Agony Over Happiness! please read...Tell me wat 2 do!

[hurveen]

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The world is bursting of diversities and possibilities. This verity excites me everyday. I always look to the fore - another sunrise, another morning with surprises which can make me wear a grimace or a grace. I always welcome new acquaintances who could spice up my life rather than individuals who transport adversity to my craved dawn. I control my own world, yet a powerful being is watching over his plans to be realized. I am in a situation controlling its revolution; it has a mind of its own. There is so much to question on this flimsy condition, but i couldn't dare to ask. It is because I am afraid to know its reality. Fear is running over me, and it let hurts me.

I usually spend my Sunday puffing my menthol, sipping my frappe and looking at the passers-by. It keeps me sincerely sane. It makes me feel that the world is definitely spinning. Since I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia, life was not easy. Being alone was one of my developed fears and on top of it is my fear to be with someone. The possibility conjures up my possibility to keep my heart jump for joy. A coward like me doesn't have a place in this evolution, nor has the right to walk in the longevity. I stayed inside my pigsty with complete isolation and whenever I sneak out, I fake my pleasure. Wasted is the word that best suits me then until my route had a little detour.

Honestly, I prefer not to do waste my days with just one person whether he is the ONE or we are just better together. I wanted to be with a lot of people especially strangers from other places. But I have an engineer who doesn't let this happen for HE sent someone who speaks like an angel but not a poet. Although he doesn't say the sweetest words but express them in a manner that plays in my dreams every time I close my eyes. His words craft my future with a rainbow and clouds relaxing right next to a blue sky looking down at the vast ocean. His words could rhyme a sonnet which romanticizes a story of solitude, which could perfect a melody of a play, which could unravel the missing parts a puzzle and could even lead to the end of the labyrinth. He is a knight who fights for what is right, who stands in way to keep me from harm, and who saves me from darkness. But just like any other possibilities, he makes me cry sometimes. Same as the sunshine that keeps me warm, he dries my happiness. Same as a song that starts my day, he ends my beautiful dream. It is not always easy to live and love, but who cares. The world is diverse and I will take the risk just to be with him. There is no combination of words to describe my days with him but one thing is for sure - we are better together.

Inspired by real life story..A letter from my girlfriend, and it really hits my heart with a sharp spear knowing that she is suffering from Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia. I don't even know how to respond nor to give her the satisfaction of everyday that she's with me.. One thing for sure, to be with her is the greatest thing ever. Making her happy no matter what the cost.

[gnox]

Let us pray for her fast recovery.
Give her inspirational books to read or introduce her to a hobby para at least malingaw siya ug dili magcge huna-huna sa iyahang condition.
Be a friend to her not only a lover.

[neox30]

pray lang oi

[saint niceguy]

do activities together that will keep her mind and body busy but not strenous.

show her what is meant to live a fulfilling life.

join civic and church organisations.

accompany her in her journey, during her ups and downs, good times and bad.

tell her your always be there for her.

love her more each day.

pray harder for her everyday.

be a blessing in her life.

[trainermarie]

If I were your girlfriend, I would do everything I can to keep myself healthy. To live longer means staying with you longer. Keep her smile, and I think you know how to make her happy. I wish both of you will find happiness although you cannot refuse to agony since it is a part of ou existence, but at least you were able to find ways right? I know she loves you so much and she's doing everything she can to understand your situation. She is doing everything possible to make a lot of memories for you to treasure when that TIME comes. I truly understand because I know someone who is in the same situation. Always remember the great ALpha and Omega.

[akosabni]

there's nothing to tell, your already doing it ... be with her and make her happy

[miyay]

your presence makes her happy, thats it.

[jaded court]

If I were your girlfriend, I would do everything I can to keep myself healthy. To live longer means staying with you longer. Keep her smile, and I think you know how to make her happy. I wish both of you will find happiness although you cannot refuse to agony since it is a part of ou existence, but at least you were able to find ways right? I know she loves you so much and she's doing everything she can to understand your situation. She is doing everything possible to make a lot of memories for you to treasure when that TIME comes. I truly understand because I know someone who is in the same situation. Always remember the great ALpha and Omega.

welcome back, mam.

[wsraxe]

bitaw, welcome back