i'm sorry, that you have to go through all of this, but nobody said that life would be easy
i think your a strong person, you decided to leave your husband and actually left him
focus on your life now, your kids need you
i don't understand, why you think, luoy ang kids, they just left hell
unless, of course you have second thoughts, and just making an excuse "for the sake of the kids" to return to him
whatever it is, please decide what you want ... its your life and your kids