The One Who Got Away

[Streetcar]

---

I read your blog and you write good actually. Now going back to that girl....sorry to hear you lost her. Yeah, you really were and still is very much in love with her up to the present time. I know how that feels when you cannot have the person you really love. Somehow sadly enough, you have to let go but hang on to those wonderful memories....

this is what i do ---

I imagine that i am in a beach with a big travelling bag. I put that person i love inside that bag and zip it to closure. I would say to myself .... "you have been so wonderfully nice and perfect to me and how i loved you God knows, but its time for you to set me free"...free from pain, free from longing, free from our memories, free from the love that i gave to only you and no one else. Goodbye, I set myself free from you".

...then you let that travelling bag float and go as it makes its way into the motion of the waves, taking that bag farther away into the ocean's horizon and its nowhere in sight.....tapos...you just let her go

tell me if u like it

[Ms.Beau]

@streetcar: i bet many would do this after--> get obsessed thinking about who found the bag on the distant shores ahihihihihi

[jugs_06]

@tokidoki:

nice blog you got there.. unfortunately, people come and go in our lives in a journey towards happiness.. with all the people we constantly meet in our daily lives, there's just one person who'll stick in your heart.. it just so happened that that woman found a certain place in you because of the memories, etc..

you are definitely inlove dude..

[kazuya]

ur story is very heartbreaking... *sighs* LIFE

[tokidoki]

I imagine that i am in a beach with a big travelling bag. I put that person i love inside that bag and zip it to closure. I would say to myself .... "you have been so wonderfully nice and perfect to me and how i loved you God knows, but its time for you to set me free"...free from pain, free from longing, free from our memories, free from the love that i gave to only you and no one else. Goodbye, I set myself free from you".

I sure hope you didn't chop him up into little pieces and got rid of the evidence. hahaha...

[psyd_1]

so sad...tsk tsk tsk..ana jud ang life bro...too harsh...

[hera_82]

@tokidoki,

Am sorry to hear about that sad love chronicle. I hope you are happy though, with your life now.

But shoots! You got me glued! :mrgreen:
This is one proof that first-hand experiences always make the best stories.

[tokidoki]

Here's a copy of a reply I gave to Ms.Beau (thanks for the inspiring message):

Actually, since I've lost that girl I did settle for less. Being in and out of relationships that wouldn't measure up. I'm a person who wants only the best. I do my best and expect the best. I want to bring out the best in her and in me. I even buy the best things I can realistically afford and yet when it comes to women, "pataka lang punit", as my mother would scornfully say. So you see you really can't say that I'm comparing them with her. I'm just saying it now because I'm single. You get to reflect on a lot of things when you're on a road of bachelorhood. Besides, I barely think about her when I'm in a relationship. hahahah...

Also, I'm not looking for a girl to complete me. I want a girl to be my equal. And she was. Wa gyud na sa akong criteria nga if ever ako siya awayon magpa ubos siya or that she somewhat humbles herself needlessly when I can sense she knows more than she's letting on. Or if I talk about intellectual things - and even nothings - I don't get a blank stare that simply represents a big "DUH" on her face. No discrimination intended, but it's REEAAAAALLLY hard to find a woman that you can carry an intellectual conversation and have a meaningful response in return. Murag it seems everytime I talk to women these days all I get are reactions nga "di ta magstorya ana oi!". Unsa nalang storyahan? Make up and gossip? Geez! Please lang, i'm sick and tired of listening to what Piolo Pascual ate this lunch or 1 year ago or what happened in PBB last week or god-knows-what telenovela they're talking about. Figures, it's a statistical fact that watching these shows actually degrade your brain, which accounts to the fact that a good number of Filipina women have the same IQ as a television set. It's not a generalization, mind you, so please don't lynch me. hehehe...

I would like to point out this girl is no "silver spoon in her mouth" type. Pobre ni but she's smart. So di ka kaingon high-class ko ug uyab.

After my relationship around last year, I realized that I'm worth more than these women, why am I stooping so low to accept someone who couldn't measure up?

I may sound arrogant or selfish saying that but you have to think ba. Ikaw pa magpa ubos. Ikaw pa gyud masakitan and for what? To try to love someone you eventually realize is not what you wanted? Di man gani ta malipay anang order sa restaurant nga sayop unsa nalang kaha sa uyab? And then when you go sulking in self-pity amongst your friends you get the same advice you've all heard before. "She's not worth it." O, naa ra man diay na! That advice speaks a thousand words. To put it simply, why settle for less when you can have the best? Diba? Why give that advice and then tell us that we should love unconditionally? It's very contradictory that it boils down to hypocrisy. Don't you agree?

I'm not getting any younger and I can't afford to waste my time on unnecessary relationships.

Let's think about that. hehehe...

[Rance]

I believe that there is always somebody extra special to all the people or friends that we have been involved in our life experiences. I know few but not many of my friends out there but there is always a special person or two that will always be remembered.. as you said, packed them in a bag and zip it to closure but the memories and the happy thoughts together willl always alive and will live forever. I missed her too, I was able to checked in the internet one day and found out that she's married but no kids, married to a foreigner.. she is still the same person when we exchange conversation in emails, chat.. I wanted to call but I haven't had a chance to hear her voice again.. saw her pictures, she looks matured and I can still recognize the beauty inside of her.. I have to move on and live life.. I am happy for her.. and I k now she's happy for me too.. she's always be my friend forever.

[evs]

some people are just so unforgettable.....corny no but it's true....some things aren't just meant to be....
so hang in there.....