Bro, I appreciate you bro, especially sa imung giingon nga open ka for criticism, that is the first step. And in life i.ridicule gyud ka because of your belief. di lang atheist asta Kristiyano and everything that you will believed you will be ridiculed. Ako I was born a Catholic turn agnostic and then found love through Jesus. I devoted my time studying Him and knowing Him personally. I was ridiculed everytime I talk about my faith to my friends nga catholic, to my family nga catholic, they are saying that I am becoming crazy for Jesus. But I didn't care, what I did was to love them despite all what they have done to me, no bitterness no anger, just unconditional love, they way He loved me. And in your case bro, advise lang. Do not close yourself to the world be open to all ideas of life, be a blank book, you are young daghan kang masulat sa imung pages, travel, read, love without asking back, challenge the norms, ask questions, defy the tradition but do it with love. In everything you do, do it with love. Peace bro.