Uncertain future, Discouraged, Hopeless, I need advice. :(

[AntitaniC]

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sakto jud mo tnan sa ako pgkaimature but i have my personal reasons and its a bit of a story nganu na inana ko for 5+ years.
i struggled with my social life after what happend and i got rejected by my family, had to look for job, eventually coming back to my parents. many times gipapalayas ko sa ako father pero bcuz of my mother wala madaun and obviously and practically i cant live by myself. i sank into a deep depressive lifestyle rejecting every criticism i encounter, staying at home nagcg lng ug computer, i hate to admit it, it was my mistake that lead me to another miserable life. it was not easy being alone. you guys may not understand it but it was the only thing i knew what to do at that time. but im glad i got out of it. right now im just struggling with this rollercoaster of emotions. i dont know what to feel on this first day of school, i have mixed emotions, i feel elated at the same time i feel sad/anxious/worried. im thinking that its normal since ive been out of school for a long time.

number 1 jud nga nkabother sa akoa karon is the fear of the future. i feel nga basin wala na mudawat nako. i fear nga walay position nga nindot after sa akoa pag grad.

long story short whatever your story was... I've seen worst and I know you did too.

You're just making a big deal out of it. Consider our advice specially Marius post... (Coz he's emotional coz he is also a father... )

consider these a virtual slap on your face for you to wake up... we are not mad at you, we are mad at what you're doing. have a best of luck.

[Scott Bernard]

TS... you have your answer already. Do not make excuses. Life is full of uncertainties, you have to discover it to yourself.

Ma worried ka nga ig 30 nimo wala nay success nag huwat nimo? Unsaon nimo pagka successful pohon kung dili ka magsugod karon.

If I was your older brother, palayason gehapon taka sa atong balay. Like most of the advice here.... this is enough.

Move on. Start now. And make tomorrow as your challenge.... don't be a loser for eternity.

[psychologic]

hehehe.. ka nice ana bro! at least gihatagan paka ug chance and salig sa imong mga parents na maka skul ug balik.. not everyone is blessed as you right now..cguro ur thinking about what others are thinking tungod sa imong age now.. i went back to college when i was 26 bro. at first mejo ulaw kay lage tungod sa age. 29 nako ni grad and self supporting with also taking care of my 4 year old daughter that time. as long as u are motivated para lang sa imong self, imong future and para sa imong daughter.