today is the last day of the month. tomorrow is a start of my new life as i have promised. to my dearest ex who i know will be reading this and even his friends, please read carefully. few years back, sept 06, 2004 to be exact, i promised myself to love you and to stand by you no matter what. i dont get into a relationship to play games, you know that.
almost 7 years have passed and we have our 5 year old son. all those times, i shed a river of tears and u and your friends are aware. i went through my pregnancy with a very painful experience of being taken for granted, i endured it because i understood that u werent ready. a month after i gave birth, u started cheating on me. i forgave u because our son needs a father, it didnt stop there. for almost 7 years, u never picked me up from work, you took me to work yes, but only when i forced you. for almost 7 years, you have never thrown a birthday party for our son, yet u had a party for your bday with your barkada.
you have a fb account that u kept from me that doesnt have a picture of me and our son yet there are pictures of your other affairs and your barkada. from the time nanganak ko, its always my responsibility to take care of our son, financially. i even bought the shirt you wore sa iyang bunyag. i did great things for u until the very last day we were together, and u know that. and u know that i dont deserve a bit of what u did to me. im hurt but God was never unfair to me.
im still so thankful for the good life he gave me. i have a good job, i have my own place, i can afford starbucks everyday if i like to. how about you? u have no education, no work, no money. again, i will never forget the day seeing u sleeping on my bed wearing a torn boxers and your butt was showing, i told myself, my gosh, this guy cant even buy himself his own underwear yet he is doing a lot of messing up and was hurting me so bad. yet, he was the guy i love most and the father of my son. you lost my netbook and took away my motorcycle so many times with the gasoline at my expense when i dont even know who you were and where u r. u dont even have the courage of taking it back to the house.
you have lost that little respect you have for me and its probably my fault (as you told me), i let this happen to myself. if loving too much is being very stupid, i take the responsibility but at least you can tell your friends that i didnt bail out on you at the lowest point of your life...
this all ends here for i am too damn tired...tomorrow is the first day of august and i will have a complete 360 degrees turn of what and how i am. i will still be the same person, too few people left in this world and i want to be that nice person still but i will completely stop talking and thinking and will never hope anymore that we can even be friends for it will not happen. why? friendship is built on trust and we dont have that. you know i can do this and i will.
yes, i express my feelings here but i have never mentioned your name, not even your friends. unlike you deliberately showing your friends that your fb account doesnt have a pic of me and our son. thanks so much for making me feel like a fool, 7 years with a son...