Kung mag boang2 kining atong "Amahan"

[elastic-me]

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helo.
i made this topic to share and for also you people to share and give me some advices and hear your reactions.

have you experienced or saw a family nga ang papa kai mag boang2?
i'm the onli boy sa among mag igsuon and the rest r gurls na.
ika 3rd ko in our family.
my 2 old sister kai war ang relationship sila sako papa,
but our oldest sister kai xa rai maka sukol nya xa rai
maka storya sako papa like mangayo para tambal and etc.
our eldest ray iyang gi ila as "anak".

i can't really remember na kaayo mga past memories nako.
bastah all i know, cge xa pangita bikil nya dapat dapatan ra
niya akong mama ug duha nako ka igso.on and as a child
wa koi nabuhat ato nga time kung di gi tan.aw cla gaaway
nya gahilak akong mama. when i was like around in grade 6,
didto nako nag sugod niyag hate kai kana ganing cge ug panugo, mamunal, mangulata
ug unsa pa inyong makit.an nga mga amahan nga ga boang2.
i had an experiences before na sa balai jd sa among silingan
and saksi sila sa pag bunal ug kulata. ganahan jd ko ato
mu laag nga time pero mag pa kawt man xa sa iyang ulo
so nangita ko paagi para kalaag ko. suya kaayo ko kai akong
mga migo kai ga duwa2. then ni rason ko nga naa koy paliton den ma.o to wa nako nibalik.
pagkahibaw niya ni laag ko iya ko gi sung unya gi bakus ko didto sa balai sa amo silingan.
i really hate my father but di ko ka sukol. cge ko kalagot nya isog kai ko
if talikod xa pero nig atubang na niya makuyawan jd kog maayo.
ganahan jd ko musokol and if mag tubag2 ta mu dapat dapat xa ug sukmag.
ma.o nang hilom kaayo mi if mu abot na xa sa balai. hangol kaayo nga isog.
kuyawan jud ko ug maayo. phobia ba ni xa? kai like other fathers, father sako miga or migo,
bxtah pa du.ol ko nila kai mangurog nya kuyawan ko kai pirmi nako ma.huna2 ang kulata sako papa.
nya masuya pd ko nila usahay kai nindot kai ilang papa.


and i realized that i'm a little gay.
i cannot say that im totaly gay coz i dont really move like one
nga bulgar kaau nga mag ikid2 or unsa pa linihokan sa mga bayot.
and i am a kind of person that serious kaayo sa pananw sa mga tao nya hilumon,
ma uwawon and dli kay mu storya kai hadlok. and sometimes if
mu lihok ko kai ingnon dayon nga bayot, ana ana. nya sakit sad para nako.
effect ba ni siya from my past? like uban linihokan nako kai binayot
tungod sa pagkulata nko nya kuyawan ko.? im also afraid nga mapariha ko sa akong papa. kai naa nako nabantayan nga like example ing.ani nga lihok(masuko) kai makahuna2
ko sa linihukan aq papa nga gi ing.ani pd ko nya di ko ganahan ma pariha niya.

im really confused right now. my feelings are not stable kai usahay
fragile ra kai ko kai uban storya sa tao affected dayon ko pero
i always dont show or say what i feel to them and i dont want my friends
to know nga ga sakit d.i ko tungod lng ani coz i tell them nga
mag.sukol2 kos akong papa pera mkita nla nga isog ko pero dli d.i. aq d.i to'y nakuyawan.
nya ana sila this age kai mao ning pinaka sensitive nga part sa life sa mga bata.
i am 17 going 1st yr colege this opening. nya my mother is also changing,
i dont understand her anymore. and kung mangasaba niya masuko, maskitan dayun q.
this time rako na sensitive ug maayo.

pls guys, i need every advice u give. please understand if kalit or layo kaaug lupad aqng g storya.
ga dungan2 nmn gd sud sa utok.

[junmar4]

naa ta gitawag ug women's desk sa police.

[bluesapphire]

I know you experience a lot and i know it's a painful experience especially since bata ka pa naka experience ana..the only thing i can advice is for you to pray and seek for God's guidance.. i know its difficult to love or understand your parents especially they treated you that way but the bible says that we should honor our parents.. Ephesians 6:1-3 Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.”... No matter how difficult they maybe, still his your father... also i think the best thing to do din is to forgive your father for what he had done to you coz once you learn to forgive it will be easy to let go of the past and move on..i know its not that easy, Forgiveness does not come easy for most of us. Our natural instinct is to recoil in self-protection when we've been injured. We don't naturally overflow with mercy, grace and forgiveness when we've been wronged.But the Bible teach us in Colossians 3:13


"Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you." ... at first syempre lisod sya coz of the pain na imo na feel since pag ka bata nimo,but there is no impossible with God.. continue to pray, believe that you have a God who can move mountains.. pray also for your dad, for your family, pray for comfort and just lay and surrender everything to God and in His time you will see how God will work in your life and in your family.. hope this help.. God bless

[nando]

bro, medyo may pagka smilar ato life like ako ra 1 na boy, unya 3 kobook ako sis, den medyo may pagka maldito ako amahan... pero mo ingon na may pagka "gay".. hehehe.. di na... pero stand up in front of your father... if he does bad thing sa imoha di ka nag iisa... naa imo mga igsoon ug silingan mo witness...