My Stupid Life

[jimmy128]

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i dont really know where this goes... but i guess this has to do with my relationship with my self and the people around me..

damn life is so hard.. i thought i was ready.. i thought i could make it.. i went into a business venture.. fail..

i can't go to school now coz my siblings wont support me... i am having the hardest time finding a job...
and i fail at leading my charismatic community...

though i have appear to you in my many posts as some mature guy who seems to ahve no problem at all..

but here is the side of me that is really eating me up right now..i stand before all of you internet people and i feel so weak.. so down.. so negative so low.. yes i am all these things.. so what now?

i tried everything

mind set.. being positive.. trusting God.. not thinking about results.. not thinking about money... but nothing is working at all...

kapoy na.. kapoy na jud ko.. im practically in tears typing this.. i've lost all hope.. i've lost all my strength i've lost it...

SH*T.. yeah thats pretty much how i feel..

i know its not how many times you fall blah blah blah.. i;ve said that to many people already.. but im just plain exhausted and i wanna give it all up...

sorry... i need to vent this out...

right after im going to talk to my mentor so i'll catch up to the reactions late

heck i can't even find the slippers im supposed to wear
God have mercy on my soul

[anaksatawo]

zomg, a /wrist thread.

seriously though, answer these:

1) what is your raison d'tre? your reason for being? why are you here?
2) what are you currently doing? what do you intend to do? to achieve your purpose.

basically, what i'm suggesting is set a goal or goals first. think long term this time. getting mistakes along the way is not a hindrance but an opportunity to learn. just my two cents.

[jimmy128]

zomg, a /wrist thread.

seriously though, answer these:

1) what is your raison d'tre? your reason for being? why are you here?
2) how do you intend to achieve your purpose? what are you currently doing?

basically, what i'm suggesting is set a goal or goals first. think long term this time. getting mistakes along the way is not a hindrance but an opportunity to learn. just my two cents.

did that.. didnt work..

[anaksatawo]

did that.. didnt work..

well, obviously you miscalculated at certain periods. analyze where you falter. Remember this: "And the word was made flesh.". Thoughts -> Words are that powerful.

[coolguyiam20]

^^^n.unsa mn ka jimmy oi!!!
imo ra ng paminaw nga mura failed au ka pro naa pai mas labaw pa nmo ana..
mao jud huna2a nga naa pai mas labaw pa nmo nga sitwasyon..
ako gani dri dli lng halata nga dghan ko probz pro ako lng na cge og ngisi..
ingon pa ni kuya ig"kung naa ka problema,naa sulosyon,kung way solusyon,way problema"..
ana ra nah..

[jimmy128]

^^^n.unsa mn ka jimmy oi!!!
imo ra ng paminaw nga mura failed au ka pro naa pai mas labaw pa nmo ana..
mao jud huna2a nga naa pai mas labaw pa nmo nga sitwasyon..
ako gani dri dli lng halata nga dghan ko probz pro ako lng na cge og ngisi..
ingon pa ni kuya ig"kung naa ka problema,naa sulosyon,kung way solusyon,way problema"..
ana ra nah..

struggling for 3 years can take its tole..

[coolguyiam20]

struggling for 3 years can take its tole..

bata pa mn ka bro...so go on lng japon..kaw jud..
ako gani sa una..nafailed xd ko kdghan..pro ang imong ghuna2 nga imong plano
dli na mao ang ihatag ni GOD..kay labaw pa ana..too nko..kasuway nko ana...

[anaksatawo]

bata pa mn ka bro...so go on lng japon..kaw jud..
ako gani sa una..nafailed xd ko kdghan..pro ang imong ghuna2 nga imong plano
dli na mao ang ihatag ni GOD..kay labaw pa ana..too nko..kasuway nko ana...

i agree. as the usual cliche says: Everything happens for a reason. btw, d man kaha the same mistakes imong nahimo? at least naay learning curb.

[coolguyiam20]

ang mga kapakyasan nato mao nai mkapalig.on nato ..
mao jud na timan.e bro..pra pg.abot sa future..m.ingon nlng ka nga"naka.agi nmn ko ani"...

[tophat]

bro, if it helps to console you
i myself have been a failure for the last ten years now
and i have tried most everything
but somehow life has got to move on

you can try what i did..
if you have tried and failed,
put your trust in someone more reliable
someone who never fails

some people call that someone God..
it worked for me...
i have not yet arisen from my failures
but i am stil here
because i struggle to walk in His way,
rather than in that i choose...
but His...

i have battled my goliaths in this arena called life,
i have won some but i discovered,
my worst enemy is the self...
always remember...you reap what you sow
these are not punishment nor chastisement,
these are cleansing i would like to believe
for if we survive,
we become better souls..

hope..love..and be loved...