Hi istoryans
Let me share a little about my love life dri. Please dont judge
Just sharing hihi
I had my first bf/first love when I was 13 and he was 20 that time, I didn't know what was right or wrong back then. And naka ingon jud ko nga grabe maka bogo ning love. Although grabe siya ka possessive nako, I never did anything to hurt him and I still did everything I could to show him my love.
We were together for 4 years and it was just tragic. I was so inlove with him that I would do literally ANYTHING for him, and he obviously took advantage of me. Pag 4 months namo, he asked me to live with him since siya raman usa sa ilaha kay iya parents naa sa gawas. So ako, ni go jud dayun ko. Gi byaan nako akong pamilya just to be with him. I broke my parent's hearts. And didto na nagsugod ang pagka pait sakung kinabuhi.
During the years we were together, nag hinay2 na siyag ka usab. Things got worse and worse.
Mao ni iyang mga gi buhat nako: (not only once)
- 1.) Mu laag siya, di ko niya kuyogon bisag mu hangyo pako. And what's worse is that iya kandadohan ang door para djud ko ka gawas. (Hala ha what if mag sunog?)
- 2.) Gi bawalan ko niya mu tan-aw ug tv with REAL HUMAN BEINGS. Dapat cartoons ra. Yes, ing-ana siya ka insecure. One time I accidentally laid my eyes on the tv kadjut rajd kaau and wa jud nako tuyo-a, nya si Harry Potter man ang naa sa tv ato. Iya dayun ko gipa saka sa 2nd floor sa ila, ug sa dihang gi kulata ko niya. JUST BECAUSE OF THAT. I got so scared, pero bisag unsaon nako, di man jud nako kaya mu biya niya, so gi agwanta nalang nako. (Yes super dumb, I know)
- 3.) Kung mag grocery mi etc, dapat mag duko rajd ko pirme, bawal ko mu tan-aw ug mga tao kay basin daw maka tan-aw ko ug laki. Nasayup ko ani twice, pag bayad nako sa cashier, naka tan-aw ra gani ko sa bagger, gi pakauwawan ko niya and gi byaan dayun ko niya didto. With no money with me to go home kay gi bayad nako tanan sa grocery. I waited outside the mall until 11pm for him to come back.
- 4.) I am not allowed to go out with my friends and family. Di ko pwede mag facebook or any social networks etc.
- 5.) I spent my birthdays alone, in his room waiting for him to come back from laag.
- 6.) I cook for him all the time, mamukaw na siya ug kadlawn (even if im sick) kay magpaluto siya kay para mahuwasan sa ka hubog. And ofcourse, lutoan sad nako.
- 7.) One time, uhaw kaayo ko and I was sick, gi hatagan ko niya ug bottle of sprite, pag inom nako dli diay to sprite, it was pee. Nag suka2 jud ko ato, nya siya nag katawa ra. Pina ingon pa "Love man kaha ko nmo?".
Grabeha jud.
- Christmas time at my parent's place, ang amigo sa akong ate ni daig nako. Kanang binuang ragud, pina "Gwapa na kaayo imong manghud" nya ang naa sa huna2 sakong uyab kay kabit daw to nko. Nabuang najud! Ni walk out siya, nya I chased him. Gi dala ko niya sa ilaha. I tried to tell him, nga dili to nako kabit, mura man intawn to nako ug kuya oy! But he didn't believe me, iya ko gi kulata maayo, (on Christmas!) sa akong kahadlok, na abot kog dagan sa 3rd floor sa ilang balay (which is not stable). Gi gukod ko niya didto and just as his fist landed on my face, na hagba ang floor kung asa ko nag barog. I fell to the second floor, face full of blood, knocked-out and unconscious. Na rattle siya, and he took me to the hospital. I broke my arm, my body was full of bruises (especially my back) na bukol ko ug dako kaau saku forehead and na gisi ang skin above sa ako eye. Even after what he did, I still covered him up. I told my parents nga natagak ra ko and the reason why I went up the third floor is to get something. Wa gihapon nako buwagi kay di jud nako kaya wala siya.
