Accepted the Facts
I am sorry if I am at times idealistic.
I overestimated the love you have for me.
I just grew up having a father who have not said No.
(My friend even can’t relate when I said that it is so ironic for your bf/husband to say No while your dad haven’t.)
Now, I accepted the fact that I am just a wife.
You are my cross. This marriage is my cross.
I should carry it in order to be saved.
And for the kids, it is.
I am happy to see my kids, my mother glad.
Gleeful, that I am still fighting to save this marriage.
Convincing myself that I am happy.
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There are a lot of times I am wishing I have not met you.
And you did not agree for us to get married.
I guess the feeling is mutual Marc.
I am not so happy with you.
But I am happy seeing the kids happy that we are together.
I do not care whether I am a happy wife. I am just a wife.
Perhaps, I do not deserve to be a one.
But it means to me to be a happy mother. I am a mother.
We can make it. Partners in life.
Domestic partnership it is.
Don’t worry. I will not be lonely.
Jesus Christ is with me.
I can survive a life without a Romantic Love.
The kids are pouring Love to me more divine and more pure than that.
I am legally not single but I am an emotionally single without a lover. haha
You take care… And God bless you…