Immobilized
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, 10-19-2012 at 11:39 PM (3946 Views)
It was only two years ago when I found out I had a condition called sleep paralysis aka "urom" in the Visayan language. It is still undiagnosed until now. I figured that if I really get into the matter of things and consult a specialist, I might actually go crazy. I will (for sure) know that I have a mental condition somewhere that needs tweaking. And with it comes not only financial but also psychological concerns.
It was then that I met someone who really talked me into dealing with it because he himself had the same experience. I could see parallelisms in both our experiences, only that his was a bit more absurd and disturbing.
My last attacks recently included some four faceless men who tried to whisper something into my ear, subduing me. Just two weeks ago, I had a lady (still faceless) trying to engulf me. These usually occurred when I was about to sleep, about a few minutes before I hit slumber land. My mind was always active, as if my spirit comes out of my body and looking at it (totally detached from the entity that holds it). Most of the time, I find myself physically immobilized although something inside me is crying out to be freed and to be set free from the force that imprisons it. That friend of mine who gave me suggestions on how to handle this told me to not eat a lot and then sleep (which was what I practiced before) and to also listen to music before I hit the bed.
Why am I sharing this? I just thought that you might have the same experience. Maybe you could shed some light on me.