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Dear Lyra,

For God's sakes! stop being whiny and clingy and scared! You have been in this drama before, the only difference is the relationship you've exited is something you've had for so long that you've been used to it and you never thought there would be an exit! Look at you! your eyes are swollen sh!t and your face is tear stained! your curls looked bushy and you look soooo pathetic! where's your self preservation dear? where's your self respect? stop begging and stop wishing for him to stay! let him be what he wants to be! if he wants to leave then so be it. love yourself! don't let him ruin it and have fun with it. you are just killing yourself dear. i know you love him so and his absence created a major tragedy in your life since he was your first at almost everything. be brave and have faith dear. you are more than what you see in the mirror. what you see right now in there is a person who fought the battle and lost. accept it as a person who fought for love. accept it like a soldier who died for the country. accept it as a part of life. don't be scared that nobody will want you anymore. it is true that his love changed you big time. you've been confident, proud, and powerful with your femininity. he submitted himself and became your pet. maybe that's where you started creating the monster in him. now you can no longer control him. you have to let go. learn and move on. there's so much more to life here. live and breathe that life. God knows your pains and just like a diamond, you have to go through all painful movements just to be the diamond that you will be. He does not lead you to anything that will harm you dear. this time i know you feel like you are in a sinking boat. don't sink with it. survive it. you may not know how to swim but you have to learn. you have no choice. be strong! aja! aja! fighting!

Be brave, little one
Make a wish for each sad little tear
Hold your head up, though no one is near
Someone's waiting for you

Don't cry, little one
There'll be a smile where a frown used to be
You'll be part of the love that you see
Someone's waiting for you

Always keep a little prayer in your pocket
And you're sure to see the light
Soon there'll be joy and happiness
And your little world will be bright

Have faith, little one
Till your hopes and your wishes come true
You must try to be brave, little one
Someone's waiting to love you