honestly there is no such thing as preparation for me,,,,,,
i could say so because i am on that chapter of the relationship right now..... he told me that the spark is gone, and why should i push knowing he does not have feelings for me anymore, i just suddenly felt that he became cold. it was and it is sad unfortunately i was so bad. i begged and knelt down and bargained to keep what ever we have. i even negotiated that it is ok for me for him to have someone else aside from me just so he won't leave me. i know i did not do the smart decision but it is what i think is better to make myself feel ok. it is really hard to prepare for a disaster like this, it is never easy. i don't know why but it really is one of the hardest thing to learn in life. this is not my first time but it always seems to the first one and i never get to learn this trick in this game called LOVE......





