what's wrong with me?

[ritchepaul]

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my present bf is not the type of person one would want as a serious bf. he had his first kid when he was 19, then his second kid was 2 years ago.... sige lang dula online games, sige lang absent sa klase (he's 26 now and wa pa gyapon mu graduate sa college!!!)

we met online kay friend sya sa ako officemate, he's 4 years younger than me, he was 22, i was 26 that time. at first he didn't tell me nga naa na diay sya mga anak, i only found out when the 2nd girl messaged him on friendster nga hapit na daw sya manganak... gi away nako sya coz he lied to me. the next day we had a serious talk and he apologized for not telling me right away. nituo ra sad ko...

around 2 years after, we "broke up" (pero i saw it as cool off that time), days after that kay ga start napud sya text nako and tagad nako online, i was thinking it was one of those days nga after namo away kay ok ra gyapon mi pero wa na jud sya nagpakita nako pero sige lang gyapon text, tawag, ug tagad online.... 2 months have passed, nagbalik mi.

karon, he changed. he goes out with his friends (kato pag HS niya) and mag inom... I've never met his friends (or his brother or parents for that matter).... then sige lang sya ingon nako di daw mi kelangan pirmi magkuyog kay wa daw nagsumpay amo mga tinae.... (hayz!) sauna halos everyday mi magkuyog, he even sleeps at home on the weekends.. nya karon kay gi schedule lagi ko nga every other day nalang mi magkuyog, NAUNSA?

he's the type of person who's not vocal about what he feels.... who rarely says "i miss you" or "i love you"... and he's never given me any romantic gifts like flowers or chocolates....

he's the type of guy nga kung lain pa nga babae uyab ani, hagbay na ni gibuwagan kay passive ra jud kaayo. manhid. ug unsa pa diha....

now, my question.... what's wrong with me? why do i love him? despite him being "him"..... dili jud mag agree ako mind ug ako heart about this guy....... i've never cried so hard for a person before... sige lang ko pasakitan ani niya lately...

Sis, you reminded of someone. Akong officemate before nga inlove kaayo sa iyang bf nga irresponsible.
It also means nga inlove ka niya...but you need to reconsider your situation. We may have this "wishful thinking", hoping our partner would change to a better person or a change that would fit in perfectly to our ideal world.

But reality functions differently Sis...There is a saying nga "If you want someone to love you genuinely, you need to love yourself first"

[chormatus]

Daghan ang ga comment nga irresponsible ang guy and they are all right! Don't get too carried away by your emotions thinking that you might be the person to change him - you're not going to accomplish that! You deserve a guy better than your present bf do you?

[Saga]

ani nalang.. i-silsil sa imoha agtang nga naa xa 2 ka anak ug sa duha wala jud xay gibarugan.. basin ganahan ka nga imoha ang ika 3?

[lamangzz]

u are stupid. forgive me for sayong this but seriously you are very very stupid. did you ever think about what will happen in the future kung kamo na? as in karun pagani manag uyab pa mo kaubo na gani ka unsa nalang kahag minyo naka? is he worth it? goodness you are crazy and stupid. are you afraid na wala nay manguyab nimo after niya? goodness think about it day kay base sa imo first post agrabyado na kaayo ka daan. tsk tsk tsk. again sorry for calling you stupid but i am just being honest cause that is what you are right now.. stupid.

[vienzel]

i know it will hurt you ang butang ako isulti...true, choice ra nimo tanan. BUT wud u think of yourself to be happy with this guy knowing all that he is? ang person pwede mo change kung gustuhon nila. i dont think this guy is marriage material or for permanence na klase.

ayaw ug dive sa butang na di ka sure. U need to be happy, dont go looking for LOVE outside. better LOVE urself and give urself some respect too. naay daghan diha ug d ka mahutdan. this i tell u, one day when u look back...u will laugh at this silly thing u did!

gud luck...

[rheo08]

upp for this.. bump bump lang

[aLohaBby]

sis...give ur self a time to think ana imo na feel sis..nya ampo sa ginoo ask guidance..gudluck TS

i agree. ampo jd sa Ginoo sis. daghan na jud ta mga gitawag nila nga "martyr". sometimes we settle for someone whom we think is unlovable yet we end up loving them and giving them everything. it is a battle between our heart and mind jud so better ask for guidance and ask advice from someone whom you think is wise and dili bias.

[Sol_Itaire]

stupid love virus

[Jaggernought]

It's either you will lose him,
or in the other hand lose yourself.
You have to choose Sis.

[facebook]

Another case of `True Love, wrong person`, well at least in my eyes that is how I see it. Maski unsa na ka bugoy ang tawo, once you have reached a point where you feel like you would give your entire life to them despite their transgressions in the past, you will and forever always love them.

You are not alone, there are a lot of men and women out there who end up loving there `not so ideal` man or woman. Sometimes it is a beautiful sight, because you love without condition, but at times it can be huge disadvantage on your part because you basically have to deal with `the ghosts` of your partner`s past.

Even though you think to yourself, this is not the kind of person you want to be with for he rest of your life, you can`t seem to let go. But remember that before the two of you even went into a relationship, you were doing fine with your lives. And the day your relationship began, you made a conscious choice to love him. You got so used to loving him every single day na sometimes the choice to love is automatic.

What was the point of the last sentence? Love will always be a conscious choice. For as long as you choose to love someone you will always will. If you choose to stop loving someone then you will stop loving a person. But the hard thing is, your heart is so used to choosing to love him so much, that it is hard not to love him. Gets?

The point is, loving him will always be your choice, and you have the choice not to love him anymore, move on and fine the so called `right person` or you can stay because you already have what you are looking for, true love, but with the not so ideal guy.

I am not telling you to do anything. My reply in this post is to, hopefully, make you more aware of your situation. Hope it helps. God bless

sry, wala nako tiwasa imong post kay wala na dayun ko ganihi sa imong first line...

first, it's not "true love"... true love is beyond your sane imagination.. so let's stop using it in anyway that contradicts certain laws.

2nd, it's actually the "fear of the unknown" why u can't let go of this person. hence, it's not true love.

well, people learn the hard way.. so let's just wait when would that time be ... i've seen 5 - 8 yrs. before pa naka realize that it's time to let go na d i.. .. taas2x cguro kag learning curve... ako lang masulti, if deli ana ka ka pas2x mo mature2x ka in terms of conquering the unknown, just take ur time..

but if you value time, throw yourself to something worth pursuing and (or) wasting your time with... be out there and chase those things you want when you were still a kid... just to let time pass and for you to have break ...

as for the right person, first define what's your right guy as compared to your ideal guy or to your not so ideal guy, because these qualities or things matter. i would suggest just look for that darn person who might complete you... someone who has that you do not have.. remember, life is gamble and love is part of it.. though i really hate discussing love since i really find it ewwwwwww... anyway, im married for the record love dearly my wife and daughter..

another thing, its not a conscious choice - really... u followed your heart because dun ka masaya.. fck! sry for the french... if it was a conscious choice.. deli nata ka mo post deri..

note: sarcasm, negativity and insensitivity - that's the reason why my wife so hates and loves me so dearly