time with them during weekends daytime lang, so i can get my rest as well sa night time... i work night shift during the week and get only about 4-5 hours sleep at the most during weekdays and night time on weekends are my only time to sleep well and rest well... i am not always feeling well 'cause i lack sleep during the weekend (by the way, my bf knows na i have trouble sleeping sa other rooms... d baya ko used bisan asa lang mu sleep...)

so mao na unsaon man nako na he willn listen to me... everytime i try to talk to him he tells na mag pagotpot ko na naa diri ang kids... malain ko coz ang reason na i get so cranky is because i lack sleep and am so tired.. i keep quiet nalng jud coz d k ganahan na ingnon naman ko na im making my pregnancy an excuse.. he didn't say that ha but gi unahan nalng nako k murag dira jud na padung ang usapan..

[jimmy128]

geee. i wonder who the selfish one really is

[butong101]

wala nako nahuman basa kay taas man gd..

sa ako lang belib ko nimo kay ni sugot ka naa ex-wife imo bf.. cheers!!! gamay ra prehas nimo.. i guess ?

[Blackjellybean27]

geee. i wonder who the selfish one really is

i don't know.. sometimes i feel i am.. but when i think about it, and all the times i keep quiet, and let it be, and pasagdan lang even though i don't feel good at all.. i don't know..

wala nako nahuman basa kay taas man gd..

sa ako lang belib ko nimo kay ni sugot ka naa ex-wife imo bf.. cheers!!! gamay ra prehas nimo.. i guess ?

i knew from the start about the ex wife...
but i have an ex hubby as well, so we both accepted each other, baggage and all...

[jimmy128]

there is nothing selfish about wanting one of life's essentials. that is having a place to sleep. looking at the situation, i can't help but call your bf an a**hole really. And I am sorry I can't say anything about your situation because personally I do not know what it feels like to have a partner who has kids and have kids of my own on the way. but one thing is for sure, you are not the selfish one