He's Gone

[jugs_06]

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it's a good thing to know that you've actually managed to move on, jen..

[angelfyre]

hmm i dunno guess so?

wat doesnt kill u...u know d drill

[s_an_e]

its just moving on and learning from the experience..

[Ms.Beau]

angelfyre, my condolence.

The details are not the same, but yeah the pain is familiar to me. I guess you are clinically depressed. feelings of utter hopelessless and loneliness, crying yourself to sleep, crying in your sleep, waking up crying, makahilak ug kalit anytime during the day--these even on a daily basis. death thoughts. anger, regrets, bargaining with God (Lord, pls take the pain away)--overlapping. hay, grabeh.

I've always known that in a dark tunnel, there's ALWAYS light at the end...pero while I'm in the darkness, how will I deal with the pain? as in sakit kaayu, maayu pa mamatay nalang. My head's telling me there's hope, but my body is telling me I just can't bear the pain anymore.

It's not easy...never easy. Looking back, maka ingon lang ko it must have been the grace of god that brought me through.

Mao na these have become so meaningful to me:
*at the end of this dark tunnel is the LIGHT.
*when everything is gone, that's the time I will find HOPE.
*God will sustain me.
*What I will do is just breathe...just breathe (I was very touched by the movie Castaway)


I sincerely wish you complete healing...in time.

[angelfyre]

@beau: tho its not d same as b4, there r still bad days. thanks for the concern

[Sanosuke]

Hi angelfyre... I guess I'ts never too late na to say condolence.. I just read this thread today, and I remember a few weeks ago, you mentioned at d shoutbox u love the song "Hanggang Kailan" by Orange and Lemons becoz it makes u remember ur departed bf.

How are u na? I hope u moved on already wid ur life... Advance Merry Christmas...

[angelfyre]

Hi angelfyre... I guess I'ts never too late na to say condolence.. I just read this thread today, and I remember a few weeks ago, you mentioned at d shoutbox u love the song "Hanggang Kailan" by Orange and Lemons becoz it makes u remember ur departed bf.

How are u na? I hope u moved on already wid ur life... Advance Merry Christmas...

ya..its corny but mao na among song . slowly but surely or vice versa. oh well. tnx

[angelfyre]

Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you

Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I'm glad to go

Death is no dream,
For in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday

Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart
Dear

Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

[Streetcar]

Yeah Jen, sorry to hear about the passing away of your boyfriend. I'm sure he wants you to move on with your life and be happy with someone who will love you as much as he did. Just hold him close in your heart and treasure the memories.

[ianina]

oh geez. im so sorry for what happened.. but i guess no matter how painful you just gotta move on...yeah sakit, but no choice right..even though it's not easy..