gonna share it with you guys... I hope dili boring para ninyo... ^___~
I still remember the day when that person is still on the ICU... I was the only one who went in and saw the body and the nurses trying to save it... I was on the state of shock.. I dont know what to do.. I was just on the door, watching and wishing for that person to come back to me... and suddenly the nurse ask me, " E continue pani nato sir? 2 hours naming cgeg pump dri... pwede na namo hunongon? "
Damn!!! I was on the moment that I felt the time stop and that I was on the middle of a situation that I dont know what to do.. then after a min, got back to the reality and looked at the body... then I said, " Ok ra... papahulaya nalang na cya..." Imagine.... to make that decision is so hard that when the moment that I finished saying it, I felt that the world was on my back... at first I want to not show emotions... until I went out, someone ask me... " Musta naman cya? Ok na cya? " Not again.... I need to tell all of them... damn!!! and suddenly, I got emotionally freak out and told them that person is dead.... everybody was so shock that we duet on crying, shouting, asking the lord why... then another problem came... I need to inform my parents about it... until the body was brought to the funeral parlor and brought to the house... I was still shock.. I was deaf and shock of the emotions that overpowered me.. Sa adlaw sa lubong, I was expecting to be with that person until he will be buried but suddenly my dad told me to go first to the cemetery to prepare the hole... damn... I was force to do it because nobody can be trusted... Only Me!!! damn Me.... I just let it be... Until he was already on the cemetery and being prepare to be put inside that f*cking hole... I want to touch him but I couldnt, I want to talk to him but everybody is blocking me, I want to look at him but I was just given a glimpse of him... all I can say is " Goodbye jamy... Goodbye... " and cried in silence...
Usahay kulang kaau ato mabuhat para lang mapakita sa tao nga your willing to set them free... I know its hard but we have to admit it... They're gone... mao na ako experience on having a hard time saying goodbye... ^___^