Mmmm... I wasnt as strong as i am now 2 years ago sis... I was also dependent to him... Pero it already came up to a point that all the people i know pitied me for what i've gone through with him... For 5 years, i thought of forgetting my own happiness because we have kids and i dont want them to grow up without their dad... But our recent fight made me realize my kids will and can understand... My four-year old daughter was hugging me when i cried and said, "ma, away nasad mo papa? Ayaw na cry ma. Bad mani papa oi." sus, it was an eye-opener for me that my kids will understand. Imagine? 4 years old pa but she already understood that i was really in pain... Pila nami ka.adlaw buwag sis but wala man mangita akong kids niya... Maybe because sad, hands on man ko sa ila...
anyways, if di naka happy, let go... Mao ra jud na... They will never realize what they've lost not unless mawala nila...