if you have a depressive personality you are mostly likely to have thoughts of suicide. depression, according to research now, is a lot about brain chemistry. so just think that your brain is actually pickled in "suicide solution". so, being a conscious being that you are, meaning you are aware of what's going on in your brain and even in your mind, you can actually change the chemistry in your brain. that's where changing paradigms come into play. just change the way you see things, and you will feel and behave differently.