hala! nahan ko ani... but I'm not really good at this noh? I was once like that too... M young btw so i guess normal ra to xa... but before, I also didn't know what to do with my life. wla ko kbalo unsa akong gnhan... tanan nlang jud OK sa ako... and this attitude made me a passive person. like unsa nlang iingon sa akong family and friends na this should be done-that should done, OK ra kaau sa ako tanan coz, like you, i felt wlay direction ang akong life and it sucks, you know? at 20, 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with cancer. [sometimes man jud no kung naa ka sa situation na lisud, makareflect ka sa imung life]... i wasn't scared actually... i embraced it instead! And then all I was thinking is WHAT IF mamatay ko, fulfilled na ba kaha ko sa akong life? or naa ba kaha koy memories na ibilin sa akong family and friends. And since then, i realized na wala! wala jud! I was always a puppet... A puppet of my family and a puppet of my ideals... And so i've decided that when I'm through with this cancer thingy, I'm gonna do all the things that I wanna do in my life...
Learn everything there is to learn in this life.... learn to smile, learn to laugh, learn to scream and LEARN TO LIVE BETTER.... so since then, since i have always wanted to learn spanish, gatuon tuon pud ko ug spanish ui and fortunately, through my blog, where I usually write about my thoughts and significant events of my life, I've met some people who are also fliuent in spanish and they helped me learn. And then few months after my chemo, I went to work again [it was funny though coz my hair was sooooooo short pa back then, like murag boycut and my co-workers thought that i was a tomboy or something, HAHAHAHA!], and then after 3 months of working, I finally knew what I've wanted and needed..... It's with me all along...... Now I'm in law school.... and I'm happy... I'm happy that I have made people happy, I've shared my learnings from my experiences and I have touched other people's lives.....
Life is beautiful dude... Yeah, it gets difficult sometimes..... and boring na xa usahay.... BUT IT's BEAUTIFUL! it needs effort lang jud para manotice ni nato..
Don't feel rejected ui... All of us here loves you.... so live life to the FOOLEST.....aw.... FULLEST d i... ^_^
Have a Happy LIFE! ^_^