I read your blog and you write good actually. Now going back to that girl....sorry to hear you lost her. Yeah, you really were and still is very much in love with her up to the present time. I know how that feels when you cannot have the person you really love. Somehow sadly enough, you have to let go but hang on to those wonderful memories....
this is what i do ---
I imagine that i am in a beach with a big travelling bag. I put that person i love inside that bag and zip it to closure. I would say to myself .... "you have been so wonderfully nice and perfect to me and how i loved you God knows, but its time for you to set me free"...free from pain, free from longing, free from our memories, free from the love that i gave to only you and no one else. Goodbye, I set myself free from you".
...then you let that travelling bag float and go as it makes its way into the motion of the waves, taking that bag farther away into the ocean's horizon and its nowhere in sight.....tapos...you just let her go
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