What's HARDER for YOU?
For me, BOTH I guess!
Pretending you STILL LOVE someone is HARD especially when it is apparent already in every aspect of you that YOU don't LOVE them anymore! Other people see it in your eyes, the way you move and the way you are when YOU are with them. In other people's point of view, it seems DRY or LIFELESS! A Painting that's meant to be destroyed nalang or sold Cheap! YOU yourself don't BLOOM anymore so to speak and people see that and your partner feels that!
Pretending you are NOT in love with the person anymore is HARDER for me too. Since you know deep inside your heart that they are still there. And though you haven't seen each other for a long time, when the moment comes you just hear their name or see them from afar or see their car or see their post or even just stuff that reminds you of them and the days you we're still together and happy, all these things saddens you and reminds you of the pain, the hurt and even the love you once shared that YOU had hoped would have lasted forever but you just had to let go! And sometimes, when the moment comes they are there right in front of you, or even among the presence of your common friends and they mention that person to you, you just can't help but feel sad and feel affected and it takes a whole lot of courage and strength to simply just SUCK IT IN if I may say!