what's wrong with me?

[abewtifulmind]

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my present bf is not the type of person one would want as a serious bf. he had his first kid when he was 19, then his second kid was 2 years ago.... sige lang dula online games, sige lang absent sa klase (he's 26 now and wa pa gyapon mu graduate sa college!!!)

we met online kay friend sya sa ako officemate, he's 4 years younger than me, he was 22, i was 26 that time. at first he didn't tell me nga naa na diay sya mga anak, i only found out when the 2nd girl messaged him on friendster nga hapit na daw sya manganak... gi away nako sya coz he lied to me. the next day we had a serious talk and he apologized for not telling me right away. nituo ra sad ko...

around 2 years after, we "broke up" (pero i saw it as cool off that time), days after that kay ga start napud sya text nako and tagad nako online, i was thinking it was one of those days nga after namo away kay ok ra gyapon mi pero wa na jud sya nagpakita nako pero sige lang gyapon text, tawag, ug tagad online.... 2 months have passed, nagbalik mi.

karon, he changed. he goes out with his friends (kato pag HS niya) and mag inom... I've never met his friends (or his brother or parents for that matter).... then sige lang sya ingon nako di daw mi kelangan pirmi magkuyog kay wa daw nagsumpay amo mga tinae.... (hayz!) sauna halos everyday mi magkuyog, he even sleeps at home on the weekends.. nya karon kay gi schedule lagi ko nga every other day nalang mi magkuyog, NAUNSA?

he's the type of person who's not vocal about what he feels.... who rarely says "i miss you" or "i love you"... and he's never given me any romantic gifts like flowers or chocolates....

he's the type of guy nga kung lain pa nga babae uyab ani, hagbay na ni gibuwagan kay passive ra jud kaayo. manhid. ug unsa pa diha....

now, my question.... what's wrong with me? why do i love him? despite him being "him"..... dili jud mag agree ako mind ug ako heart about this guy....... i've never cried so hard for a person before... sige lang ko pasakitan ani niya lately...

whew.... I hope makatabang ko nimo sis bisan gamay.. i hope mahatagan tika og gamay nga idea kung unsa imong gi agi-an karon....

first... dire jud ni pabilin akong mata ani nga phrase.. dire jud ni bagting akong utok og dunggan...

he's the type of person who's not vocal about what he feels.... who rarely says "i miss you" or "i love you"... and he's never given me any romantic gifts like flowers or chocolates....

nag wonder lang ko sis... dili cya vocal about what he feels? pero... he told you about d lang mo permi magkita... og uban pa... part man cguro na sa iyang na feel... kay if he really loves you.. then... d na mo sugot nga d mo magkita permi..... sayon raman sabton ang lalaki sis... labi na kung serious relationship.. dali ra pag identify sa lalaki nga nagkagusto nga serious og... wala ra...

para lang jud nako Sis.. wa juy gusto imong lalaki nimo... basin sa una.. permi cya mag uban nimo kay ambot lang... basin naa nay "***" ga involve ninyo.... y naka say ko ani.. pila naman iyang anak? duha na? usa ka anak sis.. considered pa na mistake.. pero.. kung kaduha na... mura lain nana nga estorya... basin hilig lang jud cya og ingon ana sis.. tilaw tilaw.. palame og uban... infairness pud sa lalaki.. wa ko kaila jud niya... I shouldn't be judging him.... pero... if paminawon lang nako ang storya sa imo sis... assuming.. you are telling the truth.. "the guy is not worth it jud"...

now adto ta sa imogn question...

now, my question.... what's wrong with me? why do i love him? despite him being "him"..... dili jud mag agree ako mind ug ako heart about this guy....... i've never cried so hard for a person before... sige lang ko pasakitan ani niya lately...

what's wrong with you? -- There's nothing wrong with you.. what you have just experienced is normal... tanan taw naka agi. .. og mo agi og ingon ana... normal rana sis... if maka feel ka og sakit.. kalipay og uban pa... then... pasabot ana... you are human.. you have a life.. you're living your life....

why do you love him? -- ikaw jud ang makatubag ana sis... d man jud nato malikayan nga maka feel ta og love sa usa ka person.. even if we don't know them that much.. again.. natural ra jud kaayo na sis.... enjoy that feeling and learn from it..

d jud mag agree ako mind ug ako heart about this guy -- sis.. advice lang nako.. don't use both... sa mga ingon ani nga situation.... kay kung heart lang imong gamiton sis.... It will make you blinded sa mga facts gud.. .kay ang feeling naman ang ni intimidate nimo.... ang mind.. is back up na sis.. let me explain it to you... if you love somebody.. you'll use your heart.. but if maabot naka sa point nga masakitan nalang ka... then... you need to use your mind... mura og call a friend ba...

lastly sis..... ang kinabuhe nato.... nag agi ra jud na sa dalan nga puros kasakit... (sa akong idea lang ni ha.. -- way mo react) .... maka experience gani ta og bisan gamay nga hapiness... e grab jud na nato kay dili man na permi naa.... karon bahin sa imong situation sis..... use your mind.. ask yourself... "yes I love him.. but does he love me?" if mo padayon ka niya or mo gukod ka niya sis... magpabilin ba nga mag baton cya og respeto nimo? ampingan baka nya? cguro mo think ka.. basin ma change cya... cge.. okay rana.. padayon.. pero.. the important thing lang jud is... whatever imong ma decide-dan sa tanan nimong choices... is... never regret jud... sakit jud kung mag regret ka....

now.. advice inamigo... try to find ways to forget him.. for sure.. naay lalaki nga deserving para nimo... lisod sis... but... you have to do it... you have to let go... lisod.. but kayanon jud na.. kaysa naman everyday ka magfeel og pains.. dba? nakaya nana sa uban sis.. so walay rason nga d pud nimo.....

dire lang ko kutob.. goodluck.. and I'll include you in my prayers...

I've been there.. and I'm done with that... I'm lucky now I have met someone that I can say... .. maka risk jud ko para niya og sa among relasyon


let me know unsay balita ha.. pm me... Good Luck...

[Blackjellybean27]

oh lordy! here we go! hehehehe. i was in that same relationship, more than a year ago. da best! hahahaha! i thought i loved him too, it was more of the fact na i was afraid na "another failed relationship" na pod... ur bf and my ex bf, they come from the same pea pod cguro hahaha. i swear to you sis, i've never met my ex's brothers, his parents, his friends.. there were times na d jud mi magkita in a month. there was a time, he had this stupid excuse: wla daw car. and i said, its okay. we can ride the cab or the jeep, i'm okay with it really! wala na reply dayon. the next na reply k super late na. sorry nakatulog dw sya. BANG! asa man na gikan na mga guys wui? hehehe.
so what i did to him was? kept him as my bf, after a month na wla text2x, he finally texted and asked how im doing. and i said oh you're still around pa diay? sorry ha, i think i have to break up with you. i have a new boyfriend. (which is the super truth)
DAH! stupid guy, nagtuo sya lang kahibaw magbinuang.

[etzina]

thank you kaayo sa inyo mga tambag.. though ang uban kasabot ra sad ko makaingon sila stupid ko or unsa pa diha... wala pa lang tingali sila nakaabot sa ingani mao sayun ra para nila maka ingon nga stupid ko...

well anyway, update nalang pud... nagbuwag mi today lang.. ga lalis na pud mi... id rather not talk about it gikapoy nako sige think about it ug balik2x storya kay sa balay pa lang daan, kapila nako ga balik2x sa storya...

sa pagka karon i dont feel that hurt compared to our first break up though pirting hilak nako ganina... pagka nindut jud sa ako christmas, hay buhay! so now what do i do? wala man koy gana mu do anything uy. i dread coming to work kay mag tanga nasad ko. labi na kung mu uli ko samot nasad mag tanga ko. nakasabot nako karon nga siya man ang problem sa amo relationship karon, kay siya man ang nausab. as what my sis and mom said ganina, naa ra juy mga laki nga kapuyan na sa relationship, mausab, gusto nalang nga ila binuhatan kay mura sila single. he told me for now he wants to be on his own, nga wala daw mangita niya ug wala lain huna hunaon..

[-]chong<3]

It's good to cry and let it all out. And I'm hoping you can recover soon. It\'s just not fair for you getting affected to a point you compromise important things like going to work, while teh guy is busy having a good time.

[etzina]

i hope maka recover ko asap.... i feel so lost

[Sand Man]

i hope maka recover ko asap.... i feel so lost

All you need right now is a friend. Someone who is open-minded and you can talk to your heart's contents. Call/text the very first person that fits this description.

Cheer up. It's not so bad. Look on the bright side -- you're FREE!! I mean, look at it this way, if nabuntis ka niya and he left you like the first two girls, would you be happy?

[etzina]

that's the downside of working at nights, everyone else is sleeping..... i dnt have anyone to talk to.. mao pahungaw ko gamay dri sa istorya...

di pud ko pamabdos uy, di lng pud ngali ko ingana ka tanga.... most ppl will be hapi kay free na sila... but i feel really miserable... sa tanang panahon, karon pa jud mi gabuwag, he knows daghan au ko problema karon he's the one unta ako ma lean on

[elord]

Is he a type of guy nga ing ani?

The Greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all of your mistakes and weaknesses and still finds you completely amazing and will never walk away.

If not then wala reason nga mo stay paka nya.. and beside being single is not loser bya maka kita paka mas labaw and responsible ok..

[etzina]

ok ra man jud mi sauna sa 2+ years namo uyab.. naa gamay away pero di pud grabe nga magbuwag mi...

The Greatest thing in life is finding someone who knows all of your mistakes and weaknesses and still finds you completely amazing and will never walk away.

mao ni nahitabo nako, ganahan gyapon ko niya despite his flaws... i didn't want to walk away pero gusto naman sya ma free... i know the love is still there, ma pakita man pud niya at times, pero gusto lang jud sya ug space daw kay nag tinarong na sya sa school and he wants to spend time sa iya barkada. it could be my fault sad kay kami ra man gud sige kuyog sauna... pero wala man gud na iya barkada sauna, siya man mu balibad kung manghagad sila ug lakaw... that's why i can't understand why it has come to this... pwede man mi mag compromise man, we tried it, major adjustment sa ako part pero ok ra man unta mi, and then ang iya time for me nagka gamay labi na karon exam week nila... ako man nangaway una karon kay last namo kuyog pag thursday pa man gud... it's my fault for wanting to spend too much time with him.

[anjerika]

sis, since bag-o pa lang mo nag break, it will be normal for us girls to feel miserable maski we felt used/abused or not loved. maski pa "bati" atong tan-aw sa nibiya nga taw, but ayaw kahibung, there will be times you will feel you want him back. but be strong lang sa imong mind. you're on the road to recovery. think about your happiness. now that wala na siya, you should be thankful. hehe. sa akoa lang pud sauna, para di na kaayo ko ma hurt, i would always think, "my next boyfriend will be the best and hopefully my last" nyahahahaha 234