
Originally Posted by
pruzchett
I'm still in the "astray" phase. I don't go to mass and I don't pray. I'm bitter about the rosary too, which is a little ridiculous hehehe, because I hate it when people are bitter about things that disappoint them. And yeah, the rosary disappointed me once, I have yet to let go of my grudge. I never wanted to pray the rosary ever since that happened. I used to pray to Mother Mary before and always got my wishes granted. I was devastated that day... But it's not the part where I got "lost"...
Somehow, over the years, I just got tired of all the Catholic rituals, "inessentials of a religion", and I thought it was better to stick to Jesus' core teachings. I think Jesus was a great teacher and philosopher, and a really great role model.
Now I just find it weird, going to Church, doing confessions, etc... I imagine myself dying and facing God, and often I wonder if he'd really count the number of times I did all these things. Sometimes too I think that God doesn't have any religion, so why should I? lol... But I do believe God or some supreme being is there.
My conservative Catholic friends think that I'm just tempted by Satan, and that I should be careful because Satan's happy enough to take away my faith.
So most of the time, I'm just torn and confused.
Although sometimes, I accompany my friends to Church. I used to be an open minded conservative catholic. but now, I'm just non practicing.