Mindless Thoughts & Serious Scribblings

[GlassMoon]

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the diary of a healing heart...
what is the need of a diary when all of those memories are already being stored in the mind and heart?
writing a diary is like risking your deepest and darkest secrets...to the world...
better to save the mystery than surrender to the secret...



good news is, I found my Bible...

[Bigfoot Oracle]

Last night I got off the fence,
Cause I won't be the fool,
This side the grass is greener then,
The garden that I used to grow,
Walking on down the road.

I could never promise that you'll never be lonely,
But as long as we're together we can all end up happy,
Misery, da da da da daa....

[Bigfoot Oracle]

Well I just can't seem to beat it,
Cause my heart's too numb to feel,
And your smile does all the talking,
And the pain is all that's real..

My forehead is still bleeding from the thorns I used to wear,
And I'm left alone and I'm beaten,
But this cross I choose to bear

Where do you go when you're gone?

The voices fall like timber and the fear it pulls like rain,
And my heart is crushed to cinders underneath this kind of pain,
But there is no resolution when the revolution's there,
So I'm left with no solution, but the voices in my head

Where do i go when i'm gone?...

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Hey, when I'm making my movie, baby
You keep saying all my lines ...

but you know what?...i love the way you say it...

[GlassMoon]

Lost in the sky...clouds roll by and I roll with them...
Arrows fly...towards my heart...piercing it...making it bleed...
Seas increase and then fall again...
Watch the sparrow fall...and the moon break...
For the following days, I'll go back into my solitary shell...my glass prison...

We can learn from the past...but those days are gone...
We can hope for a future, but there may not be one...

How I long for the time When Dream And Day Unite...
When Images And Words are combined, that is you...
Keep me Awake...
One can never stop A Change Of Seasons...
If that happens, I might be Falling Into Infinity...falling...in....
I'll be ok...I think...just give me time...and all will be Scenes From A Memory...
Solitude...the best way to battle my Six Degrees Of Inner Turbulence...
And if all ends well...when I'm in equilibrium...when I'm back to my Train Of Thought, I'll look up to the moon...once again...


Preparing for her flight
I held with all my might
Fearing my deepest fright
I walked into the night
I turned for one last look
She looked me in the eye
I said, "I Love You...
Good-bye"
- Carpe Diem - Dream Theater

Before the leaves have fallen
Before we lock the doors
There must be the third and last dance
This one will last forever...

LOVE IS THE DANCE OF ETERNITY...

[splendid moonlight]

go away.
no, don't go away. i love it when you're around.
oh, no..
what did u just say?
i changed my mind again.
go away.

[aphrodite]

a smile from the heart... ive been wearing it since the day he came..
i was juz enjoying, playing around... trying not to get serious with it
but deep inside of me was wishin for someone sincere and sweet..
couldnt imagine id fall for a person ive known since childhood...
a guy from my hometown.. a guy who's family ive known...
darn! this is it.. i hope...
and right now.. i juz couldnt ask for more. :inlove:

[Bigfoot Oracle]

in the pages of my mind i read a story about a sick boy who fell from one girl to another..* i thought he's real sick...can't he just make up his mind?*...then, a princess came in to the scene..beautiful wavy locks,minty, red lips, chinky eyes....she touched his heart and cured him..the boy has a problem..*again?*...the princess went back to the castle..he needs her back..he needs a pony with no saddle to get his way to the princess' castle... poor sick boy...or so the story was told...

if i could just help him, i gladly would...too bad i'm just a reader....

Oh, i just read another page...he's no longer lonely for a friend..and he lived....darn! i'm too lazy to turn to another page....oh lordie! the next page is torn apart...

[Bigfoot Oracle]

...i can't resist the moonlight's magic...
i can't resist you...
cold evening..
your arms wrapped around me..lips hangin in mine..
misty morning covers the wind shield
eyes closed...

eyes opened...i pinched myself and ask..
was i dreaming?

...maybe i was....

[Bigfoot Oracle]

sometimes i wonder how it feels like to be kissed by someone else. a fleeting erotic brush with someone you've not pledged undying love to. "how's it gonna be?'' i wonder. maybe it should be after evening goodbyes, just as the night is ending and you can both dismiss it as part of drunkeness.(i never kissed being drunk) that way you can say the next time you meet " that alcohol got into my head" or you can credit it to a raging hormones, the moon cycle or the blatantly musky perfume he wore. but why find an excuse for two adults sharing a pleasurable biological moment?

ahhh..the first kiss.. where did you have yours? did he bend your will to his in the backseat of his parent's car? or did you wait for that special moment, the requisite sunset, glass of wine and you dressed in a sheath with just a flimsy wrap aruond your shoulder? i hope you let your hair fly free, let his fingers run through the strands. if you havent had your first kiss yet, just wait and allow yourself the choice of time and place. this memory is for rocking chair moments, when arthritis has crapped your knees and forced you to live on warm tea and solitude.

other than that though, i still wish for the pleasure of stolen kisses especially when it rains. just when you are about to say goodbye, and most of all....with SOMEONE you don't share anything with other than a cold night. that way, goodbyes are sweet and final...

[aphrodite]

its been a long time.. never thought he would come.. but is it really for real? i've always wanted to ask him but how my heart beats too fast and i just lose control whenever he's with me.. the eyes, the smile... *sigh* he's somethinelse! i dropped all of the others juz to be with him. ...he's someonelse! what am i blabberin here.. i dunoe.

sweet surrender....