Death in the Family

[Rooted]

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my dad died 5 yrs ago. it was a sudden death.
wala xa kuyog, xa ra isa.
the odd thing pa jud ato kai that day is the day my granfather was buried.
everyone was inside the house to sleep while he was outside alone.
did2 xa tulog sa lantai ilawom sa mga saging, kai para kuno hayahay.

then my uncle suddenly wakes up around 2AM looking for him.
they found him in the ground, cold dead.

ang naka faet pa jud kai dri sila sa CEBU, kami mga anak tu-a sa ILIGAN.

me dad left to a attend a funeral and came back to his own wake.

the last thing i could remember with my dad is i massage his legs kai nag-cramps gikan dula basketball.
imagine this, i was 20yrs old by then. kaw kaha. mabuhat nimo nga i massage imo papa.
well it was the last memory i'll always treasure.
sa una bata pami, around 5-10, i could remember him calling us LANGGA.
then around teens nako, wala na ka badlongon naman.
then at that moment, he called me LANGGA. i could remember "dira, LANGGA" specifying the spot were it hurts the most and then releasing a deep sigh. haaaiii memories.

i miss him a lot. i always had a dream about him basta naa ko buhaton nga di maau.

anyway, taas kaau. basa lang hehehe...

peace.

[Choki]

Papa died last dec 06, 2007. Whenever I would think of him, dli nako malikayon na muhilak. It's sad lang kay kun kanus-a mi mga isgsuon nahuman na tanan sa studies, kun kanus-a namo pwede na i-provide iya mga kinahanglan, kun kanus-a pwede na namo cya i-travel, he's gone pud. The last glimpse I had of him was last all saints day pa, since I currenty work here in makati. The last conversation I had with him was a night before cya gibawian ug ginhawa, he was in the hospital that time. I told him pa na "never surrender jud Pa ha, as in fight fight jud, muuli baya ko inig Christmas and naa ko gift for you then on July next year (200 kuyugon tika sa Singapore.." I know he smiled pro dli na nako kayo macomprehend iya uttered words (iya na kan-on iya istorya). The only clear words I heard from him was "love you" kay ako man cya ingnan na "luvs you pa"..Then on the day before cya nawala, I was talking to my brother sa cellphone kay gitabang daw ako papa..grabe that was the painful day of my life..was telling my brother to put the cellphone into my father's ears, hoping na madungog nya ako tingug and he would eventually survive..nadungog pa jud nako ang paraphernalia na gigamit to revive his heartbeat...pero...(shocks I'm crying here na..)

My mom works in malaysia and she's scheduled to be home on a sunday (Dec 9) kaya lang wala na nya naabti si Papa. Until now, everytime I would go home in Cebu sobra nako ma-feel ang emptiness sa'ko self. I truly love papa despite the fact na mura mi ug iring ug iro when he was still alive.

If only I can turn back time...

[JaM_meE]

Its her anniversary and i miss her so much.. i cant explain the loneliness.. i jst dont know what to do.. i visited her and made me miss her more.. i want her back.. i wanna hug her and be a baby again.. i terribly miss her.. i cant stop my tears... i got no one to talk to..
so i'm typing out all my feelings here.. i've never felt so sad its impossible to put into words. i just wish she's here..

[thisbe.ara]

a part of them will always be with us. do you guys feel that they are still with us? moments when we feel that if they are still here, they would feel like this? places where you know they would appreciate? and somehow, things would just get heavy and it's best to cry alone and just let it all out.

[angelfyre]

i was watching van helsing [hugh jackman] days ago. dba he cant remember his past? he was talking to anna [kate beckinsale] n said sumting like 'its better to have memories of ur love ones to remember them by than none at all'.

my father died last oct 2004. it was sudden, we didnt expect him to die, we thought he going to make it. wen i look back, i can still remember the pain. i quit school [2nd course nako, nursing]. wen he was alive, he wld often tell us that kng mamatay na sya, he wld visit us from time to time. just as he was dying, i whispered to him to keep his promise or magmahay jud ko. even wen he already in the coffin, and wen he was abt to be lowered down sa grave, sa last look b4 d coffin was closed, i whispered to him again.

he kept his promise

[mrs507]

i lost my grandmother 7 years ago because of complications due to diabetes but until now the pain's still there... it's not just to me but to my sisters as well. you see, we grew up under her care and basically, she was not just a lola to us but our mama as well. miski when our mama came back from abroad, kay lola gihapon mi ask for baon and other stuff. wala mi naanad sa amoa mama... she was so strict but ok lang coz if it weren't for her and her strict discipline and principles, we wouldn't be who we are right now. sakit ang pagkawala ni lola coz feeling naku, at 65 y.o, it's too young to die. then nagtabang pa ko bantay ni lola in and out of the hospital. she used to live w/us too, that's why every corner sa amoa house sa guadalupe, there's something that would remind us of her... lola knows how much she meant to us and we loves her very dearly... we miss her a damn lot...

never take anybody for granted jod. show them how mich they mean to you and don't be shy to tell them "i love you"... life's too short, nobody knows what will happen next...

[jdimpas]

I know some of us here experienced lost when one of his family pass-away.. How do it feels? ano ginawa nyo para mka recover sa pain?..

[shikai]

very SAD......

[Choki]

I know some of us here experienced lost when one of his family pass-away.. How do it feels? ano ginawa nyo para mka recover sa pain?..

Keep busy always, I supposed. But honestly, I think to recover in pain is a matter of time. Ako, my dad died 5mos ago pero until now whenever I'm alone, can't help but cry. Labi na makahinumdum ko sa ako funny and arguing moments with him. Last night lang I've cried ulit, I missed him na kasi. Too bad lang kay I was not at his side when he died. There are a lot of things to tell, lot of apologies to asked and lots of love and care to show. But it's too late, he's now gone. I prayed to GOD na lang to tell my dad how loved he is and how his family missed and longed for him. May GOD bless my father's soul..

[rishee]

My dad's death is the most painful thing in my life. Mag two years na gani but wa ghapon ko ka get over.. I still cry about it.. even if I think about fathers.. Sensitive na kaayo ko ana na topic...mabuang ko...