
Originally Posted by
jodoyz
m 23 pa sis. hehe
oo. romeo and juliet kunuhay.. hehe lol.. pero di sad in.adto ka grabeh..
i will tell you, pagkahuman y i think he s still my dream guy...
i still wasn't open to tell anybody about this topic before but then they said i should share.. to make things easier... so here
he was older than me ug 1 year so 24 nata cya run..
third party? no sis... wala gyud ko nagprobs ana wid him, i dont know, he seems to be contented.. ako ray, burara adto na tym.. and he constantly forgives me..thats why sad na, i really fell in love with him..
what happened was, i of all people was the last person he told na he had problems regarding his health.. everybody knew, and i didnt. laen jud kay to para nako. ur boyfriend, diagnosed... diagnosed with cancer! it was a very big deal... syempre na shock ko sis, i wasnt able to grasp it at first. it took me a month to ever face him. a month with sleepless nights.. grabeh, every damn night tears would fall. but i didnt want to talk to him yet. since wala mi contact during ato na month, i didnt knew na it was hurting him too. his sister even went up to me sa school, gikasab.an ko! she even slapped me sa iyang kalagot..ngano kuno i was acting such... (syempre, wala pa to nako nakaya sis uy.. wala pa kay nako na load ang info. it was hard to imagine..)
then, it came.. i wanted to see him.. we talked.. settle things again.. but after that, everything wasnt the same na.. thats why i said four happy years lang.. although we were together for 5 years.., darkness did fall on the 5th year.. he was sent to america, medyo richness laha family.. but before he did, he was trying to tell me to give him up. to let him go. he said na, at least sayo pa for me to move on. syempre i did not agree. kasayang sa amo years, and then id let some illness ruin it. he kept on discouraging me. he would not want to talk to me. pero i did pursue. i did still want to make things happen. i love him man gud. i really did. i wanted to make things right. when they flew to america na, medyo hinay na amo commu. kay syempre he was busy with his health things. i would email him everyday, saying na its okay. ul be alright. its nothing. he would reply lang once a week, pero okay ra ghapun to nako! i would be the one to call him sis. asking him how he is and all. after 8 months he came back.. dili na cya pakita nako, i would visit him..pero nara cya sa iyang room. kulang nalang i would tell his mom, na i will marry your son now na! hehe...but syempre wala nalang, they myt think it was a joke...
few months running... he wanted to speak to me..
he was pale, bald na, but he still had that smile. the smile that sweeps me off my feet, the smile na wud lift me when i was down... char kay sis noh, pero tinuod.. he told me everything, that he loved me. and he might be gone soon. and he also told me to do him a favor... a favor to let him go... a favor na i really did not want to do, but felt like it was something na i should. cos it was hurting man him gud, to see me daw still there. what nalang kuno mu happen if wala na cya, and m still holding on. but it was hurting me too sis. i told him he could not blame me if i can. gahi jud kay kog ulo, i wanted to still go on..thats just because i love him... so he told me, he'd give me time...
then i had a few talks from our closest friends. and i even went to my mom. and she told me to let go. i was young pa daw to be experiencing such. i should daw let go, but still continue to support him. his mom went up to me, and said the same thing...
and so i did...and it made him happy.. but i was still there.. as friends.. we'd pretend as if walay nahitabo...we did go on.. ni move cya back to the province, since dili kay healthy para nia mu stay sa city.. commu ghapun.. text gud mi everyday..
then it came... he left.. i was at work when that happened! (ga work ko, tas ga school)... emergency call, wen i went to get it. the bad news! as in.. i can still remember.. murag ni hunong gani ang world.. i could not hear anything else.. i felt cold.. and i started to cry.. na shock to ang uban employees, they where all infront of me.. and i couldnt care less. i did not move.. the night, i rushed to get a ticket sa fastcraft, went there! and didto ni continue... i would just lean on a corner, and just be with myself.. and cry... after....
hahaay, sis... murag taas2 na akong nasuwat... ato sa putlon....