Dear diary

[aizai]

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hi guys n gals.. actually 1st time nko ni. im more juz a brokn hearted now.. in short disaster.. well, hirs a brief and vry tragic story of my life. char. i met dis guy from a co-worker.. his ok nmn pro waz pa xa epek sko ky im happily and deeply nlove w/ my 5yrs bf (or x-bf). but due to unavoidable circumstances i entertained him ky kani lge lau mi sko bf.. wer dating 4 juz 2 days (dli pa jud formal na date) den kni lge uwagan i give in easily.. den hes so sweet and kind 2 me.. hatid kuha ko sa work. laag dri laag dd2.. ive nevr felt this filing b4 w/ my 5 yrs bf dat i decided to broke up w/ him 4 dis 2nd guy. den 1 time we had a serious conversation revealing he had 2 sons from diff girls and worst ngkgbalik pa jd xa sa iya 1st gf. but stupid of me i stil accept him.. i dunno y but i love him so much. so we continued r secret relationship. we wer so happy until i got preg n his d fader. he den realizes he loves her 1st gf and cnt live w/o her. which means leaving me carrying his child. thats wer the tragedy began. faet coz i beg him not to leave me which he granted but we cnt go out coz basin naay mkakita mga frndz sa iya gf. and wat hurts most he juz want 2 see me when his horny. and stupid of me sugot rpud ko. saw him hapily dating w/ her gf while im dating alone w/ my big tummy. but i stil communicate w/ him. col me a-hole, martyr, dumb, stupid but i stil love him. cnt get over him. i tried avoiding him i did evrything 2 move on but i missed him more. i juz failed. can u help me guys n gals? im tired silently crying evrynite and pretending 2 evry1 dat im ok giving them a fake smile and laugh. wen wil b d best time 2 move on? sorry au taas diay au xa. thanks 4 giving time reading this.

[Dee_Dee]

well..as you say & i quote "den kni lge uwagan i give in easily"..mao nana resulta sa imong pagka uwa***....!

anyway, its obvious you did fell on a trap. kung napandol ka, ayaw ligid but instead bangon.
ayaw na sugot anang "he juz want 2 see me when his horny" kay basin mausban nuon ka. whats important now is kung mo shoulder ba sya sa iyang responsilibity as a father..financial support.
you have no choice now but to wake up & move on.

BTW unsay reaction sa imong family?

[anjerika]

if you're not going to change anything, malubong raka diha nga sitwasyon.


"love" ray rason nganong nag hold on ka niya? or is it because of dependency?

[joan624]

woah nashock ko sa imong ka-martyr
naluoy ko nimo
wa nakay gibilin sa imong self bisag imong own pride?
moving on will happen in due time
sa imong case murag dugay2x gyud na labi na naa kay anak niya
ang importante karon kay ang pagdetermine kng unsa iyang role sa inyong baby.
ingon raba ka di mo ka-go out in public kay basin makit-an mo sa friends sa orig..
sugot raka ana? hasta imo anak madamay.

same mi ug Q ni Dee Dee.. niunsa mn imong family ani imong situation?

[aizai]

abe sko family waz nami. ng-xpek cla buwag nami. they really dnt like him. they even plan na paktolon xa. ana cla klagot. wla pud ko nangau support nya coz naa ko stable job w/c mka-afford rpud ko. ako mn gni mgasto f mgdate mi. m confused unsay nkastick nko sa iya kng love ba or maulaw lng ko na isa diay ko sa mga girls na npaangkan na wlay name ako baby. its easy to say na move on when evryday ur slowly dying. though healing needs time. but im trying, really.. thanks guys..

[joan624]

unsay paktolon?
cge i-set aside lng ng financial support
pero i mean, ang iyang role sa inyong anak
nasturyahan na nnu?
since kamo2x paman bisag tago, so gi-angkon niya nga iya ng anak?
umm kng mudako na ang bata, ok ra niya nga mailhan cya as the dad sa bata?
or hasta na ilimod niya?
tan-aw2x sd around you basin naay someone for you dira ra sa imo atubangan blinded lng ka tungod sa usa nga way ayo

[tauren_chieftain]

lisura ani oi.kaluoy pd...
ang ako lng msulti, we can give advice, pero miss, ikaw ra mn jud makadecide, firm & strong nga mobarog kung unsa u decision. situation nimo karon is unstable, or ang imong mind. i don't think its love towards sa guy or sa imoha, it's u*ge, galing lng with feeling-called love ang imoha, sa iyaha - is i cant see nga naay love. kay dapat unta gisultihan ka daan niya nga naa siyay secret affair b4 pa naay nahitabo ninyo to show you some respect. mao ra jud na, one thing you can do is made up your mind-stop or go on being stupid.
2nd: (optional) : ari nlng nq ako gasto u baby, hahaha likoy lagi.joke.joker mn ko gud...

just keep smiling, thats the key...

[tikLish]

nah kadakong probLema gud ani..nganu man sad nipatoL daun ka ui nga wa pa nimo naiLa2 ug tarong.. bitaw naa naman jud na imo nalang dawaton pero ayaw sad angkona tanan gasto ui...ipakita sa iya nga dapat sad siya mogasto..magsaLig na ug au..kuyawa gikan sa inyong date hangtod nalang karon nga mabdos ka ikaw ra pirmi gasto? sugot Lang pud ka ana teh? sa ana Lang nga gesture niya kLaro naman nga wa xay kLaro..gamit ra ka niya miss..bitaw husaya jud na inyo speciaLLy sa roLe niya as father sa imong baby..kaLuoy sad sa baby ui..

pero naa pa man guys modawat ug girLs bisan naa na anak basta Luv lang ka..hehehe

nya saon nimo pag-move on? take gud care sa imo big tummy and huLata lang mogawas imo baby after ana wa nakay Lain kelangan kundi imo baby ra..with your baby complete naka..promise..

[tauren_chieftain]

nah kadakong probLema gud ani..nganu man sad nipatoL daun ka ui nga wa pa nimo naiLa2 ug tarong.. bitaw naa naman jud na imo nalang dawaton pero ayaw sad angkona tanan gasto ui...ipakita sa iya nga dapat sad siya mogasto..magsaLig na ug au..kuyawa gikan sa inyong date hangtod nalang karon nga mabdos ka ikaw ra pirmi gasto? sugot Lang pud ka ana teh? sa ana Lang nga gesture niya kLaro naman nga wa xay kLaro..gamit ra ka niya miss..bitaw husaya jud na inyo speciaLLy sa roLe niya as father sa imong baby..kaLuoy sad sa baby ui..

pero naa pa man guys modawat ug girLs bisan naa na anak basta Luv lang ka..hehehe

nya saon nimo pag-move on? take gud care sa imo big tummy and huLata lang mogawas imo baby after ana wa nakay Lain kelangan kundi imo baby ra..with your baby complete naka..promise..

COOL..... >>>>><><<<>><<>>

[reginakrys]

don't worry so much about being "napa-angkan".. remember that those who mind do not matter, and those who matter won't mind.. people will remember you not so much for the situations you fell into, but more of the way you handled those situations..

as for this guy, don't get involved with him emotionally or sexually na oi.. yes, it's easy to say but difficult to do.. for now it may seem impossible.. but realize nga it is for your own good.. but allow him be a father if he's willing to.. he has a responsibility to the child, and you have the right to demand support from him if it's really his..

as for moving on, it would definitely take time.. but for now, i think the best thing for you to do is to surround yourself with your friends and family.. try not to be depressed so much for the sake of your baby.. if you're stressed, the baby gets affected baya.. focus on being healthy, physically and emotionally, for the sake of your baby..