Thanks to you all who have reacted positively to this thread..but to some of you who were amm..i dont know how to put it but in a not so agreeable manner I understand you because I was not really clear about my problem..for selfish reasons that may sound idiotic to some?..

..well,the truth is I am not looking for a new relationship..it would be unfair to become a rebound..and actually, I just want to keep it private as possible because I felt so suffocated right now..apparently,my situation is difficult let's just say that my BF placed me in an unseen cage..just give me that indulgence of not elaborating that part..anyway I know it's all up to me to surpass this challenge because no matter how sound your advises are or how inviting and exciting the diversions maybe if I will succomb to my insecurities and decide to be a loser then all your advises will be of NO vail..but I made a mistake of posting my number here as you correctly pointed out the downside of doing it..and yeah, at this point I have never been so vulnerable and weak but that doesn't mean that I would grab anyone who would offer me solace and not think about the consequences..that is why I just asked for someone to talk to..just to help me get busy..it maybe childish to some to be so dependent at this age and time but hey No man is an Island right?..but I am glad with your reply now I know that bayanihan spirit still lives on..infairness to my bf..our relationship still doesn't have a closure..it's only my Faith in him that's wavering and that made our relationship unstable..you see, he is not only a boyfriend to me..he is also my bestfriend,my confidant, my alter ego, my brother, my father, and my baby all rolled into one..with him I am not afraid to be myself..he knows,he understands and he takes me as I am..unfortunately, but I don't wanna think about it right now..I just want him out of my mind and I know you could help just like now..I really have fun reading your replies..they put smile upon my face..it is only now that I have visited my thread because i did keep myself busy..just before school, I travelled to a lot of places..and yes, I pamper myself..

..indulge in facials and massage..play badminton and jog in the park..but yes,
at night when I am alone and the house is quiet the ghost comes haunting again..I know I sound so pathetic,but well,I am taking this day by day...one at a time..and yes, I have devotional prayer because God is the ultimate Healer..thanks everyone and God Bless...