Here are a few pics of me on that day:
Basta, daghan pajud kaayo I can't enumerate everything. Padung 3nd year namo together, ni cheat siya nako with another girl. Ni laag siya ato, nya I had this instinct to follow him jud. So when he left, ni sunod ko. He went to mo2, I waited by his car until mu gawas siya, nya nag c.r ko kadjut, pag balik nako sa car I saw him having *** with another girl, inside his car. Mura jud kog kakuyapon ato, murag gi kumot akong dughan, mura kog mabuang, I couldn't believe he could do that to me, I was so loyal to him and I never ever did anything to hurt him.
Nag dali2x dayon ko balik sa ilaha, afraid that he might come home early nya makakita siya wala ko, aw patay nasad nya ko sa kulata. So when I got home, na abot sad siya after an hour. Naligo, nagpaluto pa, nya natog. Wa nalang jud ko ni mention that time sa unsa akong nakita. I opened up to him after a week, but deny gyud siya, ako pay nahimung bati. So I tried to forget about it nalang, para lang di mi mag buwag nd di mi mag away.
Our very unhealthy relationship went on for almost a year, kay I got pregnant. And bisag katong buntis ko, kulatado gihapon. Wa gyud siyay kaluoy. I've been admitted sa hospital 3 times, all because of him.
Pag panganak na nako, after 3 months, nag start nako ug work sa akong mom & didto na mi gipa stay sa balay sako parents para maka help sila and mabuhi nako ang baby kay di man gyud siya ganahan mu work. Gusto siya mag negosyo diritso bisag walay ika puhonan. He doesnt want to be an "employee" kay di daw siya ana nga level. (Hilas gyud) Ako pay nanrabaho, ako pay bantay sa bata ig uli, ako pay sweldo sa yaya, ako pay magpakaon sa laagan nga amahan. I couldnt even bond with my family kay mag selos siya, di nako ma atiman akng mga manghud kay masuko siya. I was always unhappy. When I'm on my way home from work, mag pray gud ko nga
"Lord, maytag malipay nako oy. Wa najud ko ka feel ug true happiness in a long time. Wa ko nag ampo ma dato or unsa, akong ampo rajud nga ma happy nako"
Nya kung ma late kog uli bisag 5 mins, kulata dayun. Bisag kahibaw siya nagkuyog mi ni mama. It was too much for me to handle.
Pag 7 months sa akong baby, diha pako naka realize. (Taod2 sad nuh? Hahaha)
Naka realize ko nga di na nako kaya tanan. Sa tanan2x, I fell out of love niya. As in, in a SNAP!
Wa gani mi nag away ato, I just HAD ENOUGH na. I couldn't do any more for him.
So while I was at work, I just sent him a text message:
"Buwag nata. Hiposa imong things and go home. Makigbuwag najud ko nimo"
And on that day I did everything I wanted, everything I didn't do in a long time. Katong mga gi bawal niya.
I went malling sa ayala, I watched a movie (not cartoon), I got a tattoo and I spent the night with my sister.
When I got home, wala najud iyang things & wala na siya didto. Kato pajud ko ka feel ug "relief" in a long time.
Ni gaan jud akong paminaw. I could bond with my family na, I felt so free. I got in touch with my friends and I felt happy. I WAS HAPPY!!! So happy that I could cry. The Lord has answered my prayers.
It's been almost 2 years na since nag buwag mi. And wa jud ko nag maoy since day 1
Now, I have a new boyfriend
(mag 6months nami) that really loves me and takes good care of me. He knows everything about me and my past but still accepts me as how I am, iya sad gi accept nga naa nakoy baby. I love him so much and I'm so thankful nga na abot siya saku life. I'm glad I took the risk of falling in love again, because it was really WORTH IT!
Tinuod gyud diay ilang ingon nga
"Some things fall apart so that better things can fall together."
So sa mga broken-hearted ron, NEVER LOSE HOPE! Better things are coming your way.
Originally Posted by kimon
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