I got a gf before when i was in 3rd yr college. We've been for 1.5yr. We broke up because i was desperate to finish college already. I decided to let go of my pc games, my playstation, my barkada and every habit nako nga feel nako dili ko productive. My time for her? wala napud nako maatiman (given na graduating sad siya, busy pud). We didn't see each other for a month until i decided to let go but my what i really wanted that time is cool off lang sa. The truth is i just want to ask her if selfish bako if i want us off or maybe give time lang sa (but not break up). But then when i told her that she didn't want it. Ingon siya maypa magbreak na lang kung mag cool off cool off lang (I guess she didn't really mean it). She cried that moment until paghatod nako sa iya bhauz cge ra xa hilak and i have to hold her bec manaog sa escalator di magtan-aw kung mulabang di magtan-aw cge ra tabon sa iya nawng mao toh ako jud gihatod kai nabalaka sad ko..
After 2 yrs wa lang japon mi nagbalik (wala koi nauyab lain after namo, i guess siya pud bec we still chat wala man sad daw siya uyab, well ingon siya). But I guess wala jud,, kai anytime ko mutext ok ra man or even chat or even sa friendster wala mai manuko hahaha. She wanted us back but then my pride goes up, i wanted someone new even though deep inside i still want her. So after another yr nakauyab na siya then nakauyab na sad ko lain. I realized everything, i realized that she's real beautiful (physically) compared to whom im with now, she's real understanding compared to whom i have now, she's real intelligent compared to my gurl now, etc. Even though my gf now is kind to me and loves me so much and would give me almost everything she can but i realized that i should have been happier if im with ex-gf now.
And now im gonna be tied up with a girl that is a very opposite of what i wanted/dreamt of. I'm still confused and i regret.
Atleast this will you give idea what guys feels or go thorugh, though not all are the same.
