Unbearable

[pajuu]

It is hard to believe a person can live like this, missing you all the time. At least it's not the only thing I think about. When in school I think about my studies, but sometimes you drift into my mind, when I hear something funny. And there is too much schoolwork, most of the time I am too busy to think of you, but when it is slow there you are. You are always there when I have nothing to do. I think of how I would rather be doing nothing with you around rather than alone. And always as I go to bed, I'd pray I would dream about you.

It has been making me mad lately. More mad than I want to get. I hear all the stories of love, I watch my friends in love or getting their hearts broken, I know you think we are not meant to be, but that doesn't stop anyone else. Sometimes when I am alone, thinking of you, missing you, I think about how you are probably having a great time. How you are surrounded by the people you care about, doing the things you want to be doing, and not thinking of or missing me. And it hurts. When I have those thoughts I try to tell myself that we are just in different places, you want to have fun, being free and young.

But recently like I said I have been mad. I don't want to make excuses for you. I don't want to have to make myself feel better, I don't want this constant reminder that we are apart and that you don't mind it. It scares me sometimes. The thought of it always being like this, it chills me.

My heart and head sometimes doubts you. My head suggests the idea that you will never change. You will always want to be free; you will always see me as a person in your life that you never had to care about, but no more than that. Or maybe you will someday see that another person is worth making sacrifices for, another person makes your life complete, but that person won't be me.

I guess that is my biggest fear, you will choose someone else. Well, I already knew you did before I first talked to you that one night. There is no more to write about. The anguish doesn't lessen with each word I write, it only grows stronger with every minute that passes. Missing you makes my life hard. And knowing that I will miss you for many more days only makes it unbearable.



I'm just getting kinda bored. Yeah so I wrote this.

[sHenZee03]

Good piece. ^_^

[abewtifulmind]

yeah ... nice one... but sad..

[saitohkiyohiru]

And the more you dwell on this thought, the more you get sucked in. Get up stand up and think beyond the box that you have imprisoned yourself in.

[luke0917]

thought on love to ponder...

[ramzeners]

Good piece. ^_^

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[Mr. BrokenHearted]

waaaaaaaaa gamay kaayo pero sige na lng ok na lng hahahaha

[takas bahay]

@TS

OK nga OK unta pero gamay lang kaayo...dak-a sunod ang font size TS para perfect na.

[Tirong-say]

maora man ug hidden feelings ni kang TS.