Memoirs of an Amnesiac

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, 10-19-2012 at 11:39 PM (3947 Views)

It was only two years ago when I found out I had a condition called sleep paralysis aka "urom" in the Visayan language. It is still undiagnosed until now. I figured that if I really get into the matter of things and consult a specialist, I might actually go crazy. I will (for sure) know that I have a mental condition somewhere that needs tweaking. And with it comes not only financial but also psychological concerns.

It was then that I met someone who really talked me into dealing with it because he himself had the same experience. I could see parallelisms in both our experiences, only that his was a bit more absurd and disturbing.

My last attacks recently included some four faceless men who tried to whisper something into my ear, subduing me. Just two weeks ago, I had a lady (still faceless) trying to engulf me. These usually occurred when I was about to sleep, about a few minutes before I hit slumber land. My mind was always active, as if my spirit comes out of my body and looking at it (totally detached from the entity that holds it). Most of the time, I find myself physically immobilized although something inside me is crying out to be freed and to be set free from the force that imprisons it. That friend of mine who gave me suggestions on how to handle this told me to not eat a lot and then sleep (which was what I practiced before) and to also listen to music before I hit the bed.

Why am I sharing this? I just thought that you might have the same experience. Maybe you could shed some light on me.

Updated 10-19-2012 at 11:42 PM by shey0811

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AncientTexts - 10-21-2012 03:02 AM
I've tried this many times before.. its like when I close my eyes and all I can sense is Darkness.. knowing that I'm already trap in my thoughts and I wana move my body but can't... even one of my fingers I can't move.. I keep on trying and trying to move my arms or feet but still can't.. the longer I'm trap in my thoughts the more fears I encounter... all I did was pray and pray and pray.. when I woke up.. I placed a rosary under my pillow.. and pray always before I sleep, which indeed helps.. coz my mind feels more relax and safe that I have prayed to GOD.
shey0811 - 10-21-2012 01:22 PM
I have tried praying in the middle of an attack. It helps me calm down. But really, every time there is an attack, I will always feel like it would be my last (like that would be the end of me)....
Dorothea - 10-21-2012 02:07 PM
I used to have these "nightmares" in grade school.
shey0811 - 10-23-2012 10:07 PM
Another attack again last night. I guess this takes a lot of getting used to...
dream_catcher - 10-24-2012 03:42 PM
i have these same attacks like yours sis.
taud-taud naman to nga wala,but lately nibalik
nasad.the last attack i had was about a week ago.
these usually happens if matog kog hard surface,like
semento lang bitaw niya hapinan ra nako og banig or
sa kanang kawayan nga lingkuran.kadto nga attack kay
there were people around me,they were talking jud,
asking me questions,i heard them but i can't move nor
talk.i tried to stretch my arms (i noticed when i make even a single
movement ma mata ko) pero wala jud.they thought daw nga
natog ko so wala nalang ko nila gi mata.it was scary.lisud kaayo
i.breath...it's like someone was forcefully putting a pillow sa ako
face.gladly,naka move rako,then i woke up.

every time these happens niya duka pako,ako i.change ako sleeping position.it works for me. i am not really sure jud unsay maka angin ani.
shey0811 - 10-24-2012 09:33 PM
Same here. In those attacks, mura jud kog masuffocate and I can't move jud. Mao na what I do is I try to be consciously calm. I pray and recite verses from the bible. It worked and I'm still using the same technique each time. Ako manotice is that when magdugay kog sleep and then kapoy jud kaayo akong lawas, I tend to sleep flat. Inig attack, mo.side position dayon ko...