Emotional Breakdown. Please help. :((

[darkpilas666]

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hello laxx, have you tried talking to each other? you guys should and do it frankly...

[laxxx]

Hello everyone. Sorry I haven't updated for quite sometime. Thanks for all your kind words, even some harsh ones though they're true.. Hehe. A lot has happened since I last posted here. I went back home for a while and just relaxed to take my mind off everything. I applied for leave at work and just spend most of my time with friends and family. By the way we still lived together before I left beut before I did leave I didnt tell him anything. He didnt know. I just left a letter somewhere letting him know I'll be gone for a couple of days and some other stuff. Not the 'i love you pls take me back' or the 'why the hell do u treat me this way??' Type of letter.. The civil one. I guess I had nothing much left to say anyway coz I was starting to become numb to all the pain he would bring me. When I was in my hometown already it was when he started texting me saying he was so pissed I didnt tell him I was leaving. Grabe nanaman ang mura nya. Then he said he left our place na. But still kept texting me. After a few days he realized what he lost. He kept asking me to come home already. He told me he realized how awful he was to me etc etc. At first I didn't want to buy it because I was happy hangin out with my friends at the moment. But I thought long. I thought long and hard. I've done a couple of sh*tty things to him before too. There were times when I took him for granted too and times I didn't treat him well(not the way he does though, he's much worse). And he never left. He never thought twice of giving me a chance. He just gave them right away. Basta.. to summarize everything I never replied to a single text he sent. He just kept letting me know how sorry he was, how much he regret ignoring me and not treating me well, that I didnt deserve every bit of pain he caused me, and that the old him, the one who was madly in love with me, is totally back and back for good. When I came home, I was surprised to see him. All his things were already gone, he said they're all in his own flat. We talked. He poured out. He apologized. He apologized sincerely. He was so sorry. I could see and feel how sorry he was. I just listened. After talking, I just decided to give our relationship another try. So far, the old him has really been back. The one who looks forward to coming home to me. The one who loves to do things for me and takes good care of me. The one who respects me and takes good care of my feelings. Basta, the one whom I used to take for granted before is totally back. The good thing about us now is that we both have grown. We both also have realized how much we mean to each other, how much we value each other. We both have gone through the "you don't know what u got til it's gone" part. Don't worry guys, I now know my limits. I now know when it's not right anymore. I'm taking things smoothly now, not just focusing on the relationship only. I'm also doing things for myself, like boxing and joining church groups. I'm happy with my disposition now and I'm also happy with the way things are going between us. I feel like a princess again. If anything goes wrong, I don't think I'm gonna be stubborn again. I already know what to do. Thanks everyone for helping me see reality and accepting it.

Pasensya sa nobela kong update. Lol.
By the way, hindi ako Ilongga.

[beyee]

That's great that you have learned from the whole experience.
Like everyone else had pointed out, it's a good idea for you to
go home, to think things over... And it sure did change your
perspective of the whole thing.

I am surprised though that you guys are back together. I hope
he remains true to his promises and you will stand by what you
learned from the past. I'm happy that you are doing worthwhile
activities apart from his world. That will help you guys grow
individually and that makes your relationship healthy.

God bless sis

[laxxx]

Hi sis! I have a lot to thank you for. I know I can really be stubborn esp when I'm really emotional at the moment, and I thank you for being "harsh" to me about the truth. Hehe. I started to realize your point when I was back home and was able to think a bit more rational. I got your point. And I already know what I'm gonna do once this ends up bad again. But I doubt it will. Hehe basta, I'm ready lang for the worst.

You're right, going home was the best decision I made.

[beyee]

We may be strangers offline but from our stories that we share in
the forum have created a bond that makes us "sisters" who look out
for each other. I meant well and I just hate seeing girls getting hurt
by jerks. And in the end, girls make excuses for their bad behavior.

Anyway, take care of yourself sis and wish you both well

[laxxx]

Exactly! That's what I felt. It's like when your bestfriend slaps the truth right on your face para gumising ka na. Which was what I really needed at that time. Who knows? Baka ikaw naman ang mg start ng thread about a heartache and ako naman ang magiging harsh about the truth hehehehe.

You too sis! Do take care. I'm happy to have earned a virtual sis

[beyee]

Hahahaha! I've had my fair share of heartaches but
I rather not start a thread on that lols...

However, I tend to write in my diary or point it out
through some of my advices to people here. These
(unsolicited) advices are actually realizations of what
I had gone through in the past.

**group hugs**

[Missmary]

I am so glad you have a happy ending. Congratulations! That's why I liked this forum. It's a place to vent, a sounding board. You will get all sorts of ideas to help you. But at the end of the day, you make the decision.

[ohohoy]

TS i'm happy for you..