
i don't know if LDR na imo or if one sided na, but, i do know how it feels to be yearning so much
it can even lead to depression
like having to cry almost every night over your pillow cause you know you have to move on,
remembering almost everything about him and even associating every single thing on him even if it's totally unrelated
and having to talk o your friends and interrupt them unconsciously by saying something about him
which reminds me mau ng sge kog pangaway diri sauna just to divert my attention
cause entering into that debate thingy would require me to read articles and hinder my mind from thinking of him lol
it's totally a very painful process
i even thought that if i endure the pain then it will eventually fade
or to a point that i have to keep on hurting myself until i will give up
but then it won't really work
and then seeing him happy with somebody else would give me that much jealousy until such time it made me realize that i will never be able to give him that kind of happiness...
i have to accept that it won't work
nothing can make it work
he is happy with her
he is unhappy with me
it can't be helped.
that's jut how it is
my purpose ended there
my life is not all about me
it includes letting people go and accepting defeat
and my life didn't stop there
i still have dreams to achieve with or without him
so don't be such a crybaby TS
it's not like you lost your body,
you just lost a part of you...
but you can still live
