Istorya Daily Blog

[splendid moonlight]

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Today's fine. A little rain and a little wind. A little sunshine too. Woke up early as usual. Had breakfast with a couple of my teammates and spent half of the day working. Went to the gym afterwards with my work partner; we are taking advantage of the company's facilities. But of course I got so famished afterwards I had to eat.

It's raining again and I have to be at practice by... exactly this time! Ciao!

[*Guu*]

august 25 8:23p

<> heyya to all! miss posting here a. namiss nako ang mga pahak. nilabihan na si nolex nga nag cgeg pada nakog *ehemm* ato nalang to noley boi. heheheh

<> my day is fine unlike any other regular days i have. nakita man gud nako akong crush ganiha. once in a month raman gud xa nagavisit sa company i'm working with ryt now. frozen kaau ko ganiha. heheh *kilig*

<> thank God, my boss realized how loaded i was, maayo kay iyang gibawasan akong load sa work, maka laag laag nako usahay. yoohooo. basta happy ko ron.

<> log out nako. tulog ko sayo para maintain ang beauty. hehehe


gudnyt eVeryoNe!

[nolex]

the night is tempting.... my eyes are heavy... but before i go to sleep i have to have this last post of the night... i miss this person name azhley... because i seldom see her posting anymore.... if only i can make something worth her attention, then probably i already did it... well, it takes more than enough time to do that... but hell yeah, i miss her alright... and that's it i have to say gudnyt..

no work tomorrow, and i'm gonna take a one day trip on the nearby town around this area... and it's gonna be fun...

well, see ya people....wooooops..

[diem]

Just Another Monday 8/28/2006

The Weekend just breezed by, couldn't remember much of it.. couldn't remember anything noteworthy about it. Hmmmm wait, I did spend both days alone at home... ah yes, the stereo component system at full blast, held an impromptu rock concert... no wonder it seemed like a dream.

Keeping my eyes open for this week. Wondering what surprises might crop up. But I'm looking forward for this weekend... might plan to meet old and special friends who I've been missing and need to keep in touch.

Had a lousy lunch today. Lousy means not much. Now, I'm sipping my 2nd cup of coffee today... Cup means a 400 ml mug... couldn't think much. Couldn't feel much. Just some stray thoughts here and there.

Like.... I've been noticing today that my fellow drivers are so in a rush that they cut in and snake through the streets at such awesome speeds that makes me wonder if they all have a strong suicidal tendency... and this suicidal driver tendency gets stronger and bolder as the vehicle gets smaller.

The Smaller the vehicle, the Stronger the urge to get into a traffic accident.

Maybe its just me.

[splendid moonlight]

Yesterday I went snorkeling in Mactan with my teammates. It was fun. I brought my guitar with me but we weren't able to sing songs until after snorkeling was finished and we were back at the coffeehouse near the office, singing songs until almost midnight.

The boatride was fun. It was my second time snorkeling. The first one was in Malapascua Island but I didn't get to see very much of the wonders underwater. I was wearing a makeshift lifejacket then, didn't trust it very much, and didn't stray too far from the boat. Yesterday though was different. It felt exactly how snorkeling should feel like. Three of our bosses were with us. There were too many drinks and too many junk foods. The latter being far from being real food. My teammates and I were all very much craving for rice, and prayed for .. some lechon.

I jumped in on the water wearing my lifejacket. I am sorry to say that I am not a very good swimmer. I can only swim in shallow waters. Where I could have some leverage by kicking my feet on the seafloor before I start swimming. My cousin once told me I look more like drowning when I'm swimming. I seriously think she was lying. Hmmp. I put on my goggles and took a peek underwater; then we all swam for a couple of miles away. After a while and for some reason, seawater started seeping through my nose and I actually drank a lot of it. I took it off quick and it got stuck in my hair. Evan, my boss, helped me untangle it. After a time I found myself straying from the group (not for the first time). For some reason I was always some place else. One of the guides lent me her flippers since I left mine, she said I should try it on but it took me a few minutes to get used to them. God I could spend an entire day sticking my head under water, following a school of fish as far as I could go. Some of my companions claimed they saw a small shark. I'm glad I didn't see or I would've panicked. It was all so wonderful. After a time (I don't know exactly how much time we spent in the water) my lips started feeling as though I drank vinegar and my hands were a little pruny. I heard somebody say it was time to get back on the boat. I was farthest from the boat and was starting to have foot cramps. My flippers started to be more trouble than help; I might've been doing it wrong. The other guide and Evan approached me, disappeared into the water to take my flippers off for me. Thank you but I could've taken them off myself really! I felt like a little child with Mommy and Daddy there to help. Anyway, Evan held my goggles for me and offered his wrist. I took it and we started swimming back to the boat with very little effort on my part. I was just gliding in the water. Wohooo. I envied him for his powerful strokes. I was wondering if bigger arms would help for a faster swimming. Back in the boat and sunset cruising. Wow. I sure would like to do that again. I should keep in mind, though, to have a very good swimmer companion; incase I get into some kind of trouble again.

I'm now at work. STILL at work. I should've gone home about 2 hours ago but have to accompany a teammate; her partner had to take the day off because of an emergency. There are about uhm... almost 20 people here. I'm snacking on a bag of crunchy somethings. It tastes good but I'm craving for a cup of hot choco and a little sunshine. Outside at this hour I imagine it to be friendly warm. I love the afternoons!

[czharlloutte]

August 28,2006


Monday.....

A couple hours earlier here at the office....
There was this silence....darkness filled the room...
Then I swithched the lights on at my work station...
Turn on the pc and go for my inbox (microsoft & yahoo..then Istorya)
Then decided to have some music while I do this blog thing...Went on for smooth Jazz..it'll make me relax for sure...
There was Earl Klugh...niice timing! "Feels so Good"....

I'm still wondrin If there's happiness for me today...I acted stupid last Saturday night..that was stupid...well if I ain't that stupid it would be so unlikely of me...I am stupid..I found that out when I was in highschool...What made me decided I was stupid? well..Secret!

And then last Saturday I was really playing the stupid thing...actually was half stupid, one fourth fool, and one fourth silly....
Acted like a little gurl in highschool...with sweet smiles and foolish games...
I'm really easy to pleas with...easy to play with...
I must be easy to love...or so I thought...
But all in all I'm still alone...
When I got home... no one bothered greet me good night...
Just the stillness of my dark room...

No I don't want some Kenny G or any music that midnight...
Every music will just remind me a lot of things in life...Sad thoughts..happy thoughts..but mostly sad memories...

I undressed and took a hot bath...
Slip into my oversized T-shirt...then curl up in bed...
But sleep failed to come..
My mind just kept wandering...
Uh-uhh..the tears came down like hot treaks of loneliness...

As much as possible I want to avoid these moment...bein lonesome...
Then I remembered my friend here in Istorya of how he teasured bein by himself...
It made me wondered if what does he do or think when he is alone...was he sad? was he thinkin' of the things that happened in his life?
Or was he simply daydreaming so somethin would inspire him to write....

The tears kept fallin' like autumn leaves...
I just let them..."crying makes wonders sometimes" I said...it cleanses your eyes...
But crying with a wounded heart was quite different....it's like squeezing air out of my lungs...
I remembered those times when I practiced dying...was such a terrible thing to do to myself....and hated me for that...

Then I was distracted with my sobs...I was really sobbing like a child who broke the leg of her favorite doll...
I hope my mom didn't hear me for I'll be sorry to wake her up...I know how hard it is for her to wake up in ungodly hours and never fall back to sleep again..I don't want that...she needs a lot of rest...

If only there's a remote control to put my sobs to mute mode...
To adjust the brightness and contrast...to re-define the colors and programs of my life...
But no high technology could do that...

I wish my dad was with me....
I wish he didn't left...
I wish things we're different...
I wish I wasn't crying now like a stupid cow...



but the sad thing is wishes doesn't always come true.

[*Guu*]

August 29 9:09p

*i just miss posting here.. been busy all day.. all night long... do i just roll over and die? hehe

[lover_online]

I really can't remember what happened the moment I woke up...All I know is..I found myself crying by the end of the day...Am I really worthy of crying??
I wanted to smile...but I just can't..

I think I better sleep...

[nolex]

as usual same routine, same place of work, same faces i meet, same nature of work, and still daydreaming...hehehehehe

yeah, daydreaming... and as i do so, someone came across my mind... someone i really missed here... i haven't seen her for quite sometime.. it seems that she's busy or something.... or whatever she's been busying for, i hope she still doing fine......

asa na kaha to gibutang sa Ginoo ron.. tsk tsk..

[sanction214]

apil ko..
im supposed to take half day off..kaso nabusy so 3/4th day off nalang..huhu...atot...abuso na sa posisyon uban pipz..or basin wa pa marealize nila kahago sa usa ka pobreng uyamot...ge nalng...basta nay work...this is just a beef...kinda bum me when plans go out of their way...hahayy...trapik pa jud gamay....may nalang naka-abot ug nakadok-dok pa gihapon...i also end up praying for somebody...labi na kadtong..tapulan mo ampo..huu....dime..time to evap...pffft